The band released its first LP, 'Wonderworld of Colourful', in 1998. It was followed later that year by a four-song EP. Several songs found frequent airplay in U.S. and Canadian college rock stations. A retooled lineup of the Nines released 'Properties of Sound' in 2001. Its latest work is 'Calling Distance Stations', released in 2006.
Insanity
The Nines Lyrics
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Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me
I'm feeling anxious so please no don't stare at me
I'm talking straight you don't like my vulgarity
Don't mean to curse but no it's fucking part of me
Say it's okay but you look at me hardly
Work to get my heart rate down but mind is never resting
Feeling like I'm losing everybody say I'm winning
I ain't crazy yet but know it's fucking in my vision
My reality's in waviness
I weirdly wanna savor this
I usually tend to aim and miss
And always end up throwing fits
I look in my distorted mirror
Voice in my head I can't hear her
Feet are small and head is bigger
I could paint a vivid picture
Seeing double like your sipping liquor
Fog around you like your cig is with ya
And a swisher
Emotional dysregulation
Think you're fine but you're mistaken
Speaking but my eyes are vacant
Never know my point of breaking
Till it's broken
The weed I smoke is potent
I'm posing while they pointing
Say I hope that you're enjoying
I'm floating like I'm buoyant
But these people all annoying
They hoping that you're holding
Lots a cash like you important
But you ain't shit but a stoner with anxiety
You ain't gonna be nothing else
As hard as you try to be
Maybe I should realize that I'm
The only one trying me
So stop acting like these problems
They just be finding me
I'm finally
Making realizations
Things that never quite made sense to me
Like math equations
And I always wanted answers because
I'm impatient
But now that I'm getting somewhere
It was worth the waiting
I'll run away from the edge of insanity
Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me
Say I need help but no I ain't no charity
Want me to change but no I do not care to be
Something I'm not yeah I like living carelessly
You not like me we don't got similarities
I ain't always been this fucking nervous
Used to be myself and not care much bout what the world is
But then shit started coming to the surface
Now I struggle just to find my inner self and what my worth is
It ain't always picture perfect
Pour a glass cuz I deserve it
I reflect against the surface
Just to try to find my purpose
Like a phone I'm out of service
I don't got none more
And now I'm drunk
And I'm wondering what I called for
This shit it hurts
Like your fingers in a car door
I'm at my worst
Say I'm okay but I'm not sure
It'd be a first
If you didn't think I'm lying
What the fuck you think I'm hiding
I'm not trying to be violent
Turning blue just like I'm violet
Cuz I said fuck air
Need that THC the O2 just don't compare
They say believe in me but I really just don't care
They may be onto me but I still be unaware
The way y'all waking up so peacefully is unfair
I don't dare
Take that for granted
Wanna sleep
But I can't stand it
Honestly
I cannot manage
Waking up
So empty handed
Light me up
Just like that backwood
Tell me sum
To make me feel good
Even if you're really lying
Please just try your best to hide it
I'll run away from the edge of insanity
Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me
The Nines's song Insanity portrays a feeling of anxiety and internal struggles. The singer is trying to run away from the limits of sanity and desires to figure out their true purpose. The lyrics reveal the confusion and fear felt by the singer who states that their mind is splitting in two, which is scary. The singer admits to feeling anxious and not wanting people to stare at them. They express themselves through vulgarity, which they acknowledge is a part of them. The singer also reflects on their past self and how everything was different then, but as things started to surface, their inner turmoil began.
The chorus of the song shows the singer's realization of their internal struggles and their attempt to achieve some clarity. They want to break free from their mentality that has been causing them anxiety and fear. The song shows a person's inner turmoil and how it affects their mental and emotional state. It also portrays how it is hard for people to understand one's internal struggles.
Line by Line Meaning
I'll run away from the edge of insanity
I'll flee the brink of mental collapse
Let's pour one out for this moment of clarity
Let's celebrate this brief instance of lucidity
Try to think straight but my mind has polarity
I struggle to focus while my thoughts diverge
Splitting in two like this shits really scaring me
I feel like I'm falling apart and it terrifies me
I'm feeling anxious so please no don't stare at me
I'm paranoid, don't look at me
I'm talking straight you don't like my vulgarity
I'm being honest, even if my language is vulgar
Don't mean to curse but no it's fucking part of me
I don't intend to swear, but it's a natural part of who I am
Say it's okay but you look at me hardly
You tell me it's fine, but your expression suggests otherwise
I ain't been this tied up in a second
I haven't felt this stressed in a while
Work to get my heart rate down but mind is never resting
I try to calm down, but my mind won't stop racing
Feeling like I'm losing everybody say I'm winning
I feel like I'm alone, despite others' praise
I ain't crazy yet but know it's fucking in my vision
I'm not clinically insane, but it feels like I'm losing my mind
My reality's in waviness
My perception of reality is distorted and fluid
I weirdly wanna savor this
I strangely want to enjoy this experience
I usually tend to aim and miss
I often fail to achieve my goals
And always end up throwing fits
And I frequently lose my temper
I look in my distorted mirror
I see myself in a warped reflection
Voice in my head I can't hear her
I can't understand the thoughts in my own mind
Feet are small and head is bigger
I feel small and insignificant
I could paint a vivid picture
I could describe my experiences in detail
Seeing double like your sipping liquor
I'm dizzy and disoriented
Fog around you like your cig is with ya
There's a haze clouding my thoughts
And a swisher
And the smell of smoke
Emotional dysregulation
I struggle to control my emotions
Think you're fine but you're mistaken
You think you're okay, but you're not really
Speaking but my eyes are vacant
I'm talking, but my mind is elsewhere
Never know my point of breaking
I don't know when I'll reach my breaking point
Till it's broken
Until I've already fallen apart
The weed I smoke is potent
The marijuana I use is strong
I'm posing while they pointing
I'm acting like everything's okay while others criticize me
Say I hope that you're enjoying
I pretend that I'm happy, but I'm not really
I'm floating like I'm buoyant
I feel weightless and carefree
But these people all annoying
But the people around me are irritating
They hoping that you're holding
They expect you to be successful
Lots a cash like you important
Financial success equates to worth and importance
But you ain't shit but a stoner with anxiety
But I'm just a person struggling with anxiety and marijuana use
You ain't gonna be nothing else
I won't be anything more than what I am now
As hard as you try to be
Even if I try my best to change
Maybe I should realize that I'm
Perhaps I need to acknowledge that I am
The only one trying me
The only person holding me back is myself
So stop acting like these problems
I need to stop pretending that my problems
They just be finding me
Are outside of my control
I'm finally
I've reached a point where I am
Making realizations
Coming to terms with things I previously didn't understand
Things that never quite made sense to me
Things that always eluded my understanding
Like math equations
Such as complicated mathematical formulas
And I always wanted answers because
And I've always craved answers because
I'm impatient
I'm not very good at waiting
But now that I'm getting somewhere
But now that I'm making progress
It was worth the waiting
All that time spent waiting was worth it
Say I need help but no I ain't no charity
I don't want to be pitied, just supported
Want me to change but no I do not care to be
Others want me to change, but I don't want to conform
Something I'm not yeah I like living carelessly
I enjoy being myself and living without rules or restrictions
You not like me we don't got similarities
You and I are different, and we don't share many traits
I ain't always been this fucking nervous
I haven't always been this anxious
Used to be myself and not care much bout what the world is
I used to be carefree and unconcerned with the opinions of others
But then shit started coming to the surface
But then my issues became more apparent
Now I struggle just to find my inner self and what my worth is
Now I find it difficult to understand myself and what I'm worth
It ain't always picture perfect
Life isn't always easy and ideal
Pour a glass cuz I deserve it
I'll treat myself to a drink
I reflect against the surface
I look at myself in the mirror
Just to try to find my purpose
In an attempt to understand my purpose in life
Like a phone I'm out of service
I feel disconnected and unresponsive
I don't got none more
I have nothing left
And now I'm drunk
And now I'm intoxicated
And I'm wondering what I called for
And I'm unsure of why I decided to call
This shit it hurts
This situation is painful
Like your fingers in a car door
Like the sensation of having your fingers pinched in a car door
I'm at my worst
I'm in a bad state
Say I'm okay but I'm not sure
I tell others I'm okay, but I'm uncertain
It'd be a first
It would be a new experience
If you didn't think I'm lying
If you actually believed me
What the fuck you think I'm hiding
What do you think I'm keeping from you?
I'm not trying to be violent
I'm not attempting to be aggressive
Turning blue just like I'm violet
I feel ill and discolored, like a violet flower
Cuz I said fuck air
Because I don't care about breathing
Need that THC the O2 just don't compare
I believe marijuana is better than oxygen for calming me down
They say believe in me but I really just don't care
Others claim to have faith in me, but I don't value their opinion
They may be onto me but I still be unaware
Others may suspect my issues, but I'm oblivious to them
The way y'all waking up so peacefully is unfair
It's not fair that others wake up happy and at peace while I struggle with my issues
I don't dare
I'm too afraid
Take that for granted
To underestimate the value of something
Wanna sleep
I want to rest
But I can't stand it
But I'm unable to rest
Honestly
To be truthful
I cannot manage
I'm unable to cope
Waking up
To become conscious in the morning
So empty handed
Feeling empty and unfulfilled
Light me up
To light a joint or cigarette
Just like that backwood
Like that brand of tobacco leaves
Tell me sum
Tell me something
To make me feel good
To uplift my mood
Even if you're really lying
Even if you're not telling the truth
Please just try your best to hide it
Please try not to make it obvious that you're lying
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Hannah Klein
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