Last Christmas
The O.C. Mix 3: Have a Very Merry Chrismukkah Lyrics
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And I promised that I would kill myself
So I wrote a million letters
And in all of them I'll say that it's your fault
So I held a knife to my throat
Cause my Christmas wish was for you to just listen
Now I am used to the ghosts
But that day I think I saw the Christmas spirit
I packed my shit in a bag and I walked away
Took a bus to a bridge, forgot to jump
Ended up sleeping in a parking lot
By the time I got back to my house
It was Christmas Eve and everybody's happy now
I love Christmas but fuck you all
You'll have Christmas lunch beneath my floorboards
And you won't call the police
Cause they don't come here anymore
I hate Christmas because of you
And I'll fuck up my bedroom
Because Jesus Christ didn't die for me or you
And on the very next day
It was Christmas morning and I'm wide awake
And when the sun came up on the 26th
It was Boxing Day and I'm missing Christmas
The lyrics in the song "Last Christmas" from The O.C. Mix 3 paint a dark and emotionally intense picture of someone on the brink of despair during the Christmas season. The song begins with the singer expressing deep pain and desperation, stating that they had made a promise to themselves to end their life on the 23rd of December, blaming someone else for their suffering. The imagery of writing a million letters, holding a knife to their throat, and feeling haunted by ghosts suggests a profound sense of anguish and hopelessness.
As the lyrics unfold, the singer describes a moment of clarity or perhaps a fleeting glimpse of hope when they mention seeing the Christmas spirit among the darkness that surrounds them. This moment prompts them to leave, packing their belongings and leaving their life behind, even attempting to end it by going to a bridge but ultimately not following through. The mention of sleeping in a parking lot and returning home to a seemingly cheerful Christmas Eve paints a stark contrast between the singer's inner turmoil and the festive cheer of the holiday season.
The lyrics take a sinister turn as the singer expresses their resentment towards Christmas and those around them, vowing to disrupt the celebration and displaying a disregard for traditional values and beliefs. The mention of the police no longer coming and the imagery of having Christmas lunch beneath their floorboards hint at disturbing and violent tendencies, showcasing a disturbed mind grappling with deep-seated anguish and anger towards others.
Despite the tumultuous emotions and destructive thoughts conveyed in the song, there is a sense of loss and longing in the final lines as the singer realizes that they are missing out on the joy and connection that Christmas might have brought. The mention of Boxing Day and the singer feeling the absence of Christmas highlights their isolation and disconnection from the world around them, emphasizing the profound impact of mental distress during a time that is often associated with love and togetherness. Overall, the lyrics of "Last Christmas" delve into themes of despair, isolation, and the struggle to find meaning and connection in the darkest of times.
Line by Line Meaning
It was the 23rd of December
The day before Christmas Eve
And I promised that I would kill myself
I felt so overwhelmed that I contemplated self-harm
So I wrote a million letters
I tried to express my pain through writing
And in all of them I'll say that it's your fault
Blaming someone else for my struggles
So I held a knife to my throat
Feeling desperate and hopeless
Cause my Christmas wish was for you to just listen
Yearning for someone to understand and support me
Now I am used to the ghosts
Haunted by my past experiences
But that day I think I saw the Christmas spirit
Feeling a glimmer of hope or positivity
And on the very same day
Immediately afterwards
I packed my shit in a bag and I walked away
Deciding to leave everything behind
Took a bus to a bridge, forgot to jump
Failed suicide attempt
Ended up sleeping in a parking lot
Finding myself in a dark and lonely place
By the time I got back to my house
Returning home empty-handed
It was Christmas Eve and everybody's happy now
Feeling isolated and disconnected from the holiday cheer
I love Christmas but fuck you all
Mixed emotions towards the festive season
You'll have Christmas lunch beneath my floorboards
Expressing anger and resentment towards others
And you won't call the police
Feeling abandoned and ignored
Cause they don't come here anymore
Losing trust in authority figures
I hate Christmas because of you
Associating negative feelings with a particular person or event
And I'll fuck up my bedroom
Acting out in frustration and despair
Because Jesus Christ didn't die for me or you
Questioning religious beliefs and values
And on the very next day
The day after Christmas
It was Christmas morning and I'm wide awake
Reflecting on the holiday with a sense of emptiness
And when the sun came up on the 26th
The day after Christmas Day
It was Boxing Day and I'm missing Christmas
Feeling a sense of loss and longing for the holiday season
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Sam Onishi
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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This christmas, this song is gonna mean a whole lot more
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Merry Chrismukkah to all🎅
@JavierMartinez-zq2vb
Ojalá este año sea el año.
Te amo amor, te amo y te extraño.
@shamane_2990
O.C love it
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O.C is Life
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email doc Forever and ever. Still
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@Lucas V forever the oc!!!