Regrets
TruePilot Lyrics
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I've gotten numb
I just forgot
How it is to be alone
Hearts feels like stone
Getting up off my knees
Dream of what I could own
But I'm only 18
I've been thinking alone
Cause I don't know why I feel this way
My mind starts to roam
Cause I know that I'm never gonna be that way
Now it's got me reaching into the dark
Cause I don't wanna be insane anymore
And I should be ashamed
Cause I felt the same before
I know what I want
Reality
But what I've done
Can't say sorry
I don't wanna impede
I know what I feel
And I know this ain't me
Don't know what it is cause I been in my own head
But I'll stick around for the end
Don't know what this is but I'm in over my head
Don't wanna feel this way again
Don't know what it is
But I'm focusing
To keep you at bay
To keep you away
Was it how you feel
Were we even real
Promise I can change my identity
Got no ID is this where I belong
Can I prevent this pain
I can't isolate
The inconsistent aim
I can't seem to change
To chase my dream
I want to reach
I know what I feel
But I know this ain't me
Don't know what it is cause I been in my own head
But I'll stick around for the end
Don't know what this is but I'm in over my head
Don't wanna feel this way again
Don't know what it is cause I been in my own head
But I'll stick around for the end
Don't know what this is but I'm in over my head
Don't wanna feel this way again
The lyrics of TruePilot's "Regrets" explore the confusion and inner turmoil of a young person who feels lost and disconnected from reality. The first verse sets the tone for the emotional struggle, with the singer feeling numb and isolated. The line "but I'm only 18" emphasizes the theme of youth and inexperience that runs throughout the song. The refrain "I don't know what it is" highlights the singer's uncertainty and the lack of understanding of their own emotions.
As the song progresses, the lyrics touch on the idea of identity, with the singer questioning their own sense of self and feeling the need to change who they are. The line "can I prevent this pain, I can't isolate" reflects the singer's sense of helplessness and inability to cope with their emotions alone. They also express a desire to chase their dreams and reach their potential, but feel held back by their own insecurities and doubts.
Line by Line Meaning
It's been so long
It's been a long time since I've been truly happy and fulfilled.
I've gotten numb
I've become emotionally desensitized over time and can no longer experience things as deeply as I used to.
I just forgot
The passage of time has made me forget what it feels like to be alone.
How it is to be alone
I've become so accustomed to being around people that I can't tolerate being alone anymore.
Hearts feels like stone
My heart is heavy and devoid of feeling.
Getting up off my knees
I'm trying to pick myself up and move forward despite feeling broken.
Dream of what I could own
I have aspirations and desires for things that I want to have or achieve.
But I'm only 18
I'm young and inexperienced, and still have a lot of growing to do.
I've been thinking alone
I spend a lot of time lost in my own thoughts and ideas.
Cause I don't know why I feel this way
I'm unsure of the reasons for my current emotional state.
My mind starts to roam
My thoughts are scattered and unfocused, making it difficult to concentrate.
Cause I know that I'm never gonna be that way
I know that I can never go back to the way things used to be, and that thought makes me sad.
Now it's got me reaching into the dark
I feel like I'm blindly searching for a way out of this emotional turmoil.
Cause I don't wanna be insane anymore
I want to feel stable and normal again, without my emotions overwhelming me.
And I should be ashamed
I feel guilty for being in this state, as if it's my fault.
Cause I felt the same before
This isn't the first time I've felt like this, and that scares me.
I know what I want
I have a clear idea of what I want from life.
Reality
I'm trying to ground myself in the present and avoid getting lost in my own thoughts.
But what I've done
I've made mistakes that I can't take back, and that haunts me.
Can't say sorry
I can't apologize for things that I can't change, no matter how much I want to.
I don't wanna impede
I don't want my emotions and past mistakes to stop me from moving forward.
I know what I feel
I have a strong sense of what I'm currently feeling.
And I know this ain't me
I feel like I'm not myself, or that I've lost sight of who I am.
Don't know what it is cause I been in my own head
I'm not sure what's causing my emotional distress, but I know that I spend a lot of time in my own thoughts.
But I'll stick around for the end
I'm determined to see this through and not give up, even if it's difficult.
Don't know what this is but I'm in over my head
I'm in a situation that's more complicated and difficult than I initially thought.
Don't wanna feel this way again
I don't want to go through this kind of emotional pain again.
To keep you at bay
I'm trying to push others away to avoid being hurt again.
To keep you away
I'm afraid of getting close to others and opening myself up to the possibility of being hurt again.
Was it how you feel
I'm trying to understand the emotions of others and how they relate to me.
Were we even real
I'm questioning the authenticity of past relationships or experiences.
Promise I can change my identity
I'm willing to make drastic changes to myself or my life to escape my current emotional turmoil.
Got no ID is this where I belong
I don't have a clear sense of identity or where I fit in, which is adding to my emotional distress.
Can I prevent this pain
I'm trying to avoid experiencing emotional pain by changing my behavior or thought patterns.
I can't isolate
I can't push others away completely and avoid emotional pain without also hurting myself in the process.
The inconsistent aim
I can't seem to stay focused on a single goal or course of action for very long.
I can't seem to change
I'm having a difficult time changing my mindset or behavior, despite my best efforts.
To chase my dream
I want to pursue my goals and aspirations, even though it's difficult.
I want to reach
I want to succeed and achieve my goals, even if it's challenging.
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