Back to Back
Waxflower Lyrics

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So long in my head
I thought I could be dead
I don't care at all
And the thought of you still coming home barely
Barely pulls me through
And today those thoughts are coming on early I'll be leaving

I crossed your heart

I hope to die
I hurt yours and you hurt mine
All the words that I have said
They play back to back in my head

And I can't even tell what I want to say
But I think it would quell the unrest inside my brain

I crossed your heart I hope to die
I hurt yours and you hurt mine
All the words that I have said
They play back to back in my head

So save me
You're the one I waited for
So why did I leave at all

I crossed your heart I hope to die
I hurt yours and you hurt mine
And I crossed your heart
I hope to die
I hurt yours and you hurt mine

All the words that I have said
They play back to back in my head.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Waxflower's song "Back to Back" is a poignant lamentation of the aftermath of a broken relationship. The singer is struggling to come to terms with the reality of the end of their relationship and is consumed by the constant replay of their past mistakes in their head. The first verse perhaps suggests that the singer has been struggling with depression since the end of the relationship, as they confess to having had suicidal thoughts ("I thought I could be dead"), but indicate that the thought of their former partner coming home is still holding them together.

The chorus ("I crossed your heart/I hope to die/I hurt yours and you hurt mine/All the words that I have said/They play back to back in my head") is a vivid representation of the turmoil that the singer is feeling. They seem to acknowledge that they are responsible for the end of the relationship and the pain caused to their former partner, but can't seem to shake off the regret of what they've done. In the second verse, they admit that they don't even know how to articulate their feelings ("And I can't even tell what I want to say/But I think it would quell the unrest inside my brain") and they seem to be reaching out to their former partner ("So save me/You're the one I waited for/So why did I leave at all").

Overall, the lyrics of "Back to Back" is a haunting depiction of heartbreak and regret, capturing the raw emotions of losing someone who was once an essential part of one's life. It's an honest admission of fault and the human vulnerabilities that can sometimes cause irreparable damage to a relationship.

Line by Line Meaning

So long in my head
I've been holding onto these thoughts for a long time

I thought I could be dead
These thoughts have been so overwhelming that I feel like I could die

I don't care at all
I've become numb to the pain

And the thought of you still coming home barely
The idea of you returning barely keeps me going

Barely pulls me through
It's only just enough to help me survive

And today those thoughts are coming on early I'll be leaving
Today, the thoughts are too much to bear and I'll have to leave

I crossed your heart
I betrayed your trust

I hope to die
I'm showing how serious I am about my apology

I hurt yours and you hurt mine
We both hurt each other

All the words that I have said
All of the hurtful things I've said

They play back to back in my head
They repeat over and over in my mind

And I can't even tell what I want to say
I'm so overwhelmed that I can't form my thoughts into words

But I think it would quell the unrest inside my brain
Talking to you would help ease the turmoil and chaos inside my mind

So save me
I'm reaching out for help

You're the one I waited for
You're the person who can save me

So why did I leave at all
I regret leaving because I need your help now

Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: DANIEL SEYMOUR, JORDAN BEARD, NICK HARGANS, TRISTAN HIGGINSON

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