Overdose
Yabin Innato D.J. Lyrics

Little do you know
You are unaware

How I'm breakin' while you fall asleep
I am falling apart while you peacefully sleep

I'm still haunted by the memories
The memories continue to torment me

I'm tryin' to pick myself up piece by piece
I am attempting to rebuild myself slowly

I need a little more time
I require additional time

Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
Beneath the surface, I am trapped by my inner emptiness

I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind
I have restrained myself because I am afraid you will reconsider

I'm ready to forgive you, but forgettin' is a harder fight
I am prepared to forgive you, but forgetting is a more challenging battle

In a crowded room I still feel alone
Even in a room full of people, I feel isolated

Why tell me you love me when you know you don't
Why proclaim your love for me when you are aware it is not true

When I was up, everybody came around
When I was successful, everyone surrounded me

When I lost it all, ain't nobody couldn't be found
When I lost everything, nobody could be found

Don't call or text my phone, just leave me the fuck alone
Do not contact me, just leave me alone

I'm in my own zone, knowing I'm gonna die alone
I am in my own world, aware that I will die alone

We sit around and we crack jokes, took so many pills, I'm probably gonna overdose
We sit together and joke, but I have taken numerous pills and am likely to overdose

I take these pills to numb the pain
I consume these pills to numb my emotional suffering

Yeah, but I got a feeling, my demons gonna take me away
However, I have a sense that my inner demons will consume me

By tonight, my life's been wrong, I'm trying to make it right
By tonight, my life has been filled with mistakes, and I am striving to rectify it

So I just roll the dice, God saved me so many times
Thus, I take a chance, although God has saved me numerous times

Don't know if he can do it tonight, my heart's been aching
I am uncertain if He can save me tonight, as my heart has been in pain

I put that shit on ice, I've been in my head laying in my bed
I suppress those negative thoughts, but I have been stuck in my mind, lying in bed

I just wanna be gone, so stressed and depressed, I just wanna be gone
I simply desire to disappear, overwhelmed by stress and depression

Everything I loved just don't excite me no more
The things I once loved no longer bring me joy

Gunner, Piper and Bexlie, y'all are who I do this for
Gunner, Piper, and Bexlie, you are the reason I continue

As a kid I used to dream, now all I have is nightmares
As a child, I had aspirations, but now I am plagued by nightmares

I'm 25 now, you said I'd be lucky if I got here
I am now twenty-five, and you claimed I would be fortunate to reach this age

I got immune to the pills, I up'd my dosage
I have developed a tolerance to the pills, so I increased the dosage

It's so sad, I might end up overdosing
It is incredibly upsetting, as I may overdose

I'm happy when I'm high, I'm sad when I'm sober
I find joy when I am intoxicated, but sadness engulfs me when I am sober

This has been a tough battle, don't cry when the war is over
It has been a grueling struggle, please do not weep when the battle concludes

I really hate this disease, constantly searching for peace
I truly despise this affliction and am always seeking inner peace

Send my soul up, put my body six feet
Release my soul and lay my physical form to rest six feet under