Bittersweet
a bitter end. Lyrics
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If I remember I used to be so shy
I used to be so careless when I was young
I remember being so depressed when you were gone
Didn't have a voice to speak with
Didn't have an ear that I could reside
All the fears I kept within
All I wanted was to divide
Stood there like I was a stone
A coward I refuse to be
That's not how I'll raise my son
And I learned from my mistakes
Cuz they robbed me of my soul
And I know it's not too late
Too late
Bittersweet is this feeling inside
I never know my blessings till they die
I can't waste my life holding back,
Every time I'm losing sight
Bittersweet is my life
Bittersweet is life
I can't believe it's past
And I know it's not too late
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
And I only blame myself, you know
Cuz I remember that first time that we talked
I remember the first time that we walked together
Only to find the reasons
The truth, that our actions didn't mean anything
That our love didn't mean anything
That our words didn't mean anything
Cuz you and I were selfish
Only wanted to play a game
But the game was better
Yeah, what if I want to stick by your side
Would it be selfish?
What if I want to stick by your side
Would it be hopeless?
Bittersweet is this feeling inside
I never know my blessing till they die
I can't waste my life holding back
Every time, I'm losing sight
Bittersweet is this feeling inside
Bittersweet is this feeling inside
I never know my blessings till they die
I can't waste my life holding back,
Every time I'm losing sight
Bittersweet is my life
My life
Didn't have a voice to speak with
My life
All the fears I kept within
My life
Didn't have a voice to speak with
My life
All the fears I kept within
All I wanted was to divide
The song "Bittersweet" by to a bitter end. explores themes of personal growth, self-reflection, and the complexities of love and relationships.
In the first verse, the lyrics paint a picture of the singer looking back at their past, specifically in 2005. They recall being shy and careless when they were young, but also feeling depressed when someone significant to them had left. The references to not having a voice to speak with or an ear to confide in suggest a sense of isolation and loneliness. The singer acknowledges their previous struggles and admits to allowing things to affect them deeply, standing passively like a stone. However, they refuse to continue being a coward, emphasizing their desire to change and not let their past define them, especially as they consider the impact it might have on raising their son.
The chorus portrays a bittersweet feeling that the singer experiences. They recognize that they never truly appreciate what they have until it's gone, suggesting that they have learned from their mistakes and the consequent loss of their soul. Yet, they express hope that it's not too late for a positive change in their life. The repetitive nature of the chorus emphasizes the lingering emotions and conflicting sentiments that the singer grapples with.
In the second verse, the lyrics delve into the brokenness and heartache that the singer has experienced in a specific relationship. They acknowledge that they blame themselves for getting involved and remember the initial moments of connection and walking together. However, they also come to the realization that the relationship was selfish and lacked true meaning. The singer questions whether it would be selfish or hopeless to still want to be by the side of the person they were involved with, suggesting a struggle with conflicting emotions and desires.
The song concludes with a repetition of the chorus, reinforcing the bittersweet nature of the singer's life and the realization that they had lacked a voice and kept their fears hidden within themselves. There's a desire for division, which can be interpreted as a yearning for separation or escape from the past. The line "All I wanted was to divide" reveals a longing for freedom from the burdens and pain they've carried.
Overall, "Bittersweet" acts as an introspective journey, where the singer acknowledges their past mistakes, confronts the complexities of their emotions, and seeks personal growth and change. It explores the conflicting feelings of longing, regret, and hope that arise from reflecting on past experiences and relationships.
Line by Line Meaning
I found this picture from 2005
I stumbled upon a photograph from the year 2005, which triggered memories
If I remember I used to be so shy
In my recollection, I was quite timid and reserved
I used to be so careless when I was young
During my youth, I acted without much concern or thoughtfulness
I remember being so depressed when you were gone
I recall experiencing deep sadness and despair during your absence
Didn't have a voice to speak with
I lacked the ability to express myself and communicate effectively
Didn't have an ear that I could reside
There was no one who would actively listen and understand my thoughts and feelings
All the fears I kept within
I concealed all my anxieties and worries internally
All I wanted was to divide
My main desire was to create a division or separation
I let things get to me
I allowed external factors to affect and disturb me emotionally
Stood there like I was a stone
I remained motionless and unmoved, resembling a solid and unfeeling object
A coward I refuse to be
I reject the notion of being a coward and lacking bravery
That's not how I'll raise my son
I will not bring up my child in a similar manner; I aspire to be different
And I learned from my mistakes
I gained wisdom and knowledge from the errors I committed in the past
Cuz they robbed me of my soul
Because those mistakes deprived me of my inner essence and spirit
And I know it's not too late
I possess the understanding that there is still time to make a change
Too late
The opportunity for action has not yet passed
Bittersweet is this feeling inside
This emotion within me is simultaneously both sweet and bitter, evoking mixed sentiments
I never know my blessings till they die
I fail to recognize and appreciate my blessings until they are lost or gone
I can't waste my life holding back
I cannot squander my existence by restraining myself and not fully expressing who I am
Every time I'm losing sight
Whenever I begin to lose clarity or purpose
Bittersweet is my life
My life is characterized by this mixture of both pleasant and sorrowful experiences
I can't believe it's past
I find it difficult to comprehend that the time has elapsed and is now behind me
And I know it's not too late
I have the awareness that there is still an opportunity for action and change
Broken from the start
Since the beginning, I have been emotionally damaged and fractured
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
From that moment when I entrusted you with my heart, things have not been the same
And I only blame myself, you know
I hold only myself accountable, acknowledging that I am responsible
Cuz I remember that first time that we talked
I reminisce about our initial conversation and interaction
I remember the first time that we walked together
I recall the moment when we first walked side by side in each other's company
Only to find the reasons
But unfortunately, it became evident and clear why things unfolded the way they did
The truth, that our actions didn't mean anything
The undeniable reality is that our deeds held no significance or value
That our love didn't mean anything
Our love held no true meaning or depth
That our words didn't mean anything
The words we exchanged had no genuine significance or impact
Cuz you and I were selfish
Because both of us displayed a self-centered and egotistical nature
Only wanted to play a game
Our intentions were solely focused on engaging in a game or manipulation
But the game was better
Yet the game, or the act of playing, gained the upper hand
Yeah, what if I want to stick by your side
Consider this, what if I desire to remain loyal and support you
Would it be selfish?
Is this act of sticking with you seen as self-serving or self-centered?
What if I want to stick by your side
Even if I choose to stand by your side, despite everything
Would it be hopeless?
Will such a decision be devoid of hope or belonging?
Bittersweet is this feeling inside
The sensation dwelling within me is a blend of both delight and sorrow
I never know my blessing till they die
Regrettably, I fail to recognize and appreciate my blessings until they are no longer present
Bittersweet is my life
My existence is characterized by this dichotomy of sweet and bitter experiences
My life
The entirety of my being
My life
The essence of my existence
Didn't have a voice to speak with
I lacked the means to express myself verbally and assert my thoughts
All the fears I kept within
I concealed all my anxieties and apprehensions deep within myself
All I wanted was to divide
My sole desire was to create a separation or divide between things
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Christopher Osei Kwasi
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@diz_-4167
How does this not have millions of views? What a ride. Musically, this is arranged so well. The world needs more honest artists like these gents.
@abitterend.
Thank you ! 🖤
@rejectedmind-1173
When a song is this long, you know you're on for an emotional ride.
@abitterend.
🖤
@TideofSoul
maybe this is why post-rock is so emotional
@blvckcore7829
@@TideofSoul Ohh dude I think this song cant be categorized... So many different elements...
from electro beats to acoustic guitar and on to a fcking Double Drop D# Djent Part... Damn they know how to do some good music
@Greatlakeskyle.
Dry song
@abitterend.
@@blvckcore7829 thank you 🖤
@damonkoh489
Let's be honest, this channel has lots of hits and misses... but this is really a GEM. It really brought me back to those high school days when I was really crazy about hardcore music (back then people called it emo, screamo). Thank you A Bitter End for this song, and thank you Dreambound for uploading this.
@abitterend.
Thank you so much for the kind words 🖤