Fade
e&d Lyrics
Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴ Line by Line Meaning ↴
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
I always try
To say goodbye
But I can't
Seem to shake this
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Got lost in doubt
I'm playing games
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Got lost in doubt
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
Deep dive in the darkness
Do demons ever do to sleep
I feel them keeping me awake
See them sip my soul with tea
Sweet sugar-filled palm trees
Memories I can't keep
Brittle bones in my back crack and break
As a black smoke start to creep
And I don't really mind when the time slips away
Finna find myself in the mirror somehow someday
Holding out for change
Is about as pointless of a game that I could play
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
In the opening lines of the song 'Fade In,' the singer talks about the feeling of disappearing entirely when left alone with their thoughts. They are lost in contemplation, and they have gained a realization that they are still the same person they have always been. Despite this revelation or maybe because of it, they're caught in the grip of doubt, and their mind is playing games with them. They're stuck in a cycle that they cannot escape, even when they try and say goodbye; they can't shake off their doubts.
The second verse of the song is more introspective, and the singer talks about being in the dark and haunted by their demons. The demons are keeping them awake, and they feel as though they're sipping from their soul. The memories they have are brittle, and their bones are ready to crack and break under the pressure of their doubts. They don't mind the time slipping away as they try to find themselves in the reflection of the mirror, holding out for change, and hoping for something to change. But they know holding on to hope is as pointless as any game they should play.
The chorus repeats itself towards the end, emphasizing the feeling of fading away, lost in doubt, and playing games in their mind. The singer acknowledges that they can not keep doing it all over again, nor do they want to.
Line by Line Meaning
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Being alone makes me feel like I'm slowly losing my identity.
In a thought I finally found
I realized something important in my own reflections and contemplation.
I figured out I'm still the same
Despite any doubts or insecurities, I am still the same person I always was.
Got lost in doubt
I am struggling with my own anxieties and uncertainties.
My mind's playing games
My own thoughts and feelings seem to be leading me astray or causing me stress.
Do it all over again
I am stuck in a cycle of negative thinking or reoccurring problems.
I can't do it all again
I am feeling overwhelmed and unable to handle certain situations or events.
I always try
I am attempting to change something about myself or my situation.
To say goodbye
I am trying to let go of something or someone that is causing me pain or difficulty.
But I can't
Despite my best efforts, I am still struggling.
Seem to shake this
I cannot seem to overcome these negative feelings or thoughts.
Deep dive in the darkness
I am experiencing a very dark and bleak period of my life.
Do demons ever do to sleep
I am haunted by my own inner demons.
I feel them keeping me awake
These inner demons or negative thoughts are causing me stress or preventing me from sleeping.
See them sip my soul with tea
I feel like these negative emotions or thoughts are slowly draining my energy or spirit.
Sweet sugar-filled palm trees
I am reminded of happy memories from the past that I can no longer experience.
Memories I can't keep
I am struggling to hold onto positive memories or moments from the past.
Brittle bones in my back crack and break
I am feeling physically and emotionally worn out or exhausted.
As a black smoke start to creep
I am feeling overwhelmed and consumed by negative emotions or thoughts.
And I don't really mind when the time slips away
I am not really concerned with the passage of time or how much time has passed.
Finna find myself in the mirror somehow someday
I am hoping to find some positive change or transformation in myself.
Holding out for change
I am waiting for something to change in my life.
Is about as pointless of a game that I could play
I know that hoping for things to change without taking action is futile.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Emily DesJardins, Matthias Embry, Nathan Zak
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind