i admit i'm scared
eskimeaux Lyrics
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of a warm side of our bed
i tremble in the face
of your loneliness
and everything i think
should be buried in the ground
should be kept inside my head
but it's knit into your brow
i live inside your room
and if i reach out with my hand
the disturbance sends our things
crashing down upon my head
and everything i think
should be buried in the ground
should be kept inside my head
but it's knit into your brow
and everything i said
spewed like sparklers from my mouth
and everything i said
spewed like sparklers from my mouth
they looked pretty as they flew
but now they're useless and burnt out
and if i had a dime for every time i'm freaking out
we could fly around the world
or just get out of your parents' house
The lyrics of "I Admit I'm Scared" by eskimeaux expresses the fear that resides in the singer's heart, especially their apprehension of a warm side of their bed, which may likely belong to their partner. The singer shudders at the thought of their loved one's loneliness and the prospect of facing it. They are aware of the things they have in their mind, which they believe should be buried and kept inside their head, yet these thoughts have manifested in the creases of their lover's brow.
The singer lives within their lover's room, constantly aware that any mistake, any disturbance, could cause everything around them to come crumbling down upon their head. The lyrics suggest that the singer has already said a lot of things that are of no value to them, like sparklers that burnt out quickly while looking pretty in flight. The singer is fully aware of their anxiousness and tendency to freak out at every instance, encapsulated in the line, "If I had a dime for every time I'm freaking out, we could fly around the world, or just get out of your parents' house."
Overall, the song speaks to a sense of vulnerability and trepidation, honesty about one's shortcomings, and the possibility of finding comfort in the things that scare us.
Line by Line Meaning
i admit i'm scared
I'm acknowledging my fear and admitting it.
of a warm side of our bed
I'm afraid of getting close to someone and possibly getting hurt.
i tremble in the face
I feel scared and vulnerable when faced with your loneliness.
of your loneliness
I'm afraid of being alone and losing you.
and everything i think
I'm afraid of sharing my thoughts and feelings, as they might cause problems in our relationship.
should be buried in the ground
I feel like I should keep my thoughts to myself and not share them.
should be kept inside my head
I feel like I need to suppress my thoughts and not express them.
but it's knit into your brow
Despite my efforts to hide my thoughts and feelings, they're still visible to you.
i live inside your room
I feel like I'm trapped within our relationship and unable to escape.
and if i reach out with my hand
Even a small action on my part could have big consequences and cause problems.
the disturbance sends our things
My actions could disrupt the stability of our relationship.
crashing down upon my head
The consequences of my actions could come back to hurt me.
and everything i said
I've said things that I regret and feel bad about.
spewed like sparklers from my mouth
My words were pretty and exciting at first, but they ultimately burned out and lost their value.
they looked pretty as they flew
My words seemed impressive and beautiful in the moment, but they didn't have any real substance.
but now they're useless and burnt out
My words don't have any lasting impact or meaning.
and if i had a dime for every time i'm freaking out
I'm constantly anxious and nervous, and it's taking a toll on me.
we could fly around the world
If I had money for every time I freaked out, we could travel and escape our problems.
or just get out of your parents' house
If we had enough money, we could move out and start a new life together.
Contributed by Elena T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.