Hers
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I never thought that I would be standing here
The singer is shocked that they are visiting the grave of their loved one.

Six feet above where you lay
The singer is referring to the depth at which a casket is buried.

And I never thought I'd be reading you this letter
The singer wrote a letter to their lost loved one and is now reading it at their grave.

Kneeling at your grave
The artist is on their knees in front of the grave, showing reverence and respect.

Because I always thought that you were my forever
The artist believed that their loved one would always be with them and they would be together forever.

But God went and took that away
The singer is blaming fate or a higher power for taking their loved one away from them.

I always thought my life was void of color
The singer used to believe that their life was dull and without excitement.

But now all I really see is gray
Since their loved one's death, the artist's life has lost all meaning and excitement, and everything looks dull and gray.

I put peach roses by your headstone
The artist placed peach roses at the grave, as they know it was their loved one's favorite flower.

'Cause I know how much you love those
The artist knew that their loved one loved those flowers before their death.

It's the least that I can do now that you're gone
The singer feels helpless in the face of their loss and feels like leaving flowers at the grave is the least they can do.

And God only knows what I would do to hold you close again
The artist misses their loved one so much that they would do anything to be with them again, even though they know it is impossible.

Just don't have the strength to move on
The singer is struggling to come to terms with their loss and doesn't feel like they can move on.

I knew that you'd be leaving
The singer knew that their loved one's death was inevitable.

I didn't start my grieving
The singer didn't allow themselves to properly grieve before the loss happened.

Feels too late to cherish what we had
Now that their loved one is gone, the artist feels like they didn't appreciate what they had while they had it.

I lost myself in drinking
The artist turned to alcohol to cope with their loss but realizes it wasn't a healthy way to grieve.

It really got me thinking
Drinking led the singer to reflect on their life.

Love should never have to hurt this bad
The pain of losing their loved one has made the singer question the nature of love itself.

And I keep tearing at my sutures
The artist is struggling to heal from their loss and is metaphorically ripping open their wounds.

Give a fuck about my future
The artist is consumed with grief and doesn't care about what the future holds for them.

'Cause I know you would have been the perfect wife
The artist believed their lost loved one would have been the perfect spouse.

Lie thinkin' 'bout our children
The singer imagines a future with their lost loved one, including children they would have had together.

The mother you would have been to them
The artist imagines their loved one as a mother to their children.

It's the only thing I wanted from this life
The singer realizes that the only thing they truly wanted from life was to have that future with their loved one and children.

You'll never see if I get famous
The singer knows that their loved one won't be there to see if they achieve fame.

You always told me I'd make it
The singer's loved one believed in them and was supportive of their goals.

Even if I never saw what you saw in me
Despite self-doubt, the artist's loved one always believed in them.

I just can't fucking take it
The artist is overwhelmed with grief and can't handle their loss.

'Cause my heart, yeah, you can break it
The singer's loved one held their heart, and their death shattered it.

Again and again, if you'd just come back to me
The singer is willing to endure the pain of heartbreak to be with their loved one again.

And I know that you're still out there
The artist doesn't believe their loved one is truly gone forever.

I'm praying that you still care
The artist hopes their loved one still cares about them, even though they have passed away.

And that the last few years still meant something to you
The artist wonders if the time they spent with their loved one before their death was meaningful to them as well.

I know that you don't need me
The singer recognizes that their loved one is beyond needing anything at this point.

You said you'd never leave me
The artist remembers their loved one promising never to leave them.

At this point I don't know what else I can do
The singer is at a loss for how to move forward in their life after their loss.

And I know your heart's still beating
The singer is aware that their loved one is no longer with them in the physical sense but that their heart still beats in their memory.

But your love for me is fleeting
The singer feels like their loved one's love for them was temporary and not lasting in death.

So I had to kill you off inside my head
The artist is forced to come to terms with their loss and has to let their loved one go in their own mind.

And I know that it's pathetic
The artist knows that their actions might seem desperate or hopeless.

But I'd rather that instead of
Despite the potential for people to see them as pathetic, the singer prefers that to facing the reality of their loss.

The reality of what has become of us instead
The singer can't face the reality of life without their loved one, and it is too painful to think about.