Trauma
hit-boy Lyrics

Public perception is often deception, uh
Hit-boy believes that what people think of him isn't necessarily accurate or true.

I think somebody needs to tell the truth, yeah
Hit-boy wants people to be more honest with each other.

Killin' my ego through my self-reflections, uh
Hit-boy is being critical of himself and trying to improve as a person.

Somethin' that we all fail to do, mh
Reflecting on one's own flaws isn't something that people generally do often enough.

Why does compassion gets treated as weakness? Yeah
Hit-boy is frustrated by how being kind and caring is often seen as a negative thing.

What is the world really comin' to? Uh
Hit-boy questions and is concerned about the state of the world.

Why is my empathy often misleadin'? Yeah
Hit-boy is unsure about whether his compassion is always going to be helpful or whether it will lead him astray.

How you interpret that is up to you
Hit-boy is leaving the interpretation of his words up to the listener.

So many things (so many things)
Hit-boy is feeling overwhelmed by everything that's going on in his life.

Why I let it get to me? (Yeah)
Hit-boy is questioning why he's giving all these things power over him.

Like I know everything (like I know everything)
Hit-boy is realizing that he doesn't actually know everything and may need to learn more.

When I don't know anything, yeah
Hit-boy is admitting that he doesn't know everything and may need help or guidance.

Why overthink? Think I need a drink
Hit-boy wants to relax and stop worrying so much.

I just need to chill, maybe I need a shrink
Hit-boy is acknowledging that he may need professional help to work through his problems.

Need to hear 'em preach, and some inner peace
Hit-boy is searching for guidance and a way to find peace within himself.

I'm always in a mood, think I just need some sleep
Hit-boy thinks he may just need to rest and take care of himself better.

Tellin' myself, I'm a mess (mess)
Hit-boy is being hard on himself and recognizing his own flaws.

I blame it all on my ex, all me
Hit-boy is owning up to his own mistakes and faults in a past relationship.

Is this as good as it gets?
Hit-boy is questioning whether he's reached his full potential or if he can still improve.

I don't want the drama from the trauma
Hit-boy doesn't want any more negative experiences stemming from past traumas.

Bad energy, it's the problem
Hit-boy believes that negative energy is causing a lot of problems in his life.

I take it personal, I ain't perfect though
Hit-boy is affected by things that happen to him even though he knows he's not perfect either.

But it hurts, you know? That make it worse, you know?
Hit-boy is acknowledging the pain he feels and how it's worsening the situation for him.

When I take it personal, I'll be the first to blow
Hit-boy recognizes that he gets angry when he takes things personally.

And it's worse, you know? Is it worth it though?
Hit-boy is questioning whether it's worth it to get angry and worked up over things.

Don't know how to act (don't know how to act)
Hit-boy is unsure how to handle certain situations.

When I can't handle that (when I can't handle that)
Hit-boy is recognizing when he can't handle certain things and struggles to cope.

I'm stressin' the petty things (I'm stressin' the petty things)
Hit-boy is getting overly worried about small things that don't really matter in the grand scheme of things.

How you see it is everything, yeah (how you see it is everything)
Hit-boy realizes that perception is everything and how people view things is important.

I made a bunch of figures, got a bunch of triggers
Hit-boy has accomplished a lot but is still dealing with personal issues that cause him stress.

When it come to pictures, I don't see a bigger
Hit-boy is struggling to see the bigger picture and is getting caught up in small details.

Let it hold me back (let it hold me back)
Hit-boy is worried that his issues will hold him back from reaching his full potential.

When I know the facts, yeah, oh, uh
Hit-boy recognizes what the facts are but struggles to keep them in mind when he's upset or stressed.

Why I still can't live with that?
Hit-boy is questioning why he can't move on from certain things.

Why do I live in the past only?
Hit-boy is recognizing that he's been dwelling too much on the past.

Worried about where they at (oh, yeah)
Hit-boy is worrying about where other people are in their lives instead of focusing on his own journey.

When I don't know where I'm goin'
Hit-boy is unsure about his own path in life and where he's headed.

My worst behavior, is the shit that I left in the past (past)
Hit-boy is acknowledging his past mistakes and trying to move forward from them.

The first impression are important, perception is bad (bad)
Hit-boy understands that first impressions and how people perceive him can have negative consequences.

The doubt was needed for a nigga to step in his bag (bag)
Hit-boy needed to have doubts and overcome them to achieve success.

But really though, how long you thought your deception would last?
Hit-boy is questioning how long someone can keep up a facade or lie about who they are.

You really losin' every ounce of respect that I had for you
Hit-boy is losing respect for someone who has been dishonest with him.

Dishonesty is quite a disorder, the same reason I just fired my lawyer
Hit-boy recognizes that dishonesty is a major issue and has fired his lawyer because of it.

Enlighten my vision from writtens, parasitic absorbers
Hit-boy is seeking enlightenment and inspiration from written works and avoiding people who drain his energy and creativity.

Energy drainers, the vibes that I get from reporters
Hit-boy is wary of people who bring negative energy and vibes into his life, especially those in the media or press.

Disappointed lookin' at the way these niggas was brought up
Hit-boy is disappointed by how some people were raised and how it's affected their behavior and attitudes.

That get you caught up in a situation
Hit-boy is highlighting how someone's upbringing and past can lead them into difficult or negative situations.

With different places you never thought of
Hit-boy is recognizing that there are unexpected consequences or situations that arise from someone's past or upbringing.

This world slaughters, you're weak will and kind-hearted
Hit-boy is acknowledging that the world can be cruel and harsh, especially for those who are vulnerable or empathetic.

My mind audits, creative ideas that define artists
Hit-boy's mind is constantly processing and analyzing creative ideas and what makes artists unique.

And plus I speak my mind, that makes me a prime target
Hit-boy recognizes that speaking his mind and being honest can make him a target for criticism or backlash.

But I'd rather start speakin', no beefin' 'cause
Hit-boy would rather speak his mind than get into conflicts with others.

It's worth it? I don't know
Hit-boy is unsure whether all the pain and struggle is worth it in the end.

I said, I don't know, uh
Hit-boy is reiterating that he's unsure of the answer.