Selfish
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I done been through some things
I have experienced difficult situations that others may not understand

You prolly wouldn't understand
It is likely that you would not be able to empathize with my experiences

The loses that I have taken
The losses that I have experienced

Can break you down as a man
These losses can cause emotional pain and hurt someone's self-esteem

But I stand tall big smile on my face
Despite these difficulties, I remain resilient and positive

Like I ain't been through it all
It may seem like I have not experienced much hardship because I try to remain positive

Like I ain't really lost it all
It may seem like I have not suffered significant losses because I try to remain positive

Looking for you baby
I have been searching for a romantic partner

I kept putting my heart out there on the line
I have repeatedly opened up emotionally to romantic partners

And they just ended up breaking it every time
These partners have caused me emotional pain and heartbreak

I ain't saying they all to blame
I am not placing all the blame on my past partners

Cause I did my dirt
I also made mistakes in the relationship

But they never could understand
However, my past partners did not empathize with the emotional pain that I was feeling

I was dealing with hurt
I was struggling emotionally

Loving her and her kids and I can't love mine
I was not able to show love and affection to my own children because I was emotionally invested in someone else and their family

Breaking down in tears each and every night
I was crying excessively because of my emotional pain

I been so reckless baby
I have been careless and impulsive in my romantic relationships

Gave you my heart so selfless baby
I have given my heart to my romantic partner without expecting anything in return

But you don't seem to care
However, my romantic partner does not seem to value or appreciate my love

Now I feel helpless baby
I feel powerless and trapped in this relationship

You trapped my heart thought love would save me
I thought that love would be enough to fix my emotional pain, but instead it has trapped me in this relationship

But you ain't never there
My romantic partner is emotionally unavailable and does not provide the support that I need

Why you so selfish bae
I am questioning my romantic partner's selfish behavior

With me
In regards to our romantic relationship

When I been so selfless bae
I have been giving a lot to this relationship and have not been selfish

You trapped my heart and kept it bae
My romantic partner has emotionally trapped me in this relationship

Please set me free
I am asking my romantic partner to end the relationship

So I can love again
I want to be able to open up emotionally to another romantic partner in the future

So I can trust again
I want to be able to trust another person in a romantic relationship in the future

So many fighting for my heart but I can't see
Many people are interested in me romantically, but I am unable to see who is genuine and who is not

Who's really scheming and who's really here for me
It is difficult to discern who has true and honest intentions in regards to a romantic relationship with me

When you've been hurt it's so hard to swallow
It is difficult to accept emotional pain when you have been hurt before

Can't trust my heart cause it's been hard to follow
I am unable to trust my own emotions or feelings because they have led me to emotional pain in the past

Tryna find myself again
I am attempting to rediscover who I am and what I want from life

Cause I lost it in you
I lost my sense of self in this past relationship and now I am trying to rediscover it

That's something I never wanna do again
I do not want to lose myself in a romantic relationship again

Heart been so cold
I have become emotionally detached as a result of my past romantic relationship

You left me out in the cold
My romantic partner has emotionally abandoned me

While I'm beating up on the door
I am trying to emotionally reconnect with my romantic partner

Ever since that day
Since the emotional pain caused by my romantic partner began

I been dying to let you know
I have been longing to express my emotional pain to my romantic partner

You the reason that I'm so cold
My romantic partner is the reason for my emotional detachment and coldness

It's been so hard to trust another
I find it difficult to trust another person in a romantic relationship

She's giving her all
Another potential romantic partner is putting forth effort and emotional investment in the relationship

But I can't love her
However, I am unable to emotionally invest in another person because of my past hurt

I
Me, the artist

Don't mean to play with your heart
I do not want to emotionally manipulate or hurt someone else in a romantic relationship

Shoulda told you I was hurt from the start
I should have been honest and upfront about my emotional pain from the beginning of the relationship