Recover
mary is Lyrics
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And told myself that there could be no other way
I told myself, maybe if they'd only stay
I would be okay
But I watched them as they went away
I still feel it in my chest as I am today
She would tell me that there was no other way
See you later, alligator
She took everything from me
Doesn't mean I have to hate her
In a while, crocodile
The world is still good
Although some parts are vile
See you later, alligator
She took everything from me
Doesn't mean I have to hate her
In a while, crocodile
The world is still good
Although some parts are vile
When I was a kid, I would try to run away
But every time, I would turn around halfway
I'd come home in hopes that my mom would hug me
And that she would say
"I am so glad you're okay"
But I wasn't gone long enough for them to notice
I stared into space until it all went out of focus
I cried on early mornings that our parents woke us,
Scared that I was sitting on the edge of psychosis
One day then, I'll see you again
And just because they leave
Doesn't mean I have to hate them
In a while, quite some while,
I will find myself and I will reconcile
One day then, I'll see you again
And just because they leave
Doesn't mean I have to hate them
In a while, quite some while,
I will find myself and I will reconcile
See you soon then, not too soon when
My heart, it opens and expands
And I will be again
See you soon then, not too soon
when
My heart, it opens and expands
And I will be again
In "Recover," Mary Is delves into the complex emotions surrounding loss and the process of healing. The lyrics speak to the internal struggles of the singer, who initially convinces themselves that fear is the only way to cope with the pain. They long for the presence of someone who has left their life, hoping that their departure is only temporary and that they will come back. The singer reflects on the times they used to pray, seeking solace and guidance during difficult moments.
The chorus displays a unique perspective on the situation. Instead of harboring hatred towards the person who caused their pain, the singer chooses to hold onto the belief that the world is still inherently good, despite its unpleasant aspects. The use of the phrases "See you later, alligator" and "In a while, crocodile" adds a touch of whimsy and optimism, emphasizing their resilience in the face of adversity.
The second verse delves further into the singer's childhood experiences. They express a desire to escape their circumstances but always find themselves returning home, seeking comfort and validation from their mother. However, their presence is not noticed or acknowledged, leaving them feeling invisible and longing for connection. They describe moments of vulnerability when their parents would wake them and how it intensifies their fear of descending into psychological turmoil.
Line by Line Meaning
I told myself that I would always be afraid
I convinced myself that I would constantly live in fear
And told myself that there could be no other way
I convinced myself that there were no alternative paths
I told myself, maybe if they'd only stay
I convinced myself that if they had only remained with me
I would be okay
I would somehow be alright
But I watched them as they went away
However, I witnessed them departing
I still feel it in my chest as I am today
I still carry the emotional burden within me until this very moment
She would tell me that there was no other way
She would insist that there were no alternate possibilities
I remember when I used to close my eyes and pray
I recall the times I would shut my eyes and seek solace in prayer
See you later, alligator
Farewell, my friend
She took everything from me
She deprived me of everything
Doesn't mean I have to hate her
But that does not require me to despise her
In a while, crocodile
Until we meet again
The world is still good
The world continues to possess goodness
Although some parts are vile
Even though some aspects are detestable
When I was a kid, I would try to run away
During my childhood, I would attempt to escape
But every time, I would turn around halfway
Yet each time, I would have a change of heart midway
I'd come home in hopes that my mom would hug me
I would return home, yearning for my mother's embrace
And that she would say
And for her to tell me
"I am so glad you're okay"
"I am relieved that you are fine"
But I wasn't gone long enough for them to notice
However, my absence was not lengthy enough for anyone to realize
I stared into space until it all went out of focus
I gazed into emptiness until everything blurred
I cried on early mornings that our parents woke us
During the early mornings when our parents awakened us, I wept
Scared that I was sitting on the edge of psychosis
Frightened that I was teetering on the brink of madness
One day then, I'll see you again
Eventually, I will encounter you once more
And just because they leave
And simply because they depart
Doesn't mean I have to hate them
Doesn't mean I must hold animosity towards them
In a while, quite some while
After some time, a considerable duration
I will find myself and I will reconcile
I will rediscover my true self and achieve harmony
See you soon then, not too soon when
Until we meet again, not too soon though
My heart, it opens and expands
My heart widens and grows
And I will be again
And I will become whole once more
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Mary Gibbons
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anna-rose phipps
Well it's too late now for me. I've been in the psychiatric system and on social security for better part of my adult life. Childless, partnerless, jobless and aged 61. For first time i've been offered DBT and my psychiatrist is trying to move me out of the old system, to finally discharge me. It feels too late
phantompunchmotorizedbikes
Anna I felt that way im.8n the same boat was very ill for years. Made alot of progress with dbt . How are you
anna-rose phipps
@phantompunchmotorizedbikes Just about hanging in there, Buddy. Thanks for asking. This time of year is most challenging, estranged from family. But i'll pull through
phantompunchmotorizedbikes
@anna-rose phipps
I understand. Do you have any hobbies things you like to do.
dinorfc
Mary Z . Not sure you read the comments but Steve D here from the old Bowditch days. I’m at MGH. Give me a shout. These videos are terrific!!!!