I just need a cure
Even if it's slow
Nothin' I would know
Rotten to the bone
Bullet to my dome
Got to let it go
But I don't want to go
I don't want to go back there for you
Shut up, don't talk to me
Please just leave me alone

Shut up, shut up, shut up, yeah!

Told myself, told myself
That it's all okay
Let it burn, watch it burn, burning all away
Scared to throw myself into the flames
Bet you hate me, bet you fuckin' hate me
Everything, yeah
Everything I did, yeah
Everything, yeah
Everything I did was wrong, and it breaks me
Yeah it fuckin' breaks my heart

But I just need a cure
Even if it's slow
Nothin' I would know
Rotten to the bone
Bullet to my dome
Got to let it go
But I don't want to go
I don't want to go back there for you

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "Insomniac" by Pasteldrip are quite complex and emotional. The singer of the song is grappling with some intense emotions and feelings of self-hatred and despair. The opening lines "I just need a cure, even if it's slow, nothing I would know, rotten to the bone" suggest a deep sense of hopelessness and a desire for some sort of relief from intense emotional pain. The singer then goes on to describe feeling completely trapped and suffocated by their own thoughts and feelings, even going so far as to contemplate suicide with the line "bullet to my dome, got to let it go."

However, even though the singer is clearly in a dark and difficult place, they are still struggling with a conflicted desire to hold onto their pain and hold onto the person who they feel caused them so much distress. This is expressed through the lines, "But I don't want to go, I don't want to go back there for you." The singer seems torn between wanting to escape their own emotional turmoil and wanting to stay trapped in it for the sake of holding onto some sense of connection to another person.

Line by Line Meaning

I just need a cure
The artist is struggling with a problem and needs a solution.

Even if it's slow
The artist is willing to wait as long as it takes to find a solution.

Nothin' I would know
Despite searching for a solution, the artist is unsure of what that solution might be.

Rotten to the bone
The artist feels they are deeply flawed and beyond repair.

Bullet to my dome
The artist is considering self-harm or suicide as a way out of their problems.

Got to let it go
The artist knows they need to move on from the past, but it's difficult.

But I don't want to go
Despite knowing they need to move on, the artist is reluctant to do so.

I don't want to go back there for you
The artist associates their problems with a specific person or situation they want to distance themselves from.

Shut up, don't talk to me
The artist is feeling overwhelmed and wants to be left alone.

Please just leave me alone
The artist is begging for space and privacy from others.

Told myself, told myself
The artist is trying to convince themself of something.

That it's all okay
The artist is trying to pretend that everything is fine, even though it's not.

Let it burn, watch it burn, burning all away
The artist is willing to let go of their problems and watch them disappear.

Scared to throw myself into the flames
Despite wanting to get rid of their problems, the artist is afraid of the consequences of doing so.

Bet you hate me, bet you fuckin' hate me
The artist is projecting their own feelings of self-hatred onto others, assuming they are hated as well.

Everything, yeah
The artist is acknowledging that everything is a mess.

Everything I did, yeah
The artist is specifically referencing their past mistakes.

Everything, yeah
The artist repeats this line to emphasize the scope of the problem.

Everything I did was wrong, and it breaks me
The artist is deeply suffering from their past mistakes and regrets.

Yeah it fuckin' breaks my heart
The artist is emotionally devastated by their struggles.

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