Helpless
=Boingo Lyrics

Countless long nights
The artist has spent many sleepless nights

While I stare at the wall
The artist has been staring blankly at the wall

I ask myself over again...
The artist keeps questioning themselves

How did I end up
The artist is questioning how they found themselves in their current situation

In this little hell?
The artist describes their situation as a hellish one

How - did it ever begin?
The artist is unable to understand how things started to go so wrong

Helpless to turn back the clock
The artist is incapable of going back in time and fixing their mistakes

That ticks on
Time is constantly moving forward despite the artist's struggles

With its cruel shiny face
Personification of time is depicted as something cold and unforgiving

It laughs while it watches
Time is personified as a cruel entity that takes pleasure in the artist's pain

My every disgrace - I was
The artist uses self-deprecating language and believes that they are a disgraceful person

Born a sap - all the
The artist feels like a failure

Nurses laughed when they
The artist has experienced ridicule and humiliation from others even in childhood

Saw me the first time
The artist is recalling an unpleasant interaction from earlier in their life

They giggled and they said
Others have belittled the artist before

This poor little monster'd be
The artist describes themselves as a monster

Better off dead.
The artist feels like they have nothing going for them

Helplessly trapped in a body
The artist feels trapped and powerless

I'm sure -
The artist has a conviction about something

Should have never been mine.
The artist feels like they are not worthy of their own body

I bet that my real one's
The artist thinks that they belong in a different body

Doing just fine - and I
The artist feels like they do not belong where they are

Don't belong here, I
The artist does not feel like they fit in

Should be quite rich
The artist thinks that they should have more and be more successful

With a big shiny car
The artist fantasizes about being wealthy and owning a fancy car

A house with twelve rooms
The artist dreams of a lavish house

I deserve to go far.
The artist believes that they have earned success and greatness

Helplessly falling in love
The artist is falling in love compulsively and feels powerless to stop it

But does love
The artist questions the nature of love and whether it lasts

Really last through the night?
The artist is questioning the longevity of relationships

To love - To honor -
The artist expects that love should be about loyalty and respect

To kick and to bite! and I
The artist is making a joke about the contradictions of love

Where did this whole silly story begin?
The artist is reflecting on how their life has become a mess

It seems that my mind has gone -
The artist's thoughts have become confused and disordered

Blank.
The artist is feeling lost and empty

I think that I've messed up a chapter or two.
The artist is acknowledging some of the mistakes they have made in their life

Perhaps it is best if I'm frank!
The artist is acknowledging that something needs to change

Helplessly lost like that
The artist feels like they have lost their way

Poor chap who came
The artist is talking about someone else who is lost

For an innocent dance.
The reference to the dance is used to represent a chance at innocence and freedom

He left with his brain smeared
The artist is describing a violent act they committed

All over his pants! cause he
The artist seems to take pleasure in the act of violence

Didn't belong here, he
The artist is making reference to the victim not belonging

Didn't belong here
The artist repeats that the victim didn't fit in with their vision of the world

He never should've left
The artist thinks the victim should have stayed in their place

That warm cage in a zoo!
The artist is making reference to a safe place where one might be kept like an animal

His face was so ugly
The artist is demeaning the victim's appearance and using it to justify their actions

What else could I do?
The artist is trying to justify their violent actions towards the victim

Can you - really blame me, I
The artist is blaming others for not understanding their reasons for committing the violent act

Had to smash it.
The artist describes the act of killing as smashing something

He left me no choice,
The artist is describing the victim's role in their own death as a lack of choice

He was just like the others.
The artist is making reference to other people that they have killed

I just had to kill him.
The artist describes killing as an unavoidable need

With my poor, dear, old
The artist is making reference to someone close to them and justifying their actions using these relationships

Mother.
The artist is referencing a mother figure and blaming them for their own violent behavior

Helplessly fucked in the ass
The artist is feeling helpless and violated

By a legion of forty ex-cons
The artist is using hyperbole to exaggerate their sense of victimhood

That's what it feels like
The artist is describing their sensation of being overwhelmed

When you walk all over me.
The artist is blaming others for their problems and feelings of helplessness

Your eyes burn right through me.
The artist believes that others are able to see through them and read their weaknesses

They fill me with fear.
The artist is afraid of the power others hold over them

I could've been at home
The artist is thinking about an alternate reality where they are content with mundane pleasures

Watching football, and drinking beer.
The artist is reminiscing about a life of simple pleasures and less complicated emotions