Breaking The Habit★
★Linkin Park Lyrics

Memories consume like opening the wounds
The painful memories I hold are eating me alive, as if the wounds that I have sustained are being freshly opened.

I'm picking me apart again
My own self-doubt and criticism are causing me to spiral out of control.

You all assume
Others assume that I am safe and okay because I am keeping myself locked away in my room.

I'm safe here in my room
My room is my sanctuary where I can be alone with my thoughts and feelings, but it's not a permanent solution.

Unless I try to start again
The only way to break free from this cycle is to try to start making changes in my life.

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
I am tired of constantly fighting with myself and feeling like I'm always losing.

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
I am the one that is causing myself the most confusion and inner turmoil.

I don't know what's worth fighting for
I am lost and don't know what is truly important to me anymore, making it hard for me to know what to fight for.

Or why I have to scream
I don't understand why I feel compelled to yell out my feelings and frustrations.

I don't know why I instigate
I don't know why I am always the one to start arguments and drama when it doesn't really reflect how I feel.

And say what I don't mean
I sometimes say things in anger that I don't really mean, further complicating the situation.

I don't know how I got this way
I am not sure how I became so lost and confused about my own feelings and desires.

I know it's not alright
I am aware that the way I am feeling and behaving is not healthy and sustainable in the long run.

So I'm breaking the habit
I am taking steps to break free from this cycle of self-destructive behavior.

I'm breaking the habit tonight
I am finally taking action to move myself towards a healthier mental state, starting tonight.

Clutching my cure
I am holding onto any solution or treatment that I believe can help me overcome this turmoil.

I tightly lock the door
I am closing myself off from the outside world and avoiding any potential triggers for my negative feelings.

I try to catch my breath again
I am struggling to regain my composure and find a moment of peace amidst the chaos in my head.

I hurt much more than any time before
I am in a great deal of pain and suffering, more than I have ever experienced before.

I have no options left again
I feel like I have exhausted all of my options for coping with and overcoming this turmoil.

I'll never fight again
I am giving up the fight and letting go of the inner turmoil that has been consuming me.

And this is how it ends
This is the final chapter of my struggles, and I am ready for a new beginning.

But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean
I have gained some understanding about my feelings and can now better articulate what I've been going through.

I'll never be alright
I have accepted that things may never be the same again after this experience, but I am ready to move forward anyway.

So I'm breaking the habit
I am taking control and making a change, no longer allowing myself to be consumed by my negative thoughts and feelings.

I'm breaking the habit
I am actively working to disrupt the destructive pattern of behavior that has been plaguing me.

I'm breaking the habit tonight
I am taking the first steps towards a healthier, happier version of myself starting tonight.