Déjà Vu
★ Eminem Lyrics

DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive
Emergency medical personnel have discovered an unconscious adult male in his mid-thirties.

Possible overdose, substance unknown
There is a suspicion that this individual may have overdosed on an unidentified substance.

Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight
The person's heart rate is weak and only 60 beats per minute while their breathing is slow, at a rate of eight breaths per minute.

He's intubated and we're bagging him now
Medical professionals have inserted a tube into the patient's airway to assist with breathing and they are supporting them with a ventilation bag.

Uh, BP 90 over palp, patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic
The person's blood pressure is 90 over palpation, indicating it may be low. Additionally, they appear cool, pale, and sweaty.

Has aspirated, uh, GSC is 3
The individual has inhaled a substance into their airway, and their Glasgow Coma Scale (GSC) score is 3, indicating severe impairment of consciousness.

Will update en route, ETA ten minutes
We will provide further information during transportation, and we expect to arrive at the destination in approximately ten minutes.

As I fall deeper into a manic state
As I sink further into an intense and unstable mental state,

I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
I am highly susceptible to inheriting the genetic predisposition for addiction.

Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
My blood pressure rises rapidly and dramatically.

I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
I find myself drawn towards and eagerly anticipating consuming a bottle of NyQuil.

Start off with the NyQuil, like, I think I'll just have a taste
I begin my usage of NyQuil in a seemingly innocent manner, telling myself I will only take a small amount.

Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
After consuming a few sips, I slowly transition and advance towards using more potent substances.

To a harder prescription drug called Valium, like, yeah that's great
I progress to using a stronger prescription medication known as Valium, convincing myself that it's a good choice.

I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
Initially, I intend to take only a single Valium pill, but I lose control and consume eight instead.

Now I need something in my stomach 'cause I haven't ate
Due to not having eaten, I feel the urge to consume food to satisfy my hunger.

Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
Perhaps I'll indulge in a plate of nachos and treat myself to a steak as a meal.

And you'd think that with all I have at stake
Considering the significant consequences and risks involved,

Look at my daughter's face
Observing my daughter's expression

"Mommy, something is wrong with dad I think
"Mommy, I believe there's something not right with dad

He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
His behavior is strange and it's truly starting to frighten me.

Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
He refuses to shave his beard, and he acts as if he cannot hear my words.

And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
All he does is consume Doritos and Cheetos.

And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat"
He fell asleep inside his car, seated in the back, while eating a 3 Musketeers candy bar.

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
At times, I experience profound loneliness and confusion.

Feels like I been down this road before
It seems as though I have traveled this path previously.

So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
I feel isolated and cold, as if a force beyond my control possesses me.

As soon as I go home and close the door
Immediately upon arriving home and shutting the door behind me

Kinda feels like déjà vu
It somewhat resembles a sense of déjà vu.

I wanna get away from this place, I do
I desire to escape from my current situation.

But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
However, I am unable and unwilling to do so, although I may pretend to make an effort, deep down knowing it's a falsehood.

'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know
Because I genuinely do not want to escape, and the reasons for this remain unclear to me.

"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?"
"Perhaps I'll have a refreshing cold beer, what harm could it do?"

That's the devil in my ear, I've been sober a fuckin' year
However, it's the destructive influence of addiction urging me, despite having refrained from substances for a whole year.

And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fucking hear
The voice of addiction continues to persistently and overwhelmingly dominate my thoughts and consciousness.

"Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game
"Marshall, come on, let's relax and watch the game

It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
It's a match between the Dallas Cowboys and Tampa Bay Buccaneers."

And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half-buzzed
Rationalizing that if I consume only half of a drink, I'll be mildly intoxicated.

For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line?
Believing that I can manipulate my usage to be inebriated only part of the time, I question the originator of this deceptive idea.

With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind
Perceiving the flawed logic in my thinking, it feels as though I possess only half of a functioning mind.

To have another half a glass of wine, sounds asinine
But despite recognizing the foolishness of it, I entertain the idea of consuming another half-glass of wine.

Yeah, I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
Yes, I am aware of that, but historically, I never experienced any significant issues with alcohol addiction.

Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall
Ouch, be careful to avoid hitting the wall. Instead, try to aim for the couch as I am about to lose my balance and fall.

I miss the couch and down I go, lookin' like a bouncy ball
Unfortunately, I miss landing on the couch and end up falling to the ground, bouncing around like a rubber ball.

Shit must've knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all
The impact must have caused me to lose consciousness since I didn't perceive the sensation of hitting the ground.

Wow, what the fuck happened last night? Where am I?
My goodness, what in the world occurred last night? Where am I now?

Man, fuck, am I hungover, and goddamn, I
Damn, I feel the effects of severe hangover, and it frustrates me.

Got a headache, shit, half a Vicodin, why can't I?
My head is pounding, and I only have half of a Vicodin left. Why can't I find it?

All systems ready for take off, please stand by
I am prepared to indulge in substances again, so please wait momentarily for further action.

So I take a Vicodin, splash, it hits my stomach, then "Ahhh"
Therefore, I consume a Vicodin pill, feeling a sense of relief as it enters my stomach, emitting a satisfying sound.

Couple of weeks go by, it ain't even like I'm gettin' high
Several weeks pass, and it feels as if I'm not even experiencing the euphoric effects of being high.

Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah, I'm gettin' by
At this point, I require the substance just to avoid feeling physically unwell. It helps me get through each day.

Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
If DeShaun hadn't died, I would not even be partaking in these substances.

Oh yeah, there's an excuse; you lose Proof so you use
Ah, yes, I use the death of my friend Proof as an excuse for my continued substance abuse.

There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through
There seems to be a different set of rules now where it's acceptable to rely on substances if it helps one cope.

It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze
Since it is currently midday, there should be no harm in intentionally causing myself to take a nap.

What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?
What more can I say? Screw it, what would Elvis Presley do if he were in your situation?

Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse
And now, three months have passed, and I have fully succumbed to a relapse.

"Just get high until the kids get home from school, homes, relax"
"Just get intoxicated until the children return from school, my friend, and then you can unwind."

And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
Because I genuinely believe that I suffer from insomnia

I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps
I rely on these pills to facilitate sleep, so I find myself taking three naps throughout the day.

Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
In order to simply function during the day, let's say,

That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium? Three?
I utilize one Ambien pill for each nap, totaling three, along with three Valium pills.

And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
These combined dosages, on average, result in approximately one hour of decent sleep.

Okay, so now ya see the reason how come he
Alright, so now you understand the reason behind his behavior

Has taken four years to just put out an album, B
Explaining why it has taken him four years to release a new album, my friend.

See, me and you, we almost had the same outcome, Heath
You see, my dear friend, you and I nearly experienced the same tragic end, Heath.

'Cause that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing?
Referencing the Christmas when you succumbed to pneumonia, you remember?

It was bologna, was it the methadone, ya think?
However, let's be frank, it was a false claim. Was the cause of your death really the methadone, do you believe?

Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos?
Perhaps it was actually the hydrocodone you secretly concealed within your adult films?

Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR
Stored within your VCR tape cases, right alongside your Ambien CR medication.

Great places to hide 'em, ain't it? So you can lie to Hailie
Those were excellent hiding spots, weren't they? Allowing you to deceive your daughter, Hailie.

I'm going beddy-bye, Whitney, baby; good night, Alaina!
Now I'm getting ready to go to sleep, Whitney my dear, goodnight, Alaina!

Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
Please enter the bedroom and close the door behind you.

And wake up in an ambulance
Only to awaken inside an ambulance.

They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn
According to their account, they discovered me lying on the bathroom floor, damn.

So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
Overwhelmed by a sense of isolation and coldness, it feels as though I am under the control of an external force.

Kinda feels like déjà vu
It somewhat resembles a sense of déjà vu.

I wanna get away from this place, I do
I desperately desire to escape from this situation.

But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie
Yet, I lack the ability and determination to do so, even though I may pretend to make an attempt, deep down knowing it's a falsehood.

'Cause I don't and why, I just don't know
Because, honestly, I don't want to escape, and the reasons for this remain unclear to me.