Even If I Could
papa roach Lyrics
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That never stopped you from sleeping with this loaded gun.
I'm sorry for everything I have done (everything I have done).
And now you're telling me
That I am the one that won't amount to no good.
I'd never die for you, not even if I could.
And I am the one that's always misunderstood.
Die for you, you know I never would.
Mommy's little monster,
Wrapped inside a box.
Can't forgive her,
She threw away the f'kng key.
I'll haunt her
For the rest of her life (for the rest of her life).
You're always telling me
That I am the one that won't amount to no good.
I'd never die for you, not even if I could.
And I am the one the one that's always misunderstood.
I'd never die for you, even if I could.
Die for you, you know I never would.
You know that I can never forgive you.
You wear it out.
You break me down (you break me down).
You're always telling me
That I am the one that won't amount to no good.
I'd never die for you, not even if I could.
And I am the one the one that's always misunderstood.
I'd never die for you, even if I could.
Die for you, you know I never would.
You know, you know I never would
You know, you know I never would
You know, you know I never would
You know, you know I never would
In "Even If I Could," Papa Roach explores the complexities of a toxic relationship, where both partners have their own sets of issues. The singer recognizes that they are not perfect and have made mistakes in the relationship, but despite that, their partner still sleeps with a "loaded gun" by continuing to engage in destructive behaviors. The lyrics express remorse for past actions and a desire for forgiveness, but the partner continually puts them down and accuses them of being the one who won't amount to any good. The singer declares that they would never die for their partner, even if they could, indicating that they have reached a breaking point and will no longer sacrifice themselves for this relationship. The song, therefore, offers a brutal honesty about the complex dynamics of relationships that are often full of sacrifice and compromise.
The lyrics "Mommy's little monster, wrapped inside a box. Can't forgive her, she threw away the f'kng key. I'll haunt her for the rest of her life" suggest that the singer's past traumas may be impacting their current relationship. They feel trapped and unforgiven, and their partner continues to hold them responsible for the ongoing issues in the relationship. The lyrics are emotionally charged and offer a raw, unfiltered take on the pain of toxic relationships.
Line by Line Meaning
I've got issues, so does everyone.
I have my own problems and flaws, just like everyone else.
That never stopped you from sleeping with this loaded gun.
Despite knowing my issues, you still continue to involve yourself with me and my problems like it's a dangerous situation.
I'm sorry for everything I have done (everything I have done).
I apologize for any mistakes or wrongdoings that I have committed.
And now you're telling me That I am the one that won't amount to no good.
Despite my apologies and efforts to improve, you still criticize and belittle me, claiming that I won't succeed.
I'd never die for you, not even if I could.
Despite my feelings for you, I would not sacrifice my life for you.
And I am the one that's always misunderstood.
I feel like people often misinterpret my actions and intentions.
Die for you, you know I never would.
I am reiterating that I would never give up my life for you or anyone else.
Mommy's little monster, Wrapped inside a box.
I feel trapped by my past and my upbringing, like no matter what I do I'll always be seen as a monster.
Can't forgive her, She threw away the f'kng key.
I can't forgive my mother for the way she raised me and the mental and emotional damage it caused.
I'll haunt her For the rest of her life (for the rest of her life).
My negative feelings towards my mother will continue to affect her and her life.
You know that I can never forgive you.
Just like how I can't forgive my mother, there are some things that I will never be able to forgive you for.
You wear it out. You break me down (you break me down).
Your constant criticism and negative comments weigh on me and affect me emotionally.
You know, you know I never would
I am repeating that I would never die for you or anyone else, emphasizing my conviction.
Contributed by Ruby B. Suggest a correction in the comments below.