by your side
3 Access & You Lyrics

Never really ever feel alive
I constantly feel empty and devoid of true joy and happiness

Always runnin' circles on my mind
My thoughts are constantly spinning in repetitive patterns, causing me mental confusion and distress

Sick and fuckin' tired of tellin lies
I am exhausted and disgusted with myself for constantly deceiving others

Say why
Please explain the reason or purpose behind my enduring feelings and experiences

I gotta think about you all the time?
Why am I constantly consumed by thoughts of you, unable to focus on anything else?

Hate that you're not mine
I resent the fact that you are not in a romantic relationship with me

I need you by my side
I yearn for your presence and support to alleviate my emotional struggles

Fuck the chit chat
I want to skip the meaningless small talk and get straight to the point

I wanna hit that
I desire to engage in a sexual encounter with you

I know your ex be with the riff raff
I am aware that your previous partner associates with questionable and troublesome individuals

I'll blow his shit back
I will retaliate and harm him physically for any potential harm he may cause

If he gon' run up hear the click clack
If he attempts to confront or attack me, he will face the sound of a gun clicking

I'll smoke his shit pack
I will defeat and humiliate him, making him regret his actions

Then give you dick and grab your hip tat
Afterwards, I will engage in sexual intercourse with you and playfully touch your hip tattoo

Lil' mama sit back
Please relax and take a passive role in this situation

I don't need another bitch to come and use me for the money
I do not want another woman to manipulate and take advantage of my financial resources

That shit was really kind of funny
In hindsight, it is amusing how someone attempted to use me in such a manner

She was deep inside my bank while I was deep up in her tummy
While I was engaging in sexual intercourse with her, she was secretly accessing my bank account

But her brother was a dummy
Her sibling was foolish and made poor decisions

Took his shit his nose was runny
He suffered the consequences of his actions and experienced negative consequences

I got demons tryna follow in my footsteps that's shadows
I am plagued by internal struggles and negative influences that try to replicate my actions and lead me astray

Why is every bitch the same? So shallow
I am frustrated with the lack of depth and sincerity in the women I encounter

Wishin' Cupid never shot me with that arrow
I regret ever falling in love, as it has caused me pain and disappointment

Why is every path you take in life so damn narrow?
I wonder why every choice or opportunity I pursue seems limited and constricting

Why, why? Gotta scream it to the sky
I need to express my frustration and longing loudly, hoping for answers or clarity

Why you put me in a life where it don't matter if you try?
I question why I am in a situation where my efforts and attempts to succeed are seemingly futile

Did it never cross your mind?
Have you never considered or thought about the impact of your actions or choices?

That while some of us are livin' all the others wanna die
While some individuals seem to be enjoying life, others are struggling with intense feelings of unhappiness and desire for death

Well I really thought
I genuinely believed

You and me
Our relationship

Ride or die
We would support and be there for each other through thick and thin

Meant to be
Destined to be together

No "the rest is history"
However, that turned out to be false and our relationship did not have a promising future

Now it's only memories
All we have left are moments and experiences from the past

Thought of you was heavenly
I used to think of you with great admiration and as something divine

Don't know what you meant to me
I am unsure about the true significance and impact you had on my life

This shit really get to me
This situation and my emotions surrounding it deeply affect and bother me

But you know I had to leave
Despite the pain and difficulty, I had no choice but to end our relationship

Yeah I'll miss the texts on my phone
I will feel a sense of longing and nostalgia for the messages you used to send me

And I'll miss the sex by the road
I will fondly remember the intimate moments we shared in unconventional locations

Gimme kiss your next one won't know
Give me a kiss that has so much passion and meaning that your future partners won't be able to compare

I know you'll miss my hand on your throat
I am aware that you will feel a void without the intense and dominant physicality I provided during our encounters

But come on baby please
However, I urge you to understand and accept this decision

I can't be stayin' see
I cannot continue to be in this situation or relationship

I got a lot of things I gotta go and do without a leech
I have many goals and ambitions to pursue, and I cannot have someone draining my energy or resources

I don't mean to hurt your feelings
I sincerely do not intend to cause you emotional pain

But that's how it's appearing
However, it seems to be the case given the circumstances

If you sayin' what I'm hearing
If you are expressing the sentiments that I am perceiving

I must be disappearing
Then it seems as if I am gradually fading away or disappearing from your life

I need you by my side
I strongly desire and depend on your presence and companionship in my life