Even If I Could
4.5 Lyrics

If I could write a note I'd get out of the place
I wish I could escape from this situation or environment.

Out of my mind I'd start to retrace
I'd go back to the beginning to try and make it right.

If I could write a note I would embrace
I would face and accept all the negativity that is thrown at me.

All the evil that comes to stand and laugh in my face
All the bad things that try to bring me down and humiliate me.

Now go ahead and watch it complicate
Watch as things get more difficult and complicated.

Every single step that I take
Every decision that I make is challenging and has consequences.

Like Iraq, watch out for the plate
Be cautious and aware of danger surrounding you, like in a warzone.

Never know when the ground is fake
Be careful because there may be hidden dangers or fake people around you.

You saw me move and how I elevate
You've seen me succeed and rise to the top.

But I can't write a note for saving grace
I can't seem to find a solution to my problems and challenges.

Where's the food I think it's time to eat
I need a break or a rest from all this stress and hard work.

But I don't got a dream left to chase
I'm losing motivation and don't have anything left to strive towards.

Tell me how to live this life I'm running low on that supply
I'm struggling to figure out how to live my life, and I'm running out of energy and motivation.

Someone please tell me why
I need answers or help to understand what's going on and why things are the way they are.

You turn your back onto a knife
You're putting yourself in danger, or harming yourself, by ignoring the problems or negativity around you.

Let me cut you up and take your pride
I'm willing to do whatever it takes to succeed, even if it means harming others or using their accomplishments as my own.

Confiscate and maximize
Take control and make the most of every opportunity that comes your way.

This industry is such a lie
The music industry is filled with deception and unfulfilled promises.

I've been back up on my time
I'm working hard and putting in time to succeed.

Every second searching for the grind
I'm constantly looking for opportunities and ways to make money and succeed.

I'm a masterpiece left behind
I'm talented and skilled, but not recognized or appreciated by the music industry.

If talent was how they judge you they'd never forget mine
If people were judged based solely on their talent, then mine would never be forgotten or ignored.

People judging when you make mistakes
Others criticize and judge me harshly when I make mistakes or have setbacks.

I don't know if this is mine to take
I'm unsure if I'm truly meant to succeed in the music industry.

When they just want the higher rates
The music industry only cares about making money and profits, not about the artists themselves.

Checking on my state I know I'm about to break
I'm close to breaking down or giving up due to the constant stress and challenges.

If I find the next delay that won't increase my stakes
If I can find a new opportunity that won't increase the pressure or risks of failure, I'll take it.

If I could write I note I know they'd find my name
If I had the right opportunities and resources, I could make a name for myself in the music industry.

But the dollar menu is what I'll be looking at today
I'm struggling financially and can only afford cheap food like the dollar menu.

To me, this is no surprise
I'm not surprised by the challenges and difficulties I'm facing.

I knew I'd always try to survive
I knew I would always do whatever it takes to survive and succeed.

But when they cut you off by cauterize
When someone suddenly and harshly stops supporting you or working with you.

I feel I'm looking in my fathers eyes
I feel like I'm experiencing the same struggles and disappointments that my father went through in his own life.

Don't dream big, man I get that now
I've realized that dreaming big or having high expectations only leads to disappointment and failure.

He was just tryna save me from a big let down
My father was trying to protect me from experiencing failure or disappointment.

This world is so cold how you drown us out
The world and the music industry can be cruel and indifferent to struggling artists.

Then show us a few with big gold crowns
The music industry only promotes and rewards a select few successful artists, while ignoring or mistreating others.

Say they the kings so live it proud
The successful artists claim to be royalty or the best, and want to be treated as such.

But the only thing that's holy is my jeans right now
The only thing of value or worth that I have right now is the clothes on my back.

My god, I'm praying for new statements
I'm desperately hoping for new and better opportunities to come my way.

Cop pulled me over say how long you've be racing
I'm getting in trouble with the law because I can't afford to drive responsibly or legally.

Just a couple days in
I haven't been able to succeed or improve my situation in this short amount of time.

And I'm already entertaining
I'm already doing things that could get me in trouble or cause me to fail further.

There'd be no mistaken
I would be absolutely clear and honest in my message and my music.

Only thing I know writing from the basement
The only thing I have control over or can do is write and create music from my humble and limited environment.

No studio time, no Louie Vatton, no engineers telling me to get it in line, hanging off of the edge
I don't have the resources or support that successful artists have, like expensive studio time, fashion, or professional engineering help.

But my sitting back in my mind
Even though I may not have all the resources or opportunities, I still have the creativity and talent within me to succeed in my own way.