The Diary
4. Hollywood Undead Lyrics


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Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home
Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I fuckin' swear that I care
But its hard when you stare
Into the bottom of a bottle
That is empty and bare
All my desolate soul
In my desolate home
It's my desolate role
Yeah I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
To get the fuck out of bed
Curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week
I always slur when I speak
Tolerance at its peak
Another fit just to sleep
Oh woe is me woe is me
I guess I need love
Hoes ya see hoes ya see
I'm just in a rut
And I swear I'm tryin' baby please
Baby don't leave
God-damn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
So I sit in my room
And I'll cry in my bed
Thinkin' about all the shit
That made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin' to climb
But it seems so steep
Pour myself a fuckin' whisky
And go back to sleep, bitch

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I watch my momma cry
She says 'baby why?'
I say 'baby died,
Baby's gone like a suicide'
I don't think you'll see him soon, mom
Stay out my room, mom
Tell daddy that I hate
That mother fucker like you, mom
I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha and Jordan
These beers keep gettin' warmer
Every time that I hold her
I pour this out for you
Like a partner in crime
It's part of the times
When you're sick in the mind
Yeah I'm sick, oh so sick
I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit
I'm so fucked up off it
So I stumble around
Til I stumble fall down
To this puddle of my tears
Layin' here on the ground

When you've got nothing left
You've got nothing left to lose
With my last left single breath
I'll still be singing to you
So when you bury me man
You better bury me deep
And sing along to this song
Because you're broken like me

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now




But the further I go
I wanna go home

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Hollywood Undead's song The Diary are a depiction of struggle, pain, and the desire to go back to the beginning. The persona in the song has been running throughout the streets for too long and has nothing on him or for himself except this song. He contradicts himself by stating that the more he moves, the more he wants to go back home. The lyrics further delve into how the persona cares but finds it hard when he looks deep into an empty bottle. He is in a desolate state, all alone in his room, crying out for love and desperately trying to find a reason to get out of bed. The persona has given up and is wallowing in self-pity, unable to fight for his own well-being.


The tone of the song is melancholic and reflective. It explores the depths of despair, loneliness, and sadness that anyone can relate to, which gives it a real and relatable feeling. The lyrics paint an image of a person who needs help, who needs someone to care about them, and to show them love. The repetition of the chorus emphasizes the persona’s need to go back home and start over.


Overall, The Diary is a song about pain and the desire to go back to the beginning. It reflects the thoughts and feelings of someone in a desolate and lonely state, looking for love and care but only finding their salvation in a song, a diary.


Line by Line Meaning

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I am unhappy with my current situation and I want to change it


I've been runnin' these streets
I've been aimlessly wandering around without a specific goal


For too long now
I've been living this way for too much time


I've got nothing that's true
I don't have anything in my life that feels genuine or authentic


But this song now
The only thing that feels real to me is the music I am making


But the further I go
The more I distance myself from what is real and true


I wanna go home
I want to return to a place where I feel safe and comfortable


I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha and Jordan
I am dedicating this song to my loved ones who I have lost


Every time that I hold her
Drinking alcohol numbs my pain but also makes me feel worse


And I know it's been so long
I've been away from home and the people I care about for too much time


I was wrong, I was wrong
I made mistakes and caused pain to people because of my actions


And I wanna go back to the start
I want to start over and make things right again


But this song now
The only way I can express my pain and hope for a better future is through my music




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: ARON ERLICHMAN, GEORGE ARTHUR RAGAN

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

Muhammad Hairyshah Fahmi

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I fuckin' swear that I care
But its hard when you stare
Into the bottom of a bottle
That is empty and bare
All my desolate soul
In my desolate home
It's my desolate role
Yeah I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
To get the fuck out of bed
Curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week
I always slur when I speak
Tolerance at its peak
Another fit just to sleep
Oh woe is me woe is me
I guess I need love
Hoes ya see hoes ya see
I'm just in a rut
And I swear I'm tryin' baby please
Baby don't leave
God-damn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
So I sit in my room
And I'll cry in my bed
Thinkin' about all the shit
That made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin' to climb
But it seems so steep
Pour myself a fuckin' whisky
And go back to sleep, bitch

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I watch my momma cry
She says 'baby why?'
I say 'baby died,
Baby's gone like a suicide'
I don't think you'll see him soon, mom
Stay out my room, mom
Tell daddy that I hate
That mother fucker like you, mom
I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha and Jordan
These beers keep gettin' warmer
Every time that I hold her
I pour this out for you
Like a partner in crime
It's part of the times
When you're sick in the mind
Yeah I'm sick, oh so sick
I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit
I'm so fucked up off it
So I stumble around
Til I stumble fall down
To this puddle of my tears
Layin' here on the ground

When you've got nothing left
You've got nothing left to lose
With my last left single breath
I'll still be singing to you
So when you bury me man
You better bury me deep
And sing along to this song
Because you're broken like me

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home.



All comments from YouTube:

Childish Gambino

Can we stop arguing and actually talk about those sick piano notes in the beginning? Amazing. Pure talent. 150%.

Active Diamond

Why 150% precisely though?

Itachi Uchiha

yesssss fucking pure talent

Who pissed in my coffee?

How? It’s not even mildly difficult just catchy lol

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give_no fucs

Deuce's voice is beautiful in this song

Mangle.exethe Hollywoodundeadfan808

I love your profile picture so cute

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Robert Nosko

Is it bad that I've had this song on repeat for the last hour, and I can identify with it almost perfectly?

nerfplainsoda

One of Deuce's best songs vocally Love this song

Dat Jigglypuff

Love Deuce's voice in this song <3

gummi worm

I don't relate to this song, but damn it's an awesome song. Also, you make fantastic lyric videos, man. Keep up the awesome work.

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