Reflection
ATO X EDEN Lyrics

And now you're questionin' the decisions I'm makin' lately
You're doubting my choices, even though you never really supported me

Said that's rich comin' from someone who barely gave me a penny
I find it ironic that you're criticizing me, when you barely helped me financially

If you were here you'd understand my reflection
If you were in my shoes, you'd see why I've turned out the way I have

Cause' standin' over there gives you an ill informed perception
Because your view from afar is limited and doesn't give a complete understanding

Of who I am who I'm meant to be and the couches between
You don't fully know who I am and the challenges I've faced

Cause' when you wake up is when I'll be living the dream
I'm working hard to achieve my goals while others are sleeping

I've embarked upon this journey alone
I'm walking this path by myself without anyone to guide me

Now I'm four years within the unknown but yet so lyrically grown
I've been exploring the unknown for the past four years, but my creativity has blossomed

How did my life become like this
I'm reflecting on how my life ended up being this way

It's all a puzzle drinkin' I can find the answer in the bottom of this bottle
I'm trying to solve the puzzle of my life by drinking, but I know it won't actually help

So we work just to work more
We work hard every day just to be able to continue working hard

Won the last floor says has fallen through a thousand more
Even if we've succeeded once, we can still fail many more times

When the rich take less to the grave than the poor
Rich people often leave behind less of a legacy than those who were less well-off

My mum's callin' my phone and I'm on the road
My mom is trying to reach me while I'm travelling

I take the call she's low sayin' she's been diagnosed
She tells me in a sad voice that she's been diagnosed with an illness

With the same shit that had me wear a black suit and tie
She has the same illness that caused me to attend a funeral wearing formal clothes

When my mother's mother said goodbye back in ninety nine
I lost my grandmother in 1999

There's a thin line between love and hate
It's easy for emotions to shift between love and hate

And I see people cross the border every day
I see people making life-changing decisions every day

And I see people hustlin' to find change
I see people working hard to change their lives

In the pursuit to find change
Everyone is searching for change in their own way

All I know is
The only thing I'm certain of is

Ato come home
Someone is calling Ato to come home

Ato ain't ready Ato needs to get more
Ato isn't ready to come home yet, he needs to do more before returning

The hour glasses pressure ain't resistant through some pesimism despite all these feelings be the rhythm to the way I'm livin'
Despite the pressure of time, I live with pessimism but still let my emotions guide me

And if you find
In case you find

A diamond in the dirt
An unexpected treasure in an unlikely place

A broken bridge by a river
Something that appears non-functional or damaged by a river

Or a sinner by a church
Someone who is seen as bad or immoral near a religious establishment

Trust I know life is too short to not give time to a possibility without hope
I understand that life is too brief not to take chances, even if they seem hopeless

Young guy you don't know why
Youthful individuals often don't know the reason behind things

Livin' in the city where they leave you by the roadside
In the city, people often neglect and abandon others who are unable to keep up

All I know in the place where I've grown is I don't wanna be like him
Despite growing up in that environment, I don't want to become like those around me

Think about you
I think about you

Drink about you
I drink while thinking about you

I tried with you, but you pushed me away
I made an effort with you, but you rejected me

Way deeper into yesterday
I'm looking back further into my past

Hold up where you goin' you best not be playin' games
Where are you heading? You better not be messing around

One fight away from changing this picture inside this frame
One more conflict can completely change the situation

See when you go
When you leave

Is not back to my usual
It won't be a return to my normal life

Young artistic nigga in the city with that pencil full of pain
A young and artistic individual in the city, whose poetry is filled with pain

Into walkin' in the rain
Walking around in the rain

And the raindrops they fall heavy for me
The rain feels especially heavy for me

It's funny, feel like it's gods way of tryna' speak to me
It's ironic, but I feel like God is communicating with me through the rain

Well that's what I feel
That's how I perceive the situation

Feel what I imagine is real
My emotions make my imagined reality feel real

Just a flower in this field
I'm just one small part of the world

Tryna' find my way between
Trying to navigate the space between

The pretty lady's finger and thumb
The delicate space between the fingers of a beautiful woman

And she's god
She has immense power over me, almost like a god

Cause' she controls the feelings I've got
Her actions dictate my emotions

But I've got so much on my brain these days
I'm burdened with many thoughts recently

I feel the waves getting far too big to handle feel to turn this ship the other way
The obstacles are becoming too difficult to overcome, and I'm considering taking a different direction

Sail back to the harbor like your average Joe and play it safe
Returning to my hometown and settling for a mundane life

But that's not life
However, that isn't a meaningful existence

That's not what I chose
It's not the path I intended to pursue

The Romans made these roads that I refuse to follow populated with people that don't see past the tip of their nose
The Romans built these roads that I won't follow, filled with short-sighted people

In the process lost a place called home
In the pursuit of my dreams, I lost the sense of home I once had

Lost my girl
I lost my romantic partner

Feel as if I'm alone starin' at the park
I feel lonely as I stare at the park

There's a billion people that feel the same
Many others are in the same position as me

Life is how you see it and I see it as a frame
Life is all about perception, and I see it as a picture within a frame

The picture that it holds becomes clear on your final days
The true meaning of life becomes clear only at the end of it

Pray it's never my choice to choose to give the brush away
I hope I never have to give up my ability to create and express myself

That's when I realized I'd rather have real enemies than fake friends
I'd rather have genuine opponents than insincere friends

Be true to me than lyin' cheatin' on sunday say amen
I value authenticity and honesty more than hypocritical actions and lip service

I keep spinnin' the world on the tip of my fingers
I feel like I am the one in control of the world

Stressing the waves
I'm pushing the boundaries and facing the challenges head-on

Killin' them masses
I'm overwhelming the competition

Twenty four hours a day
Non-stop, all day long

Just to test em
Just to challenge myself and see what I'm capable of

If I stop it wonder
If I ever stop, I wonder

Who calls it a blessin' wonder
Who would consider my journey as a blessing

Who sees the disaster
Who recognizes the potential failures

Wonder who can see the lesson
Who understands the potential for growth and learning experiences

But my left hand keeps on spinnin' it I'm out of control
I can't stop myself from constantly pushing forward and taking risks

My eyes reflectin' the cadence with no intention to close
My eyes reflect my rhythm, and I have no intention of slowing down or stopping