Through The Eyes of Uriel
Alesana Lyrics

On the edge of reason, beyond understanding
I'm feeling lost and confused, like I am at the brink of madness and there's no rational explanation for my situation

Silent she waits, perfect oblivion
Death is calling me, and it's peaceful and quiet like a deep sleep or total unconsciousness

She's crawling to the end, perfect oblivion
I can feel death creeping closer and my time on this earth drawing to a close

I live behind mirrors within a prison without any bars
I am trapped in my own mind and insecurities, hidden behind a false exterior that prevents me from connecting with the world around me

Yet I remain lost to the world
Despite my longing for connection and love, I feel disconnected and invisible

In hell I'm suspended within a prism
My own self-doubt and anxieties have created a living nightmare where I feel trapped and unable to escape

So many walls, so many years, so many lives
I have built up so many barriers and wasted so much time worrying and doubting myself that it feels almost insurmountable to break through them

Too often I've watched them die
I have seen many people I cared about leave this world before me, which has only exacerbated my fears and anxieties about my own mortality

Images of yesterday feeling so far away
Memories of better times when I felt more alive and free now feel like they belong to another lifetime, so distant and removed from my current reality

I can't let go of the past, the years, the sweet romance
I am holding onto memories of love and happiness from the past, unable to come to terms with their fleeting nature and the reality of my present situation

I am a ticking time bomb waiting in a trance
I am filled with anxiety and the constant feeling that something terrible is going to happen, paralyzed by my own worries and fears

I need you more tonight than you will ever know
Despite my fears and doubts, I crave connection and love more than anything else, and the thought of being alone is unbearable

I swear to never forget this heartbreaking dance
No matter what happens to me, I will always remember the highs and lows of love and connection, and hold onto them even in the face of death

The hell of being trapped is simply not a match for death
No matter how bad my anxiety and pain gets, the thought of death is almost comforting in its finality and peacefulness

Heaven awaits
I am ready to move on to the next phase of my existence, whatever that may be

Now I know not to be afraid of the end
While the thought of death is still scary, it is less terrifying than the idea of being trapped in my own mind and anxieties indefinitely

My love awaits, will you be there? Take me away
I am hoping that there is some kind of afterlife or spiritual existence where I will find love and connection again, and I am looking for someone to take me there

I'm ready, I'll be home soon
I am at peace with the idea of dying, and ready to move on to whatever comes next

Beautiful pure silence, come on! Embrace me
I am looking for silence and calm as a way to escape my own mind and anxieties, hoping for some kind of transcendence or release

Sweet perfect nothing swallow my fears, come on
I am hoping for some kind of peaceful oblivion where my worries and anxieties can be forgotten or swallowed up entirely

If I had just one wish I'd choke prophets, hang angels, burn children
Despite my longing for peace and love, I am also filled with anger and frustration, wishing for destruction and chaos instead

Oh, I'd drink oceans, eat the moon, flood the world, end everything
My desires for destruction and chaos are so strong that I would do anything to bring them about, even if it meant ending everything else in the process

Breathe in, breathe out
I am trying to find a sense of calm and peace by focusing on my own breathing, attempting to control my anxiety and worries in this way

We could run far away but then how would we sleep at night
While I am hopeful for some kind of escape from my own mind and anxieties, the practicalities of running away from my problems and potentially losing everything else are too scary to contemplate

I've been looking for the words to say our last goodbyes
I am still struggling to come to terms with my own mortality and the idea of leaving my loved ones behind, and I am unsure of how to express my feelings

Hold on to fleeting hopes that I just might survive
Despite everything, I am still hoping that I will pull through somehow and be able to find a way out of my own anxieties and fears

Give in to the pleasure
Amidst everything else, I am still trying to find joy and pleasure where I can, even if it is fleeting and temporary

Make it last forever
Even when I find moments of happiness and joy, I wish that they could last forever, wishing desperately to hold onto those emotions and feelings

Hold on hold on to everything we are
Despite everything else, I am grasping towards connection and love, trying to hold onto everything that makes us human and alive