Hate Me If It Helps
Alexander 23 Lyrics

I wonder if your therapist likes me
I'm curious about whether you tell your therapist the whole truth about me, which would inevitably affect her views about me

I guess it depends on how much of the truth you tell to her
My perception of how your therapist thinks about me could vary based on how accurately you reveal the events that took place between us

And I wonder if your brother wants to fight me
I'm pondering whether your brother dislikes me so much that he might consider physically confronting me

Would he change his mind if he saw his big sister at her worst?
It is possible that if your brother witnessed you in a vulnerable state, he might soften his feelings towards me

So tell your friends I'm evil, write songs that say I suck
Please go ahead and demonize me to your friends, write negative songs about me, and convey these feelings of aggression actively

And roll your eyes when people ask about us
I wish you to act dismissive or ambivalent about our entire relationship when people query about it.

You can hate me if it helps, make me out to be the villain
If it gives you some form of resolution to think of me as the antagonist in this equation, go ahead and loathe me

Say you're better by yourself, so it feels like your decision
You can announce that you are better off alone, so you can fake the idea that splitting up was your choice

You can tell 'em I'm the bad guy if it helps you sleep okay
You can inform others that I'm the one at fault if it helps you sleep better at night.

Because all you want is closure, but there's nothin' left to say
Seeking closure may be your motivation, but because everything that could be said has been, I'm not sure what else can be accomplished

Do you wonder if I'm with someone new now?
Do you contemplate if I'm presently in a relationship with someone else?

If her clothes are in the drawer you used to take up in my room
If her apparel lies where your clothing once resided in my room

Yeah, I bet you think I never think about
I believe you presume that it doesn't trigger any emotion for me to recall events now

You anymore, and God, I wish that that were true
The thought of me no longer having feelings for you is something you greatly desire.

But I tell my friends I miss you, I write songs about how much
I unapologetically confess that I desire you to my close acquaintances, and I compose music about the same

Yeah, I know we had our issues, so if you want
I recognize that our relationship had its challenges, so should you feel like blaming me, it's fine.

I'm sorry I stayed up with you every night
I apologize for every night we spent awake chatting for an excessively long time

For making you laugh when you wanted to cry
For cheering you up instead of allowing you to express the emotions you wanted to.

I'm sorry I paid for your SSRI's
I regret having paid for your prescription for SSRI's

For making you happy, I apologize
I'm sorry that I was the source of your happiness and that it's no longer the case.

I'm sorry I put you in front of my friends
I ask for forgiveness for prioritizing you over my friends

Yeah, my bad forgiving you for what you said
I regret having forgiven you for whatever it is you said/do

So go and be angry, but you can't pretend
So go ahead and be angry with me, but you can't pretend like I've wronged you unprovoked

'Cause I know that you never would
Because I know full well you wouldn't ever do that

But you can hate me if it helps
Even though it might hurt me, feel free to detest me for your peace of mind

Yeah, you can hate me if it helps
You have my permission to hate me if it gives you some form of resolution