aftermath
Alexander Stewart Lyrics

I can’t bring myself to throw out your chapstick
Even though it's just a small item, I can't seem to let go of anything that still reminds me of you.

It still rolls around the glovebox where you left it
The chapstick is still where you left it, and it's almost like you are still with me in some way.

As stupid as it sounds
I know it may seem irrational, but these reminders of you continue to hold a powerful emotional sway over me.

I still got it now
I still have the chapstick with me, and it feels like I still have a part of you with me as well.

'Cause parts of me knows
Deep down, even though it may be hard to admit, I know that a part of me will always be connected to you.

Parts of you will always regret it
I believe that a part of you will always regret leaving me, and that thought gives me some solace and comfort in my pain.

If you don't leave me in your past
As long as you keep me in your life in some way, I will always see you as a possibility for my future.

I'll always see you as my future
Even though we may have gone our separate ways, I still hold onto the hope that we might one day be together again.

I can't love just half of you
I can't settle for anything less than a complete relationship with you, even if it means letting you go for good.

Just do what you gotta do
At this point, I can't control what you will do or how our relationship will progress, so I just have to accept it and move on.

Let me crash
Let me experience the pain of missing you and the hurt of losing you, even if it's incredibly painful.

Let me burn
Let me feel the intense emotional pain of losing someone I loved so deeply, even if it ultimately leads to growth and healing.

It's a better kinda hurt
Although it's incredibly painful, there's also a sense of liberation that comes from being honest about my pain and accepting it fully.

When it's all been said and done
Once we have gone through all of the pain and heartache, and the relationship is truly over, maybe then I will finally be ready to move on.

Maybe then I'll give you up
Once enough time has passed, I may be able to finally let go of you and move on from this painful experience.

Now I'm begging you for mercy
Although I know it's not healthy, I can't help but still want you in my life, even though it's hurting me deeply.

And I'm praying you'll desert me
At the same time, I also know that the only way for me to truly move on is for you to let me go and never come back.

So promise me you're never coming back
Please make me the promise that you won't come back into my life, no matter how much I may beg or plead for it.

You know I still love you
Despite everything that's happened between us, my feelings for you still run deep and strong.

We both know exactly what you're doing
Although I may not want to admit it, I know that you're playing with my emotions and keeping me on the line just in case you want to come back to me.

Give me just enough to keep me
You give me just enough attention and affection to keep me hanging on, even though I know deep down it's not healthy for me.

Coming back so there's no moving on
By keeping me on the line like this, I can't truly move on from you and find the happiness and closure that I need.

Leave me in the aftermath
Please leave me to deal with the aftermath of our relationship on my own and allow me the space to finally move on from you.