Falling apart
Andiroo Lyrics

I'm captured in my head, I'm laying in my bed
The singer is mentally trapped and physically lying down in his bed.

I'm counting my sorrows and thinking what I said
He is thinking about his past mistakes and feeling sad about them.

I'm falling apart, falling apart
The singer feels like he is crumbling under mental pressure.

I guess I'm all in my head, I'm overthinking about any of the things that I've read
He is thinking too much about everything he has read and is over-analyzing it.

Between anxiety I'm lost with the thoughts that I've bred
The singer is anxious and confused with his own thoughts.

I'm writing lyrics on this paper from the blood that I've bled
He is writing lyrics that are inspired by his own personal pain.

Maybe I'm too hard on myself to be in this world
The singer is being overly critical of himself and feels like he doesn't belong in the world.

They're telling me that I'm doing fine, but what am I worth?
He feels like he is not making any meaningful impact despite being told that he is doing well.

It feels like nothing I'm short of perfect when I'm writing these words
He feels like his writing is not good enough and he is being too hard on himself.

And I can't help but tell myself that I'm not worth your concerns
The singer feels like he is not worth the attention or care of others.

But maybe I just beat myself up too much
He realizes that he is too hard on himself and is willing to consider that.

I hate myself and I complain about the world that I love
The singer loves the world but dislikes himself and complains about that fact.

And at this point I'm tryna get out of the hole that I dug
He is trying to overcome the negative mindset that he has created for himself.

But I don't have the strength to climb so I keep digging it up
Despite wanting to improve, the singer feels like he's unable to and is making things worse.

I take what you said into consideration that the mental state I'm in, it has it's complications
The singer is taking into account the advice of others who recognize the difficulties of his mental state.

I'm just stuck in this state of thinking about the hate
The singer is trapped in a negative thought pattern and is constantly thinking about hate.

And I'm depressed but at least I know that there's food on my plate, yeah
Despite his depression, the singer is glad to have basic necessities like food.

I guess I'm all in my head, I made myself a better person but I have my regrets
The singer feels like he has become a better person, but still has regrets about his past.

I started treating people better but this ain't what was meant to happen
He tried to improve his relationships with others but things didn't turn out the way he wanted.

I got cocky yeah I thought I was heaven-sent, yeah
The singer became overconfident and thought he was better than others.

I pondered thoughts, I don't know how to recapture the feeling I had
He is struggling to regain positive feelings that he once experienced.

When I was kid, when I had a grin, when I had a purpose and how 'bout when I was different?
The singer is reminiscing about a time when he was happier and felt like he had a purpose.

I feel the same as everyone else how I'm writing my sins, right?
He feels like he is just like everyone else and is guilty of making mistakes.

But I guess I'm all in my head about the past I'm praying that I make it out of this debt
The singer is hoping to move past his mistakes and move on from the negative thoughts he has about the past.

Of hurting people when I'm tryna make a better effect
He feels bad for hurting others while trying to make a positive impact.

To make a positive accomplishment that I haven't met
He is still striving to achieve a meaningful goal that he hasn't reached yet.

Happiness doesn't feel real when the pills are what's causing it
He recognizes that taking pills for happiness is not sustainable and doesn't feel real.

And the joy isn't brought, without the popping narcotics
He believes that he can only experience joy with drugs.

And God I hope that you're real, cause I just feel like you're not
The singer is questioning the existence of God and feeling like his prayers are unanswered.

But when I think about that I'm afraid when all breathing stops
Despite his doubts, he is afraid of what happens after death.