Leaving Eden
Antimatter Lyrics


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Put the thorn in my side, the coins on my eyes
I'm not awake, I'm leaving Eden
And all her frozen charms lie cold in my arms
Panic went away and left me reeling
It's warm outside but the weather fails to hide
the stinging loss inside
For in the back of my mind
I always thought I'd find my way to paradise
On I'd walk to paradise ...

But grace and lies locked the door from the other side
And now there's not much else there
Grace and lies
In all how long can you hide, how long?

The cost of innocence is the loss of innocence
Some may pass away, but some die screaming




When it came to my time, oh it took me by surprise
Was it my mistake, or am I born for giving in?

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Antimatter's song Leaving Eden describe the feeling of losing one's innocence, of leaving the idyllic paradise that one has always believed to exist. The thorn in his side and the coins on his eyes refer to the Christian tradition of placing coins on the eyes of the dead, and the thorn in his side represents the pain of leaving paradise. The singer is struggling to come to terms with the fact that paradise is not as perfect as he thought it was. He is leaving Eden behind, carrying its frozen charms in his arms, but the panic of realizing the truth has left him reeling.


Even though it's warm outside, the weather fails to hide the stinging loss that he feels inside. He always thought he'd find his way to paradise, but the grace and lies that he encountered locked the door from the other side. The cost of innocence is the loss of innocence, and while some may pass away, some die screaming. The singer is questioning whether it was his mistake that led to his loss of innocence, or whether he was born to give in to it. The lyrics are poignant and introspective, giving the listener an insight into the pain and confusion that can arise from losing one's innocence.


Line by Line Meaning

Put the thorn in my side, the coins on my eyes
I am experiencing both physical and emotional pain; metaphorically the thorn is causing me discomfort and the coins symbolize my death.


I'm not awake, I'm leaving Eden
I am not living in reality, I am leaving a place of paradise (Eden) whether it's a physical or metaphorical place.


And all her frozen charms lie cold in my arms
All of the positive things I once held dear are now gone, and they do not bring me any comfort.


Panic went away and left me reeling
I have experienced a time of panic, but it has passed and now I am left feeling disoriented and unstable.


It's warm outside but the weather fails to hide the stinging loss inside
Although the weather seems pleasant, it cannot cover up the pain and loss I am feeling internally.


For in the back of my mind I always thought I'd find my way to paradise
I held onto the hope that I would eventually find a place of paradise or happiness, but now I realize that it was just a fantasy.


On I'd walk to paradise ...
I continued to hope and strive towards a place of paradise or happiness, but now it seems futile.


But grace and lies locked the door from the other side
I cannot access paradise or happiness because it is being guarded by false hope and deception.


And now there's not much else there
Without the hope of paradise or happiness, there is not much left for me to aspire to or look forward to.


Grace and lies
False hope and deception are keeping me from experiencing true happiness and peace.


In all how long can you hide, how long?
How long can you keep up the act of false hope and deception before reality catches up with you?


The cost of innocence is the loss of innocence
Maintaining a sense of innocence or naivety can lead to negative consequences and a loss of that innocence.


Some may pass away, but some die screaming
Death can happen suddenly or painfully, and it is not always a peaceful passing.


When it came to my time, oh it took me by surprise
Death or loss can happen unexpectedly and catch you off guard.


Was it my mistake, or am I born for giving in?
I am questioning whether my actions or nature led to my downfall, or if it was out of my control.




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Wolfsangel Grenadier

Lyrics <3

Put the thorn in my side, the coins on my eyes
I'm not awake, I'm leaving Eden
And all her frozen charms lie cold in my arms
Panic went away and left me reeling
It's warm outside but the weather fails to hide
the stinging loss inside
For in the back of my mind I always thought I'd find my way to paradise
On I'd walk to paradise ...

But grace and lies locked the door from the other side
And now there's not much else there
Grace and lies
In all how long can you hide, how long?
The cost of innocence is the loss of innocence
Some may pass away, but some die screaming
When it came to my time, oh it took me by surprise
Was it my mistake, or am I born for giving in?



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Helenaki81

This song goes straight in the heart. The music, the lyrics, i have goosebumps everytime i hear it. Danny's guitar playing is just breathtaking...

Wolfsangel Grenadier

Lyrics <3

Put the thorn in my side, the coins on my eyes
I'm not awake, I'm leaving Eden
And all her frozen charms lie cold in my arms
Panic went away and left me reeling
It's warm outside but the weather fails to hide
the stinging loss inside
For in the back of my mind I always thought I'd find my way to paradise
On I'd walk to paradise ...

But grace and lies locked the door from the other side
And now there's not much else there
Grace and lies
In all how long can you hide, how long?
The cost of innocence is the loss of innocence
Some may pass away, but some die screaming
When it came to my time, oh it took me by surprise
Was it my mistake, or am I born for giving in?

Marco Kuis

One of my favorite albums. just so, so, so damn beautiful. The guitar solo finishing this song in particular keeps giving me goosebumps.

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By my meaning, one of the best albums I've ever heard.

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Best and main album of my life.

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best album with alternative 4!!!

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I still get the same chills even after more than a decade

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The best song I've ever heard in my lifetime!

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