Lying
Ashley Alexander Lyrics
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Waking up and having time
Time that is mine
It′s so hard to retain
Yeah, I've sailed deep into the blue
Crossed oceans for you
Over life that I could chase
I'm twisted and I′m lyin′
And I don't recognize myself anymore
Yeah, I′m young, I can't keep this
I′m a father to so many secrets
I wish for it to stop as I go forward
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm sick of lying
To myself
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh
I′m sick of lying
To myself
Orange juice and marmalade
Mornings made
But not for me
Ooh-ooh
Home is miles away
I miss the space between me, higher than me
But when you're young, you're reckless
You leave your heart defenseless
And say goodbye too many times
I′ve held hands to the end
The end is closer than we pretend
I′ve felt enough grief for one life
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm sick of lying
To myself
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh
I′m sick of lying
To myself
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm sick of lying
To myself
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh
I′m sick of lying
To myself
The song "Lying" by Ashley Alexander is a poignant reflection on the struggles of coming to terms with one's own identity and the feelings of loneliness and disorientation that can accompany it. The lyrics suggest a deep sense of internal conflict and confusion as the singer struggles to reconcile their own desires and needs with those of the people around them. The opening lines set the tone for the song, with the singer expressing a yearning to have time to themselves, a rare commodity in a world that demands constant engagement and productivity. From there, the song delves into themes of loss, betrayal, and disillusionment, as the singer laments the toll that years of deception have taken on their psyche.
As the song progresses, we see the singer grappling with their own mortality and the weight of the secrets they've been carrying. They describe themselves as "twisted" and "tired," suggesting a profound weariness that has set in after years of living a double life. Despite this fatigue, however, the singer seems determined to break free from the lies and deceptions that have defined their existence, even if it means sacrificing the comfort and security they've come to rely on. Ultimately, the song is a deeply personal meditation on the complicated nature of human relationships and the struggle to find meaning and purpose in a world that often seems determined to thwart our efforts.
Line by Line Meaning
Waking up and having time
Starting a new day with free time to engage in self-care
Time that is mine
Time devoted solely to myself and my own needs
It′s so hard to retain
Keeping that free time and maintaining boundaries is a challenge
Yeah, I've sailed deep into the blue
I've gone far and taken risks for love
Crossed oceans for you
I've made great sacrifices for someone
Over life that I could chase
I've given up opportunities and experiences for this love
Yeah, I′ve aged, I'm tired
I'm getting older and feeling fatigued from the strain of this relationship
I'm twisted and I′m lyin′
I'm feeling lost and dishonest about who I am in this relationship
And I don't recognize myself anymore
I've become someone different due to this relationship, and I don't know who I am anymore
Yeah, I′m young, I can't keep this
I'm admitting that I am not equipped to handle this relationship at my age
I′m a father to so many secrets
I have kept many things hidden and it weighs heavy on me
I wish for it to stop as I go forward
I want this cycle of secrets and lies to end as I move on
Orange juice and marmalade
A breakfast meal that I used to enjoy
Mornings made
The start of a new day that used to bring joy
But not for me
Now, I am not able to appreciate these simple pleasures due to my situation
Home is miles away
Feeling disconnected from a sense of home and belonging
I miss the space between me, higher than me
I long for distance and independence from those who hold power over me
But when you're young, you're reckless
The impulsive nature of youth can lead to unwise decisions
You leave your heart defenseless
Being inexperienced and reckless can leave one vulnerable and open to hurt
And say goodbye too many times
Enduring repeated loss and heartache
I′ve held hands to the end
I have helped someone through difficult times, even when it was painful
The end is closer than we pretend
Death or the end of something is approaching, but we are in denial
I′ve felt enough grief for one life
Having experienced so much loss and pain in life already
I'm sick of lying
I am tired of hiding the truth and not being authentic about how I feel
To myself
The lying and deception have also been affecting my own sense of self and identity
Writer(s): Ashley Alexander Graham
Contributed by Jeremiah H. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@ggsqd247
I love the music listen to it like 10x a day
@DRMNZ
shoutoutz ash!
@rolik2592
G0oD
@cheapgreaser
This is moody and beautiful
@vesnaaziz398
💕💕💕💕 this is amazing, let's do a duet, I sing too, sometimes. 😂😂😂
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