Frozen
Ashtin Larold Lyrics

My heart's been frozen, frozen, frozen
I have been emotionally closed off and unresponsive

I'm numb
I lack feeling or emotion

I can't control myself
I am unable to regulate my own actions and behaviors

Lately feelin' like I don't know myself
Recently, I have been experiencing a sense of unfamiliarity with my own identity

I'm fine I don't want your help
I appear to be okay, but I am unwilling to accept assistance or support

This ain't nothin' compared to the cold I've felt
The current situation is insignificant compared to the emotional pain I have previously endured

My heart's been freezin'
My heart has been becoming increasingly cold and unfeeling

I been struggling to find a reason
I have been facing difficulty in discovering purpose or motivation

Don't worry I ain't leavin'
Do not worry, I am not planning on exiting or abandoning the situation

Every Devil bound to have his demons
Everyone has their own inner struggles and challenges

I been down I been hurt I been scarred
I have experienced periods of sadness, pain, and emotional damage

I been in the dark, took shots to the heart
I have been in a state of emotional darkness and have endured emotional blows

The bones in my closet they don't scare me no more
The mistakes and secrets of my past no longer have power over me

Look at where I was man I've come so far
Reflecting on my past, I have made significant progress and personal growth

And Jesus the pain is so beautiful
Despite the suffering, there is a unique beauty in experiencing pain

Value the good days when bad is the usual
Appreciate the moments of happiness when most days are filled with hardship

Appreciate all that you're given this life is a short one
Be grateful for everything you receive as life is brief and fleeting

Your time aint' renewable
You cannot regain lost time, so make the most of what you have

Sometimes this life feels so difficult
At times, existence can be challenging and overwhelming

Troubles o' plenty but happiness minimal
There are numerous difficulties, but only a limited amount of happiness

It's easy to whine and be miserable
Complaining and feeling unhappy require little effort

When all of the pleasure's invisible
The sources of joy and contentment are not readily apparent

And trust me I'm far from invincible
Believe me, I am vulnerable and susceptible to harm

I'm just aware that the struggle is winnable
However, I recognize that triumph over adversity is achievable

I've snuffed out and murdered my demons so often I'm startin' to feel like a criminal
I have repeatedly conquered and vanquished my inner demons to the point where it feels almost criminal

Regardless they always come back
Nevertheless, my demons continue to resurface

Fuck the defensive I'm on the attack
I refuse to defensively react, instead, I will actively confront my challenges

I know it'd be just so easy to quit but my mom raised somebody much stronger than that
Giving up may seem tempting, but my mother instilled in me a resilience and strength to persevere

Armies and armies and wave after wave
Metaphorically, countless obstacles and challenges continuously arise

I'll just keep fightin' til I'm in my grave
I will persist in battling against adversity until the day I die

I know that one day the reaper will come and I'm ready
I am aware that eventually death will come, and I am prepared for it

But homie today ain't the day
However, my friend, today is not the day for it