) lying to myself
Austin Meade Lyrics
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I've been searching
I′ve been feeling only you
I've been lying to myself again
I don't feel it anymore
I still love you but I never get the chance
To love anything once they take a second glance
Too much to ask to keep myself from freaking out
I′ve been hearing how things are changing
But I′m not jealous, just ignored
If I'm being honest
I′ve stopped trying to get your attention
Not like before
I still love you but I never get the chance
To love anything once they take a second glance
The part of life that I could never live without
Too much to ask to keep myself from freaking out
I still love you but I never get the chance
To love anything once they take a second glance
The part of life that I could never live without
Too much to ask to keep myself from freaking out
I've been lying to myself again
I don′t feel it anymore
In "Lying to Myself," Austin Meade talks about his struggle to move on from a past relationship. He explains how he has been searching and watching for something, and confesses to lying to himself again. He admits to still loving his past love interest, but never getting the chance to love anyone else once people take a second glance. He goes on to say that this part of his life is too important for him to live without it, but is too much to ask to keep himself from freaking out.
The lyrics suggest that the singer is not over the person he is singing about, but has accepted that he cannot change the outcome. He has come to terms with the fact that he cannot force anyone to love him or notice him, and that he has been in denial about it for a while. The song is a bittersweet reflection of unrequited love, acceptance, and letting go.
Line by Line Meaning
I've been watching
I have been closely observing my surroundings
I've been searching
I have been actively looking for something or someone
I've been feeling only you
My emotions are solely focused on you
I've been lying to myself again
I have been deceiving myself despite knowing the truth
I don't feel it anymore
I have lost the emotions I used to have
I still love you but I never get the chance
Even though I have feelings for you, I cannot act on them
To love anything once they take a second glance
As soon as someone takes a closer look, my love fades
The part of life that I could never live without
This aspect of life is so important to me that I cannot imagine living without it
Too much to ask to keep myself from freaking out
It is too difficult for me to keep my emotions under control
I've been hearing how things are changing
I have been made aware of changes happening around me
But I'm not jealous, just ignored
I am not envious, just feeling neglected
If I'm being honest
To be truthful
I've stopped trying to get your attention
I have given up on trying to gain your notice
Not like before
I am no longer putting forth as much effort as I once did
I've been lying to myself again
I have been deceiving myself despite knowing the truth
I don't feel it anymore
I have lost the emotions I used to have
I still love you but I never get the chance
Even though I have feelings for you, I cannot act on them
To love anything once they take a second glance
As soon as someone takes a closer look, my love fades
The part of life that I could never live without
This aspect of life is so important to me that I cannot imagine living without it
Too much to ask to keep myself from freaking out
It is too difficult for me to keep my emotions under control
Writer(s): Austin Meade, David Willie Jameson
Contributed by Lillian M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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I’d like to see koe jump on another track, y’all seem to click perfectly together when it comes to this genre of music.
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Hey Riley 😂😂 i agree 100% though
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Click so good koe dropped a song with the same name Meade dropped
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Gotta say throughout his progression he definitely found his sound.. awesome song.
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