Bluebird
Av.i Lyrics

When I walked up all you caught was the shade of my hat on my face
I walked up to you with my hat covering most of my face, symbolizing the emotional walls and pain that I hide from others.

My ways are in pain, from the strain of my ways
The things I do and the life I lead are causing me deep emotional pain and distress.

Chains engraved in my physical days, in physical waves
My struggles and hardships have become a permanent part of my physical being, to the point where they ripple and affect every aspect of my life.

I get physical strength from my individual ways
Despite the pain and struggle, I find strength and resilience in my unique way of handling and coping with my problems.

Meanwhile I'm not fulfilled, this feeling shall not be stilled
Even though I have found strength, I still feel unfulfilled and unsatisfied in life, and this feeling won't go away.

Rewind time and rewrite lines for the kinds of you to feel
If I could go back in time, I would try to change things and rewrite my story to make others understand and feel the pain that I go through.

Docile if you so will, fragile and you go downhill
If you become too docile and weak, you will become fragile and break down easily.

Drinking wine, forgetting time, now time to be refilled
Drinking wine helps me forget about the time and the pain, but eventually I need to refill and face reality again.

They say if you snooze you loose
There is a saying that if you don't stay alert and keep working, you will miss opportunities and lose out.

Well I spend my days, dazed and confused
But my pain and struggle often leave me feeling dazed and confused, making it hard to stay alert and focused on opportunities.

Is it cause I blaze all day and fade, then that's old news
If people assume my struggles are just from my drug use, then that's old news and doesn't fully capture the depth and complexity of my issues.

If it's new to you, this is Yarah rapping the blues
If you're hearing the pain and struggle in my music for the first time, then know that this is me rapping about the blues in my life.

Don't get used to it, running mascara I refuse
But don't get too comfortable with my pain and struggle, because I refuse to keep running and wearing makeup to hide my true emotions.

Closed doors prevent outsiders from viewing
I keep my struggles and pain hidden behind closed doors, preventing others from seeing the true extent of my issues.

But struggling alone makes it tough for pursuing
But struggling alone makes it difficult for me to pursue my dreams and goals.

Dreams, but it seems all I get are sleepless nights
Despite my dreams and aspirations, I often find myself unable to sleep at night because of my pain and struggles.

Nightmares about losing loved ones and losing fights
In my sleep, I am haunted by nightmares of losing those close to me and being defeated in battles.

The bluebird flew over the fields of sorrow
The bluebird represents hope and freedom, flying over the sorrowful fields of my life.

As I left the scene and the dream watching the souls wallow
As I try to move on from my struggles, I watch others continue to suffer and remain trapped in their own pain.

Left you for more, left the room hollow
I walked away from something or someone because I needed more in life, but in doing so, I left behind a feeling of emptiness and sadness.

Many will fall, a lot more will follow
Many will face the same struggles and pain in life, and many more will follow in their footsteps.

You take drugs to psyche your mind
Some people turn to drugs to try and cope with their emotional pain and struggles.

You take wine, to forget about time
Others turn to alcohol to try and escape the harsh reality of their lives and the passage of time.

You create a world of your own
They create a mental world or reality to escape to and find comfort in, where the truth is often obscured.

Where the truth, will never be known
But in this world they create, the truth and reality of their lives will never truly be known or addressed.

I work when the work seems like play
I try to find joy and fulfillment in the work that I do, even when it is difficult or painful.

And hate to play when the work seems to work my way, I say
But when the work becomes too much and takes over my life, I begin to hate it and resent it.

I work my way through everyday that I play my way
Despite the struggles and pain, I continue to work and push through each day, finding my own way to cope and survive.

Now..Hear what I say, hear what I say
Listen carefully to the words I am saying, as they come from deep within me and are a reflection of my true emotions and struggles.

Makes it all seem hopeless like impending cancellations
Despite my efforts and resilience, the weight of my struggles and the struggles of others can make everything seem hopeless and doomed to failure.

The locks will open someday continued determination
But I still hold onto hope that someday the locks of my emotional pain and the pain of others will open, and we will find freedom and peace with continued determination.

Restless infection destroys spiritual vaccinations
But the restless nature of our emotional pain and struggles can eat away at our resilience and spiritual strength, like an infection destroying any possible vaccinations.

And I will head for my destination
Despite the hardships and struggles, I will continue to push through and head towards my goals and aspirations.

I stand alone at the crossroads of death inhale the breath
I face my struggles and pain head-on, even when it feels like life and death are in the balance, inhaling every breath and persevering.

Of lost souls that left in and out of consciousness
I am surrounded by lost souls like myself, drifting in and out of consciousness as we try to deal with our pain.

Drinking wine reminds me of what honest is
Despite the escapism associated with drinking, it also reminds me of the raw, honest truth of my pain and struggles.

Making me wonder where the hell the logic is?
But despite this honesty, the logic of dealing with our emotional pain often seems confusing and impossible to understand.

We're all lost, we're all tossed, at a lost cause
In the end, we are all lost and struggling to find our way through the pain and confusion, and it often feels like a lost cause.

Fight between ourselves, relieve ourselves, and then we all fall
We often turn to unhealthy coping mechanisms and end up fighting ourselves and ultimately falling back into our struggles and pain.

Through the wall, through it all, who we are?
But even in the midst of all this struggle, we continue to push through the walls and obstacles and question who we really are deep down.

No denying that at 5 foot I still stand tall
Despite my struggles and pain, I still stand tall and find resilience within myself, never denying the strength and power that I possess.

Many will fall
Despite our best efforts and resilience, many will still fall victim to their own struggles and pain.

A lot more will follow
But many more will continue to struggle and fall in the future, unless we find a way to address and heal our emotional pain and experiences.