Amanda Ava Koci (born February 16, 1994), known professionally as Ava Max, … Read Full Bio ↴Amanda Ava Koci (born February 16, 1994), known professionally as Ava Max, is an American singer and songwriter. Ava first got her start in the music industry in 2008 as Amanda Kay, in which she released her first EP titled “Amanda Kay” that year. The EP featured 6 songs that were co-written and produced by Kevin Rudolf.

Ava would then restart her music career under the name AVA in 2013 and release the single, “Take Away the Pain”. A year later, she would meet music producer Cirkut and begin recording songs with him. In 2015, As Ava Koci, Ava would upload the Cirkut produced “Spinning Around” and “Come Home” to SoundCloud, and feature on a Project 46 reworked version of “Take Away The Pain”. In 2016, Ava would go back to using the AVA stage name and upload the Cirkut produced songs “Jet Set and “Anyone But You” to SoundCloud. “Anyone But You” would catch the attention of multiple labels, in which she ended up signing a recording contract with Atlantic Records. Due to this, a follow up single to “Anyone But You” titled “Try Again” was scrapped.

She released her single, “My Way” on April 20th, 2018. “Not Your Barbie Girl” was released on August 13th, 2018. Four days later, “Sweet But Psycho” was released. The song gave her immense popularity and peaked at #1 in multiple countries and went #10 in the US. The follow up, “So Am I” was released March 7th, 2019 and a remix featuring NCT 127 on July 3rd, 2019. On July 30th, 2019 she released double promo singles, “Blood, Sweat & Tears” and “Freaking Me Out,” however, Max has confirmed these will not feature on her debut album. A music video was released for"Freaking Me Out" as a Halloween special on October 31st, 2019.

In August 2019, Max was featured on the song "Slow Dance" by American singer-songwriter AJ Mitchell, and released "Torn" as a single later that month. The music video for "Torn" wad directed by Joseph Kahn. On September 4, 2019, she entered a joint co-publishing deal with Warner Chappell Music and Artist Publishing Group. On November 6, 2019, a duet called "Tabú" between Max and Pablo Alborán was released. In June 2018, "Salt" appeared on SoundCloud, the song was later sent to digital streaming platforms on December 12, 2019. Max collaborated with British-Norwegian DJ and record producer Alan Walker on the song "Alone, Pt. II", which was released on December 27, 2019. "On Somebody" was released as a promotional single on December 30, 2019.

"Kings & Queens" the fifth single from Max's debut album was released March 12th, 2020. On July 30th, 2020, she released "Whos Laughing Now?" the sixth single from her album Her debut album titled 'Heaven & Hell' is slated for release on September 18, 2020, and will feature her singles "Sweet but Psycho", "So Am I", "Torn", "Salt", "Kings & Queens" and "Whos Laughing Now?"

Torn
Ava Max Lyrics

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You, you take all of the li-li-light away
But, but then you give me fireworks
I, I think of leaving ni-ni-night and day
But, but then you always find the words

You're contagious, baby
Love when you love me, hate me
The way you rock, ro-ro-rock my body lately

You set the rain on fire
I wish the lows were higher
Wish I could stop, stop, stop to save me

Oh, I wanna stay, wanna walk out the door
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn
I can't get enough, can't take anymore
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn
You dry my tears and make it pour
You show me love and give me war
I can't get enough, can't take anymore
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn

I, I always wanna run, run, run away
But, but then I crawl into your arms
It, it's like we're starting drama every day
But, but you know that's my favorite part

You're contagious, baby
Love when you love me, hate me
The way you rock, ro-ro-rock my body lately
You set the rain on fire
I wish the lows were higher
Wish I could stop, stop, stop to save me

Oh, I wanna stay, wanna walk out the door
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn
I can't get enough, can't take anymore
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn
You dry my tears and make it pour
You show me love and give me war
I can't get enough, can't take anymore
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn

(Torn, baby, I'm torn, torn)
(Torn, torn, baby, I'm torn, torn)

Torn from the pages out of our book
A beautiful tragedy
I'm torn in-between Heaven and Hell
'Cause, baby, when I'm with you
I just don't know where I'd rather be

Oh, I wanna stay, wanna walk out the door
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn (oh)
I can't get enough, can't take anymore
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn
You dry my tears and make it pour (oh yeah)
You show me love and give me war

I can't get enough, can't take anymore (oh whoa)
Oh no, right now, baby, I'm torn

Overall Meaning

In "Torn," the singer Ava Max muses on her conflicting emotions about her relationship with her love interest. The lyrics suggest that she is torn between leaving him and staying with him. Ava sings how he takes all her light away but then gives her fireworks. Meaning he is capable of making her feel both joy and despair, and she finds it difficult to leave him despite the ups and downs. That she wants to run away every day but ultimately crawls back into his arms. The lyrics highlight their relationship's intensity, as it seems like they start drama every day, but that is Ava's favorite part.

Throughout the song, Ava describes how her partner affects her. He is contagious, and she loves it when he loves her or hates her. Her partner affects her at an emotional level and physically as he rocks her body, which Ava enjoys. She wishes the lows in their relationship were higher and that she could stop, stop, stop to save herself from the turmoil. The chorus repeats how torn Ava is between wanting to stay and wanting to leave, as her love interest "dries her tears and makes it pour" and shows her both love and war.

Overall, "Torn" is a song that illustrates the tumultuous nature of Ava's relationship with her love interest. She is paralyzed by the depth of her feelings and the conflict it creates within her. She desires to leave, but at the same time, she is drawn to him like a moth to a flame.

Line by Line Meaning

You, you take all of the li-li-light away
You have a way of making me feel small and insignificant.

But, but then you give me fireworks
But you also have a way of surprising me and making me feel alive.

I, I think of leaving ni-ni-night and day
I constantly consider leaving this relationship.

But, but then you always find the words
But you always manage to say something that keeps me hooked.

You're contagious, baby
Your energy is infectious.

Love when you love me, hate me
I love when you're loving towards me but also hate when you're not.

The way you rock, rock, rock my body lately
You have a way of pleasing me physically with your movements.

You set the rain on fire
You have the power to make even the most mundane things seem exciting.

I wish the lows were higher
I wish our relationship were more consistently positive instead of having extreme highs and lows.

Wish I could stop, stop, stop to save me
I wish I had the ability to break free from this toxic relationship.

Oh, I wanna stay, wanna walk out the door
I have conflicting feelings and desires about this relationship.

Oh no, right now baby I'm torn
I'm feeling confused and conflicted about what to do.

I can't get enough, can't take anymore
I'm addicted to this rollercoaster of a relationship but also can't handle the emotional turmoil anymore.

You dry my tears and make it pour
You have a way of both causing my pain and being the only one who can make it stop.

You show me love and give me war
Our relationship is filled with both love and constant conflict.

I, I always want to run, run, run away
I'm constantly driven to want to leave and escape this relationship.

But, but then I crawl into your arms
But then I cave and cling to you for comfort and safety.

It, it's like we're starting drama every day
Our relationship seems to involve constant drama and conflict.

But, but you know that's my favorite part
But I also thrive on the drama and chaos that comes with being with you.

Torn from the pages out of our book
I feel like our story is filled with ups and downs, and I'm not sure what the next chapters hold.

A beautiful tragedy
Our relationship is both beautiful but also painful and tragic.

I'm torn in between heaven and hell
I feel caught between the pleasure and pain of being with you.

'Cause baby when I'm with you
Despite everything, I can't help but want to be with you.

I just don't know where I'd rather be
I'm not sure what I truly want from this relationship.

Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Amanda Koci, Henry Russell Walter, James William Lavigne, Madison Love, Samuel Martin, Thomas Eriksen

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