SUICIDE
Avant Lyrics

Oh Lady, Since you walked out of my life
Ever since you left, my life has been filled with despair and sadness.

It feels like the world is just caving in on me
I feel like my life is falling apart without you, and nothing seems to be going right.

Damn, I can't live in these four walls all alone
Being alone in this house is suffocating, and I can't bear to be here without you.

And you know how much I love you
You were the love of my life, and I don't know how to exist without you.

And how much I want to hold you
I long to feel your arms around me, to have you close and to breathe in your scent.

How could you do this to me
I can't understand why you left, and it feels like a betrayal that you would hurt me like this.

Girl since you closed the door in my face
When you shut me out, it felt like the end of the world, like everything was hopeless.

Its been like a dark hall that has no end
My life is empty and bleak since you left, and I can't see a way out of this misery.

I'm looking at this bottle
I'm turning to alcohol to numb the pain, to try to forget the agony of losing you.

Gonna drink it till its gone
I'll keep drinking until there's nothing left, hoping that it will make me forget you and the pain you caused.

You might as well say this is the end
I feel like my life is over, that there's no hope left for me without you.

don't know what I'm gonna do
I don't know how to go on living when the love of my life has abandoned me.

Feels like I'm on a plane ride
My life feels like it's spiraling out of control, like I'm on a plane that's about to crash.

Facing its final hour
I feel like my time is running out, like I'm about to reach the end of my life without you.

I'm goin blind and I can't see
The pain of losing you has blinded me, and I can't see a way forward without you.

In front of the judge facing the death penalty
I feel like I'm on trial for something I didn't do, like I'm about to be punished for loving you.

Lock and throw away the key
I feel trapped and alone, like I'll never be able to escape this pain or this feeling of being lost without you.

can't you see
Can't you understand how much I need you, how much I'm hurting and how much I love you?

I can't think, I can't sleep, I can't eat, feel so weak
Every part of me is consumed by the pain of losing you, and I'm barely able to function without you by my side.

I need you to rescue me
I need you to come back to me and save me from this pain, to help me see a way forward and to feel whole again.

Take me from this misery
I need you to take away the pain, to help me find solace and joy again, and to show me that there is hope for a future without you.

It won't be long before I go down
I feel like I'm close to the edge, like I'm about to lose everything without you in my life.

I need you girl to come around
I need you to return to me, to be by my side, and to help me find my way forward without you.

I don't know how long it will be
I don't know how much longer I can survive without you, how many more days or nights of misery and pain await me.

won't somebody come see about me
I need someone, anyone, to come and check on me, to show me some kindness and love, to help me feel less alone in this world.

I'm on my knees praying to you
I'm begging for your forgiveness, for your mercy, for your love, for anything that will help me feel whole again.

Gonna do something that I should not do
I don't know what to do to ease my pain, and I'm considering taking extreme measures to end it all.

I just can't take this pain
The pain of losing you is too much for me to bear, and I'm not sure how much longer I can survive without you.