Obsession
Avenade Lyrics

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I’m afraid I’ll lose all consciousness
You say my name I snooze my consciousness
There's a quarrel with this emptiness
I can't let go of the emptiness
And after a while I break down
The thoughts are killing everything I have left
I don't know where I'll go when they leave me alone
Oh no, I fought a devil before

He was smoking in an alleyway and crashed a bottle over my head
How did the glass taste on my tongue?
How are you not even having fun?
Is it too late to get my refund?
And when it's all said and done, I'm glad you took your time to write this in pens and pills
Well what’s this obsession?
Worthless obsession
I’ll set this on fire
My rosary is on the ground
Well it’s on my life, I’m glad so what’s the use of it
I’m afraid I lost all consciousness
You said my name, I fought my consciousness
I hate myself and everything I'll stand for
Everything I'll stand for is just rage
And after a while I break down
How could I quarrel with such a fine specimen?
You haven't seen them 'til they walk out the front door
Never knew there would be so much gore
It's been a whole week since God left
My pupils dilate and my bones shrivel
My perfect teeth have been rotting since
And my room smells of decaying filth
Are you having fun yet?
Does this humor you, tough guy?
You're gonna get me riled up and rain a suppressing line of fire on both of our houses
I'm fallen from the ways of what we breed
Sorry I can't speak, hallelujah fantasy
Obsession
Restless obsession
I’ll set you on fire
With every inch, there is gasoline
I’ll find a way to cheer up this party
Break my foot
Shoot my leg
Bust my hip
Punch my gut
Crack my ribs
Tear my arm
Twist my neck
Pull my teeth
Bend my nose
Gouge my eyes

Shave my top
Eat my brain

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Avenue's song "Obsession" portray a deeply troubled and tormented state of mind. The singer expresses their fear of losing consciousness and being consumed by emptiness. They mention how thoughts are overwhelming them to the point of breaking down, and they don't know where they'll go when left alone. There is a reference to a past encounter with a devil-like figure who caused physical harm, and the singer reflects on the taste of glass on their tongue. The sense of self-hatred is apparent as they question the purpose of their existence and describe everything they stand for as rage.

The intensity of the lyrics escalates as the singer mentions the absence of God, physical deterioration, and the foul smell in their room. They sarcastically ask if their suffering amuses the tough guy they address. The imagery becomes violent and self-destructive, with expressions of wanting to set things on fire, inflicting physical harm upon themselves, and even consuming their own brains.

Overall, "Obsession" presents a bleak and disturbed perspective on life, illustrating a deep emotional pain and a desire for release or escape, even through drastic and destructive measures.

Line by Line Meaning

I’m afraid I’ll lose all consciousness
The fear of losing complete awareness and control

You say my name I snooze my consciousness
Your voice lulls me into a temporary state of numbness

There's a quarrel with this emptiness
Engaged in a constant battle with the feeling of hollowness

I can't let go of the emptiness
Unable to release myself from the void within

And after a while I break down
Gradually succumbing to the weight of my thoughts

The thoughts are killing everything I have left
My own thoughts are destroying what little remains

I don't know where I'll go when they leave me alone
Uncertain of my destination when I am abandoned

Oh no, I fought a devil before
In a previous encounter, I battled a sinister being

He was smoking in an alleyway and crashed a bottle over my head
He, with a cigarette in hand, assaulted me with a broken bottle

How did the glass taste on my tongue?
What was the sensation of glass against my taste buds?

How are you not even having fun?
Why do you appear unaffected and devoid of enjoyment?

Is it too late to get my refund?
Can I still reclaim what has been lost?

And when it's all said and done, I'm glad you took your time to write this in pens and pills
After everything is over, I appreciate your effort put into expressing these feelings through writing

Well what’s this obsession?
What exactly is the nature of this fixation?

Worthless obsession
An obsession devoid of value

I’ll set this on fire
I will ignite and destroy this obsession

My rosary is on the ground
My religious symbol is discarded and abandoned

Well it’s on my life, I’m glad so what’s the use of it
Despite its significance, its purpose remains unclear

I’m afraid I lost all consciousness
I fear that I am completely detached from reality

You said my name, I fought my consciousness
Upon hearing my name, I forcibly resist losing my awareness

I hate myself and everything I'll stand for
I despise both my own existence and the principles I uphold

Everything I'll stand for is just rage
My beliefs and values are rooted in anger and hostility

And after a while I break down
Eventually, I collapse under the weight of my emotions

How could I quarrel with such a fine specimen?
Why would I engage in a dispute with such an exceptional individual?

You haven't seen them 'til they walk out the front door
Their true nature is only revealed when they depart

Never knew there would be so much gore
I never anticipated the extent of the bloodshed

It's been a whole week since God left
The divine presence has been absent for an entire week

My pupils dilate and my bones shrivel
My eyes widen and my bones wither

My perfect teeth have been rotting since
My flawless teeth have been decaying for some time

And my room smells of decaying filth
The stench of decomposing waste permeates my living space

Are you having fun yet?
Do you find amusement in this situation?

Does this humor you, tough guy?
Does this entertain you, resistant individual?

You're gonna get me riled up and rain a suppressing line of fire on both of our houses
Your actions will provoke me and ignite a destructive conflict between us

I'm fallen from the ways of what we breed
I have deviated from the norms and expectations that our society creates

Sorry I can't speak, hallelujah fantasy
Apologies for my inability to express myself, a delusional exclamation of praise

Obsession
An all-consuming fixation

Restless obsession
An insatiable and restless fixation

I’ll set you on fire
I will ignite and destroy you

With every inch, there is gasoline
Every part of me is filled with flammable material

I’ll find a way to cheer up this party
I will discover a method to bring joy to this gathering

Break my foot
Intentionally fracture my foot

Shoot my leg
Shoot me in the leg

Bust my hip
Severely injure my hip

Punch my gut
Deliver a forceful blow to my stomach

Crack my ribs
Fracture my ribs