by your side
Awaken I Am Lyrics


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Well what's left of me?
As I lay there silent with a blank stare,
I forget to breathe.
Now I'm grinding my teeth and I can't sleep,
Overthinking and feeling bitter,
As all of my patience slowly wears thinner.
You've taken the best of me,
Now I lay here fighting all your fake fears,
And I hate what's left but you know I can't let go.

You do this every time,
Now there's no one by your side,
But it's your fault when you fall for your own lies,
And you make your issues mine.

You've changed far from what you were,
And I gave everything I could,
Now we've both got problems, I know it,
But you let yours build up and surface.
And I hate what's left but you know I can't let go.

You do this every time,
Now there's no one by your side,
But it's your fault when you fall for your own lies,
And you make your issues mine.

I've seen this through too many times,
You look at me and say you'll try,
But your eyes still don't meet mine,
Then we pretend everything's fine.

You hold your hands against my face,
You pull me in then push away,
And no matter what I say,
It's still me that takes the blame.





And I hate what's left but you know I can't let go.
And I hate what's left but you know

Overall Meaning

"By Your Side" by Awaken I Am explores the feelings of frustration and resentment that arise from being in a toxic relationship. The singer questions what is left of themselves as they struggle to maintain their own identity while being involved with someone who constantly brings them down. The lyrics convey a sense of suffocation and being trapped, as the singer finds it difficult to breathe and sleep due to the overthinking and bitterness caused by their partner's actions. The line "You've taken the best of me" suggests that the singer feels drained and depleted, as their energy and positivity have been consumed by the relationship.


The chorus reflects the cycle of self-destruction that occurs within the relationship. The singer points out that every time their partner falls for their own lies and manipulations, there is no one left to support or stand by their side. The blame is placed on the partner for causing their own issues and making them the singer's problems as well.


The bridge of the song highlights the singer's awareness of the patterns they have experienced repeatedly. Despite the partner's promises to try and change, their lack of eye contact shows a lack of sincerity. The couple then pretends that everything is fine, further emphasizing the facade they maintain to avoid confronting the underlying issues.


Overall, "By Your Side" examines the destructive dynamics of a relationship where one person takes advantage and manipulates the other, causing resentment and a sense of being trapped. The lyrics capture the internal struggle of wanting to let go but feeling unable to do so due to emotional ties and a fear of being alone.


Line by Line Meaning

Well what's left of me?
What remains of my true self?


As I lay there silent with a blank stare
In a state of emotional numbness and detachment


I forget to breathe
Feeling overwhelmed and suffocated


Now I'm grinding my teeth and I can't sleep
Experiencing anxiety and insomnia


Overthinking and feeling bitter
Engaging in excessive rumination and harboring resentment


As all of my patience slowly wears thinner
Losing tolerance and endurance gradually


You've taken the best of me
You have depleted the essence of who I once was


Now I lay here fighting all your fake fears
Struggling against the unfounded worries you impose on me


And I hate what's left but you know I can't let go
Despite my resentment, I cannot detach myself from you


You do this every time
You consistently repeat this behavior


Now there's no one by your side
You have driven away all those who used to support you


But it's your fault when you fall for your own lies
You are to blame for believing and perpetuating your own falsehoods


And you make your issues mine
You burden me with your problems


You've changed far from what you were
You have undergone a significant transformation from your previous self


And I gave everything I could
I have devoted all my efforts and resources to this relationship


Now we've both got problems, I know it
Now we both have issues that need addressing


But you let yours build up and surface
You allowed your problems to accumulate and manifest


I've seen this through too many times
I have witnessed this pattern occur repeatedly


You look at me and say you'll try
You give me empty promises of attempting to change


But your eyes still don't meet mine
Your lack of true sincerity is evident in your gaze


Then we pretend everything's fine
We engage in the facade of normalcy


You hold your hands against my face
You physically engage with me, displaying affection


You pull me in then push away
You alternate between intimacy and distance


And no matter what I say
Regardless of my words or attempts to communicate


It's still me that takes the blame
I am consistently held accountable for the difficulties in our relationship


And I hate what's left but you know I can't let go
Despite despising what we have become, I am unable to free myself from this connection




Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Aeion Hoilett, Dwain Campbell-Fletcher, Kirk Bennett, Maurice Hunt, Ranoy Gordon, Shauna Mckenzie

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