Dead Inside
Axty Lyrics

I see thru your smile I know you're dead inside
I can see past your facade and recognize that you are emotionally numb and empty inside.

Sorry if I don't answer, I'm too busy trying not to die
Please excuse my lack of response, I am preoccupied with attempting to prevent my own demise.

I won't break
I am resilient and will not succumb to the hardships and obstacles I face.

I wasn't enough for you then, Darling, you ain't nothing to break me
Even if I did not meet your standards in the past, I am now impervious to any attempts to harm or impact me.

Broke now, can't fix
I am currently shattered and beyond repair.

Ripper put me down to sleep
The emotional anguish I experience is so overwhelming that it is comparable to being put to eternal rest by a grim reaper-like figure.

Take me, slit my wrist
I am so consumed by my pain that self-harm seems like a viable option to end my suffering.

Dug my grave, Now I'll rest in peace
I have metaphorically prepared for my own death and now await a peaceful release from my struggles.

Blacked out, I'm numb now
I have become detached from my emotions and sensations, rendering me numb and unfeeling.

I can't wait to go down
I eagerly anticipate my own demise as a release from my pain.

Can't think, it's so deep
My emotional turmoil is so deep and complex that I cannot fully process or understand it.

Hope my sins will go with me
I pray that any mistakes or transgressions I have committed will be absolved or forgotten with my death.

I don't regret what I did
I stand by my actions, even if they led to my current state of distress.

Anxiety made me what I am
My severe anxiety has contributed to shaping my identity and current state of being.

I can't go back now
I cannot change or erase my past, and must therefore accept and move forward with it.

My demons are all around
The dark and troubling parts of my psyche and history are constantly present and affecting me.

Scars tatted on my skin
Visible reminders of my past trauma and struggles are permanently etched onto my body.

I was blind but now I'm free
I was once ignorant of my own pain and issues, but am now liberated and self-aware.

So I can be a better me without you
I am better off without the negative influence or impact of someone who brought me pain.

But now I know what's hurting
I have become more cognizant of the root cause of my pain.

This time it won't consume me
My current struggles will not overpower or defeat me like they have in the past.

Just let it go, you'll never break me down
I am impervious to any attempts to bring me down or impact me negatively.

I just need to dig
I must delve deeper into my own psyche and emotions to fully understand and overcome my struggles.

Taken
I have moved past my former struggles and am now a stronger, more resilient version of myself.

Die
I am still struggling with pain and hardship, but I refuse to let it defeat me.