İstersen Hiç Başlamasın
Ayten Alpman Lyrics

"İstersen hiç başlamasın" translates to "If you want, it never starts," and it expresses the idea of not wanting a particular story or relationship to begin. The singer suggests that it would be better for this story to remain incomplete and not have the chance to develop further. The repetition of this line emphasizes the singer's strong desire for the story to never start.

The next two lines, "Bu hikaye eksik kalsın, Onca yaraların ardından," mean "Let this story remain incomplete, after all the wounds." This implies that the singer has experienced many emotional wounds and does not believe they have the ability to create a new love or start a new relationship. It suggests a sense of weariness and the belief that past wounds make it impossible to move forward.

The line "Yeni bir aşk yaratamazsın" is repeated twice in this section. It means "You cannot create a new love." This line further emphasizes the singer's pessimism and lack of faith in their ability to start fresh. It reveals a reluctance to open up to love again due to the pain and scars they have experienced in the past. The repetition reinforces the singer's conviction that a new love is not possible.

The next section introduces the concept of a damaged childhood with the line "Örselenmiş bir çocukluk" meaning "A bruised childhood." The singer suggests that their entire story or life has been influenced by the hardships they experienced during their early years. This line adds depth to the context of the singer's pessimism and reluctance to start anew, hinting at unresolved issues or traumas from childhood that affect their ability to establish new love or repair the existing emotional wreckage.

The stanza following that says, "Kaç sevda geçse de bu yüreğimden, Bu yıkıntıları onaramazsın," which can be translated as, "No matter how many love affairs pass through this heart, you cannot repair this wreckage." This line unequivocally speaks to the singer's belief that their heart is incapable of healing or recovering from the emotional devastation they have endured. It provides further insight into the singer's resistance to starting a new love and reaffirms their disillusionment with the potential for personal growth or emotional repair.

The last two sections introduce the idea of missed opportunities and regret. The line "Geç kalmışız birbirimize" means "We are late for each other." The singer implies that they have missed or squandered chances for connection and love. The following line, "Yanlış kapılarla geçmiş onca yıl, Dönemeyiz artık ilk gençliğimize," translates to "We cannot return to our first youth, after all these years passed through wrong doors." It indicates a sense of longing for the past, acknowledging that the singer's choices and experiences have led them astray, preventing them from going back to a time of innocence and happiness.

The repetition of the line "İstersen hiç başlamasın" at the end serves as a conclusion and a resolution. It can be translated as "If you want, it never starts," and it signifies the singer's strong commitment to themselves. They make a promise to not to let this story or relationship start, indicating their determination to protect themselves from further pain or disappointment. In essence, it is a self-protective declaration against pursuing potential love or relationships.