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B.C.Gilbert - G.Lewis Lyrics

This is no great illusion
The situation we're in isn't a grand trick or deception

When I'm with you I'm looking for a ghost
I am searching for an intangible thing when I'm with you

Or invisible reasons
Or reasons that are not immediately apparent or clear

To fall out of love and run screaming from our home
I want to stop loving you so much that I flee our home in terror

Because we live in a house of mirrors
Our lives are like being inside a maze of reflections

We see our fears and everything
We see our deepest insecurities and everything else too

Our songs, faces, and second hand clothes
We see all of our external traits and material possessions

But more and more we're suffering
As time goes on, we're experiencing more and more pain

Not nobody, not a thousand beers
No one and no amount of alcohol

Will keep us from feeling so all alone
Can prevent us from feeling utterly isolated

But you are what you love
Your identity is shaped by the things you care about

And not what loves you back
Rather than being influenced by the people/things that love you

That's why I'm here on your doorstep
This is why I'm standing outside your home

Pleading for you to take me back
Begging for you to give me another chance

The phone is a fine invention
A device that allows you to talk from a distance

It allows me to talk endlessly to you
It enables me to talk endlessly to you

About nothing disguising my intentions
About meaningless topics to disguise my true intentions

Which I'm afraid, my friend, are wildly untrue
I admit that my intentions aren't truthful

It's a sleight of hand,
It's a clever trick

a white soul band
Like a group of white musicians playing soul music

The heart attacks I'm convinced I have
I'm convinced that I'm having heart attacks

Every morning upon waking
When I wake up every morning

To you I'm a symbol or a monument
To you, I represent something significant

Your rite of passage to fulfillment
Being with me is a necessary step for you to be happy

But I'm not yours for the taking
I am not someone that you can claim or have

I'm fraudulent, a thief at best
At most, I'm a dishonest and thieving person

A coward who paints a bullshit canvas
I'm a fearful person who creates false impressions

Things that will never happen to me
Dreams or experiences that I will never have

But at arms length, it's Tim who said
Tim told me from a safe distance

I'm good at it, I've mastered it
I'm skilled at avoiding things.

Avoiding, avoiding everything
Safekeeping myself from anything that might hurt or challenge me

But you are what you love, Tim
Tim, you are defined by what you care about

And not what loves you back
Rather than being influenced by the things/people that love you

And I'm in love with illusions
I'm infatuated with false ideas or beliefs

So saw me in half
Cut me apart like a magician performing a trick

I'm in love with tricks
I adore being fooled or deceived

So pull another rabbit out of your hat
Perform another incredible illusion