tearing me apart
B.R.A.M. Lyrics

I've been feeling hopeless
I have been feeling extremely sad and discouraged lately

It's like I'm soulless
I feel like I have lost my passion for life and am just going through the motions

But you already know this
You are aware of the fact that I am struggling emotionally

I'm in an abyss
I feel like I am trapped in a dark and lonely place

I shouldn't exist
I feel like my life is not worth living

I think I'm gonna' slit my wrist
I am considering harming myself physically

I gave you my all
I put everything I had into this relationship

I guess it's my fault
I take responsibility for the failure of the relationship

I think it's time I move on
I realize that it is necessary for me to let go of the past and try to start fresh

But I'm a dreamer
I am someone who has always had hopes and aspirations

I'm a schemer
I tend to make plans and come up with ideas to achieve my goals

Still wish I didn't need her
I still miss her and wish that I didn't feel that way

Just take my heart (My heart)
I am offering my heart to someone else because I don't want it anymore

I don't want it anymore (Anymore)
I no longer want to feel the emotional pain associated with having feelings for someone who doesn't reciprocate them

Watch me fall apart (Fall apart)
I am breaking down emotionally and things continue to get worse for me

Look at my reflection (Reflection)
I see myself in the mirror and I am not happy with what I see

So far from perfection (Yeah)
I am very flawed and far from reaching my goals in life

So used to rejection (Rejection)
I have experienced a lot of rejection in my life and it has made me feel unlovable

I just need a connection (Yeah)
I want to feel loved and understood by someone

I wanna be all alone
I desire solitude and do not want to be around anyone else

Please don't text my phone
I do not want any communication or contact from others right now

I need to do this on my own
I feel like I need to deal with my problems alone and not rely on anyone else for help

It's so hard but I should've known
I knew this was going to be difficult but I still underestimated how hard it would be

So please don't check on me
I am asking you not to check up on me or ask me how I am doing

I'm always fine just let me be
I am telling you that I am fine even though I am struggling internally

Livin' life carefree
I want to be carefree and happy but it is difficult for me to do so

I still wonder if you think of me
I am curious if the person I am thinking of still has thoughts about me

It's like people always ask you why you're sad
I feel like people are always questioning why I am unhappy

And you don't really know why
I do not have a specific answer to why I am sad, I just feel this way

It's just something you feel
I cannot explain why I am feeling the way that I do, it is just a feeling inside of me

And you wish you could be different
I wish that I could change the way that I feel and be happy

But you always have to fight yourself to try to feel happy every day
It is a constant battle with myself to try and stay happy every day

And wake up and do things that make you feel that
I try to do things in my daily life that bring me joy and make me happy

But it's really hard when you just wanna cry alone
It is difficult to find happiness when I feel like crying alone is my only option