Wishful Thinking
Barnes J. J. Lyrics
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Thinkin bout the single life
I'm always fuckin' stressed
Cheated on me and ya hit the next
Prolly woulda came at my neck
You know them spanish chicks
Always down to fuck
Pussy was the best i ever fuckin' touched
Quick bust
Had me feelin rusty everytime we fucked
I said this never happen
Couldn't last to make her cum
I've been feelin crazy lately yea i'm feelin numb
Life is gettin tirin
Feelin like chewed gum
Spit me out like im used
Kick me out like a bum
Hit me like a fuckin juul
Knocked down like the scum
Ive been tryin to get bread
Pickin all these crumbs
I was lookin for commitment
She was lookin for some fun
I was tryna work it out
But She said i aint the one
Since then i quit relationships
Tryna coppa gun
This life isnt best for me
I need a plan to run
Been contemplatin Suicide
24 i'm young
I'll play lifes game til either 50 51
Maybe 60 61
Ive had good times
And i know that im loved
But what good is life
If your constantly alone
Ive been goin hard
But i still missed my zone
I never hit my friends
Why the fuck im always home
I bought a used car
Got a new fuckin phone
I aint hit nobody up
I Been gone for too long
Why'd i stay away from love
Bitches always did me wrong
1A was pretty bad
But the dicky wasnt strong
Her pussy too tight
Didn't say my dicky small
She said she need a man
I guess i wasnt one at all
My self esteem
Has reached
My all time low
Fuck my posed to grow
Feelin like i cant do shows
My motivation reach a low
Anxiety is kickin
Feelin demon creepin
Watch my body die
Heart stops beatin
Wouldnt talk it
Less i see it
Scared to sleep
When i'm dreamin
When i'm dreamin
Feel the presence
Feel it breathin
On my shoulder
Down my neck
Hold me down
He be screamin
Needa get you life together
In the end ima reap it
I wake up with
My door wide open
I know i left it closed
I've been sensin omens
I got bad luck
And I travel with some curses
Ever since baby moms
Feelin numb
As it worsens
My chest is gettin tighter
It aint never gonna open
Up to any bitch
In the end it isnt worth it
I cant feel my energy
I'm tryna gain a purpose
I feel you here
I feel you watching me
I know your there
Your presence is taunting me
I bet you don't care
What more you want from me
I feel them stares
Tell me whats wrong with me
The lyrics of Barnes J. J.'s song "Wishful Thinking" express the artist's raw emotions, talking about his break up and the pain he is going through. He starts by saying he has been thinking about his ex and how he is always stressed. He then talks about how she cheated on him and moved on to another guy quickly. He also mentions how her Spanish girlfriends were always down to have sex without any commitment. He felt their sexual encounters were not satisfying for him.
Barnes J. J.'s self-esteem takes a hit because he tried to make the relationship work, but his girlfriend said he was not the right one for her. He talks about contemplating suicide but decides to keep going because he does feel loved by some of the people in his life. Barnes J. J.'s lyrics express his desire for companionship, but he is afraid of getting hurt again. He feels cursed and cannot shake off the feelings of bad luck, feeling like he is constantly being watched and haunted by his past.
Overall, the song seems to be about Barnes J. J.'s struggles with mental health due to a painful break-up, lack of companionship, and bad luck. The artist opens up and shares how it feels to be heartbroken with the hope that the listener will relate to his experiences.
Line by Line Meaning
Lately I've been thinkin bout my ex
I've been thinking about my past relationship with my ex lately
Thinkin bout the single life
Thinking about the freedom that comes with being single
I'm always fuckin' stressed
I'm constantly feeling stressed
Cheated on me and ya hit the next
My ex cheated on me and quickly moved on to someone else
Prolly woulda came at my neck
She probably would have been confrontational towards me
You know them spanish chicks
She was of Spanish origin
Always down to fuck
She was always willing to have sex
No luck quick nut
I couldn't last long during sex
Pussy was the best i ever fuckin' touched
Her vagina was the best I've ever experienced
Quick bust
I would ejaculate quickly
Had me feelin rusty everytime we fucked
I felt inadequate and rusty every time we had sex
I said this never happen
I thought this would never happen to me
Couldn't last to make her cum
I couldn't last long enough to satisfy her sexually
I've been feelin crazy lately yea I'm feelin numb
I've been feeling mentally unstable and numb lately
Life is gettin tirin
I'm starting to get tired of life
Feelin like chewed gum
I feel like I've been chewed up and spat out
Spit me out like im used
I was discarded like I had no value
Kick me out like a bum
I was kicked to the curb like a homeless person
Hit me like a fuckin juul
It felt like I was hit hard like a Juul vape inhalation
Knocked down like the scum
I was knocked down and made to feel like dirt
Ive been tryin to get bread
I've been trying to make money
Pickin all these crumbs
I'm only making small amounts of money
I was lookin for commitment
I wanted a committed relationship
She was lookin for some fun
She only wanted a casual fling
I was tryna work it out
I wanted to make things work
But She said i aint the one
She told me that I wasn't the one for her
Since then i quit relationships
I've since decided to stop pursuing relationships
Tryna coppa gun
I'm trying to save enough money to buy a gun
This life isnt best for me
I don't believe this kind of life suits me
I need a plan to run
I need a plan to leave and start a new life
Been contemplatin Suicide
I've been thinking about ending my own life
24 i'm young
I'm only 24 years old
I'll play lifes game til either 50 51
I plan to keep living until I'm 50 or 51 years old
Maybe 60 61
Or perhaps until I'm 60 or 61 years old
Ive had good times
I've had enjoyable experiences
And i know that im loved
I know that I am loved by some people
But what good is life
What's the point of living
If your constantly alone
If you're always alone, what's the point
Ive been goin hard
I've been working hard
But i still missed my zone
I still feel like I'm not quite in my element
I never hit my friends
I never contacted my friends
Why the fuck im always home
Why am I always at home and not out with my friends
I bought a used car
I bought a second-hand car
Got a new fuckin phone
But at least I got a new phone
I aint hit nobody up
I haven't contacted anyone
I Been gone for too long
I've been absent for too long
Why'd i stay away from love
Why did I distance myself from love
Bitches always did me wrong
Women I've been with always caused me pain
1A was pretty bad
My previous relationship wasn't great
But the dicky wasnt strong
But it wasn't a lack of physical ability on my part
Her pussy too tight
But her vagina was too tight
Didn't say my dicky small
It wasn't because I was small
She said she need a man
She told me she needed a man
I guess i wasnt one at all
But apparently I wasn't good enough to be that man
My self esteem
My confidence in myself
Has reached
Has gotten to
My all time low
The lowest point it's ever been
Fuck my posed to grow
I don't know how to grow from here
Feelin like i cant do shows
I feel like I can't perform well anymore
My motivation reach a low
My motivation is at an all time low
Anxiety is kickin
I'm experiencing anxiety
Feelin demon creepin
I feel like there's a presence of evil
Watch my body die
I feel like my body is dying
Heart stops beatin
My heart feels like it's stopping
Wouldnt talk it
I wouldn't admit these things to anyone
Less i see it
Unless I actually see it happening
Scared to sleep
I'm afraid to go to sleep
When i'm dreamin
Because of the nightmares I experience while dreaming
Feel the presence
I sense a presence
Feel it breathin
I feel like it's breathing
On my shoulder
On my shoulder or nearby
Down my neck
I feel it on my neck
Hold me down
It feels like it's holding me down
He be screamin
It is screaming
Needa get you life together
I need to get my life together
In the end ima reap it
I will ultimately have to face the consequences of my actions
I wake up with
I wake up and
My door wide open
My door is wide open
I know i left it closed
But I'm sure I closed it before going to bed
I've been sensin omens
I've been feeling like something bad is about to happen
I got bad luck
I feel like I have bad luck
And I travel with some curses
I feel like I'm carrying some kind of curse with me
Ever since baby moms
Ever since my child's mother
Feelin numb
I've been feeling emotionally numb
As it worsens
As it gets worse
My chest is gettin tighter
I'm feeling like my chest is getting tighter
It aint never gonna open
I feel like it's never going to get better
Up to any bitch
I'm not willing to be with any woman
In the end it isnt worth it
Because in the end, it would just cause more pain
I cant feel my energy
I feel like I have no energy left
I'm tryna gain a purpose
I'm trying to find a reason for existing
I feel you here
I sense your presence
I feel you watching me
I feel like you're watching me
I know your there
I know you're there
Your presence is taunting me
But your presence is taunting me
I bet you don't care
I'm sure you don't care
What more you want from me
What else could you possibly want from me?
I feel them stares
I feel like people are staring at me
Tell me whats wrong with me
I'm wondering what's wrong with me
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Written by: John Bautista
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