On My Own
Bazanji Lyrics

I've been talking to the voice in my head, making me second guess
I have been listening to the negative thoughts in my mind, which create doubts and insecurities in me.

Making me think I'm not good enough, making me think I'm not like the rest
Those thoughts have made me believe that I am not capable or worthy enough, and I do not fit in with others.

I got everything that I wanted but lately I'm feeling so empty
I have achieved everything that I aimed for, but currently, I feel unfulfilled and dissatisfied.

I never would think about stopping but lately it's feeling so tempting
Although I never thought of quitting, the temptations to give up have grown considerably recently.

Drowning in all of my fear, drowning in all of my problems
I am being overcome by my fears and issues, and they seem to have the upper hand over me.

Everyone thinking I'm perfect, really I think that I'm fallin'
Although everyone thinks I am flawless, I know I am struggling and am far from perfect.

I know I got millions of plays, but wonder if music my callin'
Even though my songs have gained millions of plays, I am unsure if music is my true calling.

But I've been workin' too long, now I just feel like I'm all in
I have been working tirelessly for too long, and I feel like I have put everything I have into it.

Gotta wait it out, gotta make it out, goin' through phases
I have to persevere and see it through; it's just a phase that I am going through.

My anger I take it out all on my bank account, spending like crazy
I tend to use my frustration and anger as an outlet and end up recklessly spending money.

Nobody told me that it would all end up just being this way
No one told me that my success would feel so unfulfilling, and I would still suffer from self-doubt.

I'm keeping my head up I know that I'm gonna see better days
Despite my current struggles, I am optimistic that things will get better soon.

Right place, right time, but I'm not fine
Although I am in the correct place and time for success, I am still feeling depressed and lost.

I just hold it all in my mind
I keep it all inside and do not share my struggles with others.

I know one day that I'm gon' shine
I believe that someday I will achieve my goals and be successful.

But 'til then I feel like I'm on my own
Until that day happens, I feel like I am on my own to face my problems.

Waiting 'til that feeling gone
I am waiting for that feeling of emptiness to go away.

But I've been waiting way too long
I have been waiting for a long time now, and it seems like it's taking forever to pass.

Got what I wanted
I have achieved my goals and accomplished what I desired.

But I need something, every night just to slow my mind
However, I still need something to calm my mind and feel better at night.

I know that it's bigger than me
I understand that what I am doing is more significant than myself.

Know that they checking on me
I know people are observing me and paying attention to what I am doing.

When they be goin' through struggles
I know that my music is helping others who are also struggling.

I know that they listen to me
People listen to my music and find comfort and inspiration in it.

Tryna help 'em hold it all together when they falling apart
I aim to assist them in keeping things together when they themselves are falling apart.

I'm thinking way back to the start
I reminisce about how and why I began making music.

The reason I got into music and all that I wanted was helping out people and keeping it honest
The reason I got into music is that I wanted to help people and be honest with my music.

I can't let it go
I cannot give up on my music and my goals.

Can't let it stop me no more
I refuse to be stopped again.

Built it all up from the floor
I started from scratch and built everything up from the bottom.

They gon' talk about me when I'm gone
People will talk about me and my work even after I am gone.

I can't leave 'em all without giving 'em more
I cannot leave people with nothing and have to give all that I can.

What they gonna think about me if I settle down and never finish giving my story
I do not want to be remembered as someone who gave up and never finished what I started.

I don't wanna look back in time thinking 'bout the shine that was meant to be for me
I do not want to regret not fulfilling my potential.

Gotta get it while I can
I have to strive for success while I still have the chance.

I gotta stick to the plan
I have to follow my plan for success and not get sidetracked.

I gotta help out my fam
I have to take care of my family while I am on this journey.

I got a lot on my shoulders but it can't be changing the man that I am
Although I have a lot of responsibilities on my shoulders, I cannot lose sight of who I am in the process.

Know that I'm meant to do bigger things on a bigger level living bigger dreams
I know that I am meant to achieve more massive things and live my dreams on a grander scale.

Hard times but I gotta grind till the day I die I'm making history
Although it's hard, I have to keep working hard until the day I die, so that I make a significant impact and leave behind a legacy.

Feeling like I'm on my own
Overall, I feel like I am facing my challenges and struggles by myself.

Feeling like I'm all alone
Despite having people in my life, I feel lost and alone in my struggles.

Waiting 'til that feeling gone
I am waiting for that feeling of isolation and sadness to disappear.

But I've been waiting way too long
However, I have been waiting for a long time without seeing any significant changes.

Got what I wanted
I have achieved my goals and obtained what I desired.

But I need something, every night just to slow my mind
Still, I feel the need to find something every night to calm my thoughts and ease my mind.