After leaving The X Factor, Miller signed a recording deal with Hollywood Records/Syco Music and began work on an album. Following an initial five-song EP, she delivered her 2015 full-length debut album, Not an Apology, which featured production from the Suspex, Mike Del Rio, Matt Squire, and others. The album peaked at number seven on the U.S. Billboard 200 chart, and featured the singles "Young Blood" and "Fire N Gold." Spring 2016 brought a new single titled "yes girl," which featured heavily in her live sets that summer.
The following winter, Miller teased the release of her sophomore full-length album, aurora, by issuing the first of an intended trilogy of EPs beginning with chapter one: blue in February 2017. chapter two: red and chapter three: yellow followed during the summer. In February 2018 she delivered aurora, which compiled all three of her trilogy EPs plus 5 additional tracks, including the single "mother." Miller was also featured on NOTD single titled "I Wanna Know", which became their biggest hit to date.
During 2019, Miller released a number of singles that were originally intended for her third studio album, which was named 'sunsets in outerspace,' however in July 2020, Miller confirmed her third album wouldn't come until 2021 earliest and the whole space theme has 'run its course.' The first single released was, it's not u it's me with 6LACK, on March 1st, 2019. Bea released 4 other singles throughout 2019, feel something, feels like home (with Jessie Reyez), never gonna like you (with Snakehips) and that bitch. She also embarked on two tours supporting her 2019 singles, nice to meet u which began in North America on April 29th, 2019 and concluded May 18th, 2019. She also embarked on the sunsets in outerspace tour starting in London on September 23rd, 2019 and concluding in LA on November 30th, 2019.
During the coronavirus pandemic, Miller confirmed she will not release a full studio album in 2020 but will release an EP of 6 new songs, after scrapping the space theme and previous singles.
This Is Not an Apology
Bea Miller Lyrics
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You wanna talk, but what about?
I wanna dance, you cut me off
Who falls asleep at ten o' clock?
Ain't got no sympathy
Don't wipe your tears on me
I hate to be so mean
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, hey
(This is not an apology)
I was the girl lain in the dirt
Rather ripped-up jeans than a miniskirt
Don't need two hours to get out the door
You're supposed to be the guy, who do you need more?
Ain't got no sympathy
Don't wipe your tears on me
I hate to be so mean
But I just have to say
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, hey
And I never will be the girl who says sorry
And you should have known right from the start
I needed a hero, and I got a zero, so pack your bags
And take your broken heart
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, hey
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, hey
This is not an apology
In the song "This is Not an Apology" by Bea Miller, the lyrics depict a person who feels empowered and confident in themselves and their actions. The first verse talks about how the singer wants to dance and be loud, but the person they are with wants them to be quiet and fall asleep early. The singer then declares that they have no sympathy for this person and will not apologize for being themselves. The chorus emphasizes the singer's strength and independence, stating that they are not sorry for who they are and will not apologize for it.
The second verse delves deeper into the singer's identity, declaring that they would rather wear ripped jeans than a miniskirt and do not need to take a long time to get ready. The person they are with is expected to be "the guy" but is instead acting too sensitive and female-like, making the singer feel more like a man than a woman. The chorus repeats the sentiment of strength and personal power, with the singer refusing to apologize and instead telling the other person to leave with their broken heart.
Overall, "This is Not an Apology" is all about asserting oneself and being unapologetic for who you are. The singer is confident in their identity and will not change themselves for anyone else. They are also unafraid to call out others who try to limit them or make them feel small. The song is a powerful anthem for anyone who struggles with self-acceptance or standing up for themselves.
Line by Line Meaning
I like it loud, you turn it down
I enjoy loud things, but you prefer them quiet and are trying to diminish my enjoyment.
You wanna talk, but what about?
You want to have a conversation, but you're not considering my desires or interests.
I wanna dance, you cut me off
I want to dance, but you're interrupting or preventing me from doing so.
Who falls asleep at ten o'clock?
You have a bedtime of ten o'clock, which is earlier than what I would prefer.
Ain't got no sympathy
I don't have any sympathy for your situation, feelings, or needs.
Don't wipe your tears on me
Don't seek comfort or support from me, as I'm not interested in helping you.
I hate to be so mean
I don't enjoy being unkind, but I feel I have to express myself in this way.
But I just have to say
I feel compelled to speak my mind and share my perspective.
This is not an apology
I'm not sorry for my behavior or actions, nor do I feel the need to apologize.
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
I feel stronger, more confident, or more capable than you in this situation.
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
Your behavior or personality is what society deems 'feminine,' and it's causing me to feel more 'masculine.'
My finger's up, I've had enough
I'm gesturing with my middle finger and expressing that I'm fed up and unwilling to tolerate any more.
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
Your behavior is leading to your downfall, so we're ending our relationship or interaction.
And I never will be the girl who says sorry
I refuse to be the kind of person who constantly apologizes and takes responsibility for everything.
And you should have known right from the start
You should have understood my personality, behavior, or preferences from the beginning.
I needed a hero, and I got a zero, so pack your bags
I was hoping for someone admirable or helpful, but you turned out to be useless or unhelpful, so you need to leave.
And take your broken heart
I'm not interested in comforting or supporting you through your heartbreak, so you should take it with you when you leave.
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, RESERVOIR MEDIA MANAGEMENT INC
Written by: ALEXANDRA TAMPOSI, MATT SQUIRE, LUCAS BANKER, TRAVIS HUFF
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Jason Smalls
[Verse 1]
I like it loud, you turn it down
You wanna talk, but what about?
I wanna dance, you cut me off
Who falls asleep at ten o clock?
[Pre-Chorus]
Ain't got no sympathy
Don't wipe your tears on me
I hate to be so mean
But I just have to say
[Chorus]
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, ay
This is not an apology
[Verse 2]
I was the girl lain in the dirt
Rather ripped up jeans than a mini skirt
Don't need two hours to get out the door
You're supposed to be the guy, who do you need more?
[Pre-Chorus]
Ain't got no sympathy
Don't wipe your tears on me
I hate to be so mean
But I just have to say
[Chorus]
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, ay
[Bridge]
And I never will be the girl who says sorry
And you should have known right from the start
I needed a hero, and I got a zero, so pack your bags
And take your broken heart
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
[Chorus]
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, ay
[Outro]
This is not an apology
I'm just a little bit stronger than you
This is not an apology
You're such a chick, it makes me feel like a dude
My finger's up, I've had enough
You're going down, so say goodbye to us
This is not an apology, ay
This is not an apology
G
"And I never will be the girl who says sorry. You should've known right from the start I needed a hero and I got a zero. So pack your bags, and take your broken heart." BEST LINE EVAH!
kamiya ridley
Right
Sapir Banit
She is THE queen
Angel
Gotta love it
callum wills
So true
Lara Taylor
ex dee.
paula
i know she recently said she doesn't like this song and she feels bad about how strongly it reinforces gender roles/stereotypes, but this was a bop 😔
Werewitchling
I mean when it came out, there wasn't as much like talk of all that so it's not like she can be blamed for what little of the world she knew and society taught.
This is definitely a bop and sometimes it is nice to just soak in the vibes.
Karone95
The song is great. The singer is not.
paula
@Karone95 ok? i didn't ask? make your own comment about it?