Felo De Se
Bedhead Lyrics
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but I never did return
if you would forgive me I'd forgive myself
but forgiveness never has these terms
the sky was as dark as the thoughts I was thinking
it was ignored by the moon
if you would believe me I'd believe myself
but believing never comes this soon
The streets made a sound only my ears could hear
I was alone with the rats and raccoons
and your memory keeping me alive
as the clouds moved away from the moon
then silence it hit me is a way to speak clearly
a way to never say what you don't mean
but silence is useless in cases of torture
it just says God won't intervene
And this night like others is a sign for the way
that the gray air speaks for the dead
the air is as vague as the thoughts I have now
that these memories are just in your head
so I kept walking through the clouds that were lifting
to reveal what I'd thought
there was more fog behind the mist that seemed was the only
thing keeping me from what I sought
I turned around to walk back to the place
I had left thinking I would find
answers to the questions that I shouldn't ask
but the questions can't find a way to leave me behind
The lyrics of Bedhead's song Felo De Se depict a sense of regret and loneliness in leaving someone or something behind. The singer left, thinking that he would come back, but he never did. He seeks forgiveness from the person, but knows that in reality, forgiveness does not always come with terms. The sky and the thoughts that were filling his mind were dark, and the silence around him made him realize that sometimes, it's better to remain silent than to say things that we do not mean. However, in times of torture, remaining silent does not help either, and he feels abandoned by a higher power.
The lyrics describe the singer walking through deserted streets, accompanied only by rats and raccoons. It is your memory that is sometimes the only thing that keeps a person alive, and in this case, the memories were the singer's only companion. As he walks, the clouds start lifting, revealing more fog behind them. It's a metaphor for how sometimes we think we have reached the end, only to find that there is more to overcome.
Overall, the theme of the song is about leaving something behind and struggling to come to terms with it. It's about loneliness, regret, and the power of memories that can keep us alive even when we feel abandoned.
Line by Line Meaning
I left thinking that I would be back
I thought I'd return, but I didn't.
but I never did return
I never went back.
if you would forgive me I'd forgive myself
If you forgive me, I can forgive myself.
but forgiveness never has these terms
Forgiveness doesn't come with conditions.
the sky was as dark as the thoughts I was thinking
I was thinking dark thoughts under a dark sky.
it was ignored by the moon
The moon didn't pay attention to the sky.
if you would believe me I'd believe myself
If you believe me, I can believe in myself.
but believing never comes this soon
It's too early to start believing.
The streets made a sound only my ears could hear
I heard a sound that only I could hear.
I was alone with the rats and raccoons
I was by myself with some animals.
and your memory keeping me alive
I kept going because of memories of you.
as the clouds moved away from the moon
The clouds moved and the moon became visible.
then silence it hit me is a way to speak clearly
Being silent is sometimes the best way to communicate.
a way to never say what you don't mean
You won't say something you don't mean if you're silent.
but silence is useless in cases of torture
Being silent won't help in cases of torture.
it just says God won't intervene
Silence means that God won't help.
And this night like others is a sign for the way
This night is a sign of things to come.
that the gray air speaks for the dead
The gray air represents the dead.
the air is as vague as the thoughts I have now
I'm thinking vague thoughts under the gray air.
that these memories are just in your head
These memories might not be real.
so I kept walking through the clouds that were lifting
I kept walking through the clearing fog.
to reveal what I'd thought
To uncover what I was thinking.
there was more fog behind the mist that seemed was the only
There was more fog than I thought.
thing keeping me from what I sought
The fog was keeping me from what I wanted.
I turned around to walk back to the place
I decided to go back to where I came from.
I had left thinking I would find
I left with the hope of finding something.
answers to the questions that I shouldn't ask
I wanted answers to questions I shouldn't have asked.
but the questions can't find a way to leave me behind
I can't stop thinking about those questions.
Contributed by Elijah V. Suggest a correction in the comments below.