Parasitic
Belmont Lyrics

I measured out
I carefully calculated the time it took for me to forget

All the days that it took me to forget about
I counted every single day it took me to move on

The anger found
I found the source of my anger

and passed around
and I spread it to others

I did my part
I contributed to the problem

Damaged from the start
I was broken from the beginning

Watched it fall apart
I witnessed the destruction

Left me feeling like I'm over it
I thought I had moved on

I'm Stuck within
But I'm still trapped

This(it) never ends
There's no closure

I don't want it back
I don't want to revisit it

Cuz I know that I've been dragging slack
Because I know I haven't done my part

But I know I'm gonna feel the slack
But I know I'll take the blame

I don't wanna think about it anymore
I'm tired of dwelling on it

I don't wanna have to pick the pieces off the floor
I don't want to clean up the mess

I just wanna give it back
I wish I could return it

Nobody wants the flack
No one wants to deal with the negative consequences

So I've been sinking slowly tell me what's so wrong with that
I've been gradually losing hope, what's the harm in that?

Because we're all the same
We all make mistakes

Just try to shed the blame
But we should aim to take responsibility

I think about it all the time I start to feel insane
It consumes my thoughts and it's driving me crazy

I'll waste my breath
I'll use up all my energy

Pushing back what's next
Trying to delay what's to come

Feels like the walls are closing in
It's suffocating

I'll spend my time
I'll invest my time

Digging through my mind
Trying to find answers

Feeling so confined
But feeling trapped

It's like the walls are closing in
It's suffocating

I don't wanna hear about it
I don't want to talk about it

I'm already losing touch inside without it
It's already affecting me internally

Talking to myself I'm abrasive in nature I'll admit it
When I'm alone, I'm confrontational and critical

Parasitic, I don't think I'm one to preach about it
I'm not in a position to give advice, I'm part of the problem

I take back
I retract

Everything I ever told the world I always lacked
I was never sincere in what I expressed to others

Just Cut Some Slack
Give me a break

I'm attached, to the past, comfort found in backlash
I'm still connected to the past and I seek refuge in negativity

Space it out
Take a break

I keep on feeling like I'm losing all my room to breath
I feel like I'm suffocating

Just pace about
Just move around

Losing track, I never knew how much I really couldn't see
I'm confused and I underestimated how little I knew