Time Machine
Ben Eales Lyrics

I wish I had a time machine
I deeply desire to possess a device that allows me to travel through time

For the day I was alone
Specifically, I yearn to revisit the day when I experienced profound loneliness

Travel back a day in advance
To be more precise, I envision myself going back in time by one day prior to a certain event

And make sure I didn't scream down the phone
During that moment, I sincerely wish to prevent myself from expressing my emotions loudly through the telephone

I wasn't in a good place
At that particular time, my emotional state was deeply troubled

But that's something you already know
However, I am aware that you are already aware of this fact

We both know that it won't cut it but
Both of us acknowledge that this action alone will not be sufficient or satisfactory

A hopeless man can hope
Yet, even in a state of hopelessness, it is human nature for a man to still possess hope

I could explain it all away
I possess the ability to provide detailed explanations in order to justify my actions

But that just wouldn't make a change
However, such explanations would not result in any meaningful alteration or improvement

Everything I did happened regardless
It is important to acknowledge that all my past actions occurred without regard to the subsequent consequences

I don't know what I hope you'll say
I am uncertain about the specific response I anticipate or desire from you

Please don't feel like you have to stay
I sincerely request that you do not feel obligated to remain by my side

I understand if I can't be pardoned
I comprehend and accept the possibility that I may not be granted forgiveness

Why can't I
I find myself pondering the reason why it is not possible for me

Travel back to the very start
If only I could go back to the exact beginning of our relationship

So I never ever have to go and break your heart
In doing so, I could prevent myself from causing you any emotional pain and heartbreak

I'd know what to do, I would get it right
Given the opportunity, I am confident that I would have the knowledge and capability to handle the situation correctly

But I would just be living a lie
However, I would merely be deceiving myself and existing in a fabricated reality

Or if I travelled back and walked on past
Alternatively, if I were to travel back and consciously ignore the initial interaction

To avoid starting something that couldn't last
In an attempt to prevent initiating a relationship that was destined to be short-lived

But if I did that, what would it change
Nevertheless, if I were to take such action, what significant alteration would it bring about?

I'd meet someone else and make the same mistakes
I would inevitably encounter another individual and repeat the same errors or misjudgments

Oh no
Expressing intense emotion or concern

Oh no, no
Reiterating the aforementioned emotion or concern in a more emphatic manner

Oh, oh
Uttering sounds of hesitation or contemplation

I wish I had a time machine
Once again, I express my strong desire for the possession of a time-traveling device

But what I really want is to get another try to be
However, deep down, what I truly yearn for is an opportunity to start anew and become

Yours, but I don't deserve that, do I
To become someone who rightfully belongs to you, although I acknowledge that I may not actually deserve such a privilege