Gradient
Bilmuri Lyrics
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When everyone I'd know is gone
And they all just leave me like ghosts
Passing through me
I pour my blood into my hands
For just enough attention
I pour my soul into these words
Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
I feel the cold against my heart again
Want to pack up and leave
Wonder if it'll ever end, ever end
Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
The lyrics of Bilmuri's "Gradient" convey a sense of loneliness and detachment from the world around the singer. The first lines "I hate being so alone / When everyone I'd know is gone / And they all just leave me like ghosts / Passing through me" describe a feeling of abandonment and detachment from society. The singer seems to be going through a difficult time, feeling disconnected and ignored. The use of the metaphor of ghosts passing through the singer emphasizes this sense of isolation and desolation.
The next lines "I pour my blood into my hands / For just enough attention / I pour my soul into these words / 'Cause I feel forgotten" show how the singer is struggling to get attention and acknowledgement from others. The imagery of pouring blood and soul into his hands and words highlight the effort and desperation of the singer to be seen and heard. He is pouring his heart and soul into his art, which is a form of self-expression and an attempt to feel connected to the world around him.
The chorus repeats the lines "Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up / Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up / I feel the cold against my heart again / Want to pack up and leave / Wonder if it'll ever end, ever end" several times. These lines convey a sense of hopelessness and a desire to escape from the singer's current situation due to feeling broken and isolated. The use of the word "fucked up" emphasizes the singer's sense of disconnection and suggests that they feel that others cannot truly understand what they are going through.
Line by Line Meaning
I hate being so alone
The singer expresses a deep feeling of loneliness, conveying a strong desire for connection.
When everyone I'd know is gone
The singer feels abandoned and disconnected from people they were once close to.
And they all just leave me like ghosts
The singer believes that these people have vanished without a trace, which highlights their loneliness and lack of human companionship.
Passing through me
The artist feels invisible and unnoticed by others.
I pour my blood into my hands
The artist is willing to sacrifice a lot of themselves to get attention from others.
For just enough attention
The singer only craves a small amount of attention to validate their existence and worth.
I pour my soul into these words
The singer uses their art (writing or music) to express emotions that they feel are no longer valued in society.
'Cause I feel forgotten
The artist has been dismissed or overlooked by society, and their self-esteem has been damaged as a result.
Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up
The artist acknowledges that their problems may be due to their own issues, which they feel are insurmountable.
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
The artist feels that others are judging them harshly and can't see beyond their flaws and issues.
I feel the cold against my heart again
The singer feels lonely, unloved, and unwanted, which produces a physical sensation of coldness.
Want to pack up and leave
The artist is considering leaving on a journey to escape their emotional pain and difficulties.
Wonder if it'll ever end, ever end
The singer feels stuck in their present state of loneliness and cannot see a way out.
Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up
The singer repeats this line to emphasize their belief that their problems are deeply rooted within themselves and can't be easily solved.
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
The singer repeats this line to emphasize their belief that others don't understand their emotional pain and struggles.
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
The artist repeats this line to emphasize their belief that others don't understand their emotional pain and struggles.
Writer(s): Bilmuri
Contributed by Lila N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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I hate being so alone
When everyone I'd know is gone
And they all just leave me like ghosts
Passing through me
I pour my blood into my hands
For just enough attention
I pour my soul into these words
'Cause I feel forgotten
Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
I feel the cold against my heart again
Want to pack up and leave
Wonder if it'll ever end, ever end
Maybe it's just me and I'm so fucked up
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
Maybe you can't see that I'm so fucked up
Bilmuri
This song is CERTIFIED 4K CINEMATIC BASS ENHANCED
A C Creations
Sounds really nice and clean on the lows. Enjoying it on my dual sub + quad full range system
Zac Zaring
Johnny Franck Productions love DBZ
Michael Kaleda
Love your creations from note to note, Johnny. Every single song from every single compilation. Keep it up, my friend. Don’t think it’s important for you, but I have to say, that you are an inspiration for young musician in the vast of Moscow, from a distant corner of this world.
God bless you, Johnny!
Thank you so much for attention!
The biggest love..
Michael Kaleda
Johnny Franck Productions thank YOU for your magic..!
Bilmuri
Man that's awesome! Thank you :)
Mark Roundtree
Relaxing beats to have existential meme crisis to
Bilmuri
hahahaha
kayla amaya
This video is truly a cinematic masterpiece
Carl Patton
Late to the party but
i l o v e t h i s
Literally discovered you this year and haven't stopped listening! Much love, keep it up