There
Bilmuri Lyrics
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and I've had my share of sleepless nights
I kept thinking I was the only one that's right
I thought you would be out of mind & out of sight
After half a year i'm realizing now,
That it just starting to weigh me down
And I can't deny you were there for me
If you ever needed me i'd be there
I waited for the crash & it came so late
All this bruises here grow darker everyday
I cut my heart open to show you myself
Can't stand the thought of me just letting this fade
after half a year i'm realizing now
That it just starting to weigh me down
I can't deny that I made you bleed
And I can't deny you were there for me
if you ever needed me i'd be there
The lyrics to Bilmuri's song "There" speak to the aftermath of a fight in a romantic relationship. The singer has been plagued by sleeplessness following the disagreement and has felt that they were in the right while their partner was wrong. However, after six months, the weight of the situation has started to catch up to them, and they realize that they can't deny their own culpability in the situation. They acknowledge, too, that their partner has been there for them through thick and thin and that they would reciprocate that love if their partner needed them. The lyrics reflect a maturation process, as the singer goes from feeling self-righteous to acknowledging the role that they played in the conflict, and ultimately accepting the consequences of their actions.
The song is effectively split into two parts, with the second half picking up on the imagery of bruising and self-exposure. The bruises grow darker each day, symbolizing the singer's slow realization of their own bad behavior. The cutting open of their heart is a metaphor for revealing their true selves to their partner, but this also implies that they are putting themselves in a vulnerable position. The singer can't stand the thought of the relationship simply fading away, though it may very well do so if they don't address the issue at hand. Overall, the lyrics speak to the aftermath of fighting in romantic relationships and the importance of acknowledging one's own faults and committing to making things right.
Line by Line Meaning
We've had a fight,
We had a disagreement or argument.
and I've had my share of sleepless nights
It has caused me to have many restless nights.
I kept thinking I was the only one that's right
I believed that my opinions and actions were always correct and justified.
I thought you would be out of mind & out of sight
I assumed that after our disagreement, you would be no longer in my thoughts or present in my life.
After half a year i'm realizing now,
Six months later, I am now coming to the understanding.
That it just starting to weigh me down
The weight of this disagreement is starting to heavily impact me.
I can't deny that I made you bleed
I acknowledge that I caused you pain.
And I can't deny you were there for me
I recognize that you were present and supportive of me.
If you ever needed me i'd be there
I am always here and willing to support you when you need me.
I waited for the crash & it came so late
I waited for the negative consequences to occur and they came later than expected.
All this bruises here grow darker everyday
The emotional marks that resulted from the disagreement become more apparent and severe as time passes.
I cut my heart open to show you myself
I exposed my true feelings to you and allowed myself to be vulnerable.
Can't stand the thought of me just letting this fade
I cannot bear the idea of just letting our relationship deteriorate and disappear.
after half a year i'm realizing now
Six months later, I am coming to the understanding.
That it just starting to weigh me down
The weight of our disagreement is starting to heavily impact me.
Contributed by Kaylee E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@asapterrence95
We've had our fights.
And I've had my share of sleepless nights.
I kept thinking I was the only one that's right.
I thought you'd be out of mind and out of sight.
After half a year, I'm realizing now.
That it's just starting to weigh me down.
I can't deny that I've made you bleed.
And I can't deny you were there for me.
And if you ever needed me, I'd be there.
I waited for the crash and it came so late.
All these bruises here grow darker everyday.
I'd cut my heart open to show you my stain.
Can't stand the thought of me just letting it fade.
And after half a year, I'm realizing now.
That it's just starting to weigh me down.
I can't deny that I've made you bleed.
And I can't deny you were there for me.
And if you ever needed me, I'd be there.
@TravisMooreMusic
This is still my favorite Bilmuri song. I love everything you've released the last six years but I still come back to this one the most. An absolute gem of a track my guy.
@mxhcmusicpromotions
You're incredibly talented Johnny.
@smxlltxlk6226
Bilmuri has easily become one of my favorite bands this past year. And then today I noticed Johnny was also the lead singer of one of my all time favorite bands as well as the first band I ever saw live, Attack Attack! What the heck is real man. How Cool~
@BruHEEZ
Smxll Txlk I was never really a fan of AA, but Bilmuri’s music has become the bridge to my soul. Just connects with me. Lyrically and sonically.
@Lee_Albrecht
This is such a good album dude, great work!
@xXChaz9849Xx
So powerful, the emotion behind the music is amazing.
@TravisMooreMusic
Dude I've listened to this like 100 times. This is so awesome.
@Bilmuriband
+Travis Moore Thankks so much homie!
@obitosrinagone9966
im a bit late to the party but this song is deep and amazing. Thanks for this.
@jordankinder7511
Out of all the old screamo bands with clean lyric singers, you are by far the best.