1. Formed in 2003 in Sacramento, Ca. a female fronted Metal band.
In… Read Full Bio ↴1. Formed in 2003 in Sacramento, Ca. a female fronted Metal band.
In 2004 the band won accolades from the Sacramento News & Review with a SAMMIE for best Hard Rock/Metal band of the year.
Now based out of Las Vegas, NV .bipolar. features drummer Brian Hanks, Guitarist Rob Bauer, Bassist Chris Kmit, and vocalist Charlie. The band has
has played countless shows all over the West Coast with thousands of local and national bands such as American Head Charge, Motograter, Asesino, Spineshank, Will Haven, Abominable Iron Sloth, Revolution Smile, Death Valley High and many more.
Since 2004 .bipolar. has recorded four EPs Dumbcane, Worn & Faded, Capacity for Change and the 2010 release Valley of Fire. In 2006 they released a full length album All Remembering Was in Vain.

www.facebook.com/bipolarmetal

2. Formed in 2004, Bipolar is a New York hard rock band.

Sadly, not too long ago their drummer passed away from an undiagnosed heart disease. Old friend and professional drummer Joe Clark (Primer 55, NASH) has offically filled the position.

www.myspace.com/bipolarrocks

3. With Jed Feuer on trumpet + flügelhorn, Stephanie Long on saxophones, flute + piccolo, Craig Swanson at the piano, David Ostrem on double bass, and James Windsor-Wells on drums, Bipolar is paving new roads into jazz repertoires and performance possibilities. Relying on strongly tailored arrangements of tunes as wide-ranging as Bach's B minor Prelude to Debussy's Passepied to Joe Henderson’s Serenity, as well as captivating originals by Feuer and Swanson, Bipolar draws from the most unusual and eclectic pool of source material to be used by a jazz quintet.

4.
Drum and Bass duo from London & Kent, Bipolar, have been producing dance music for the past 15 years. A common interest in taking the genre to unexplored places resulted in the Bipolar adventure. Drawing on a wide variety of musical interests the boys are continually striving to incorporate live instruments and unique samples into their productions.

Aptly named Bipolar, as you couldn’t possibly meet two more contrasting individuals, their debut release, Exige, stirred up quite a lot of interest in the Drum and Bass scene. Its unique and hypnotic vibe coupled with a deep and minimal bassline, sought to charter new ground in the genre by establishing a refreshing alternative approach this style of production.

5.
Synthpunk band dressed as clowns from New York, consisting of Pouya (formerly on synths for The Spits), Obash, Kayla (of The Othermen), and Ethan.

Bipolar
Bipolar Lyrics

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When I walk in to the dark I feel high, high, high
You better know
I'm so starving
Can I eat with you?
May I stay or should I leave you all alone?
You're my baby and I don't want to leave
Sometimes I feel you're okay but not at all
You blow up my mind

I'm feeling lost
You should never know
You should never know
Cause I'm tired and sad
I've lost control
I'm a Bipolar one
You should never know
Look I'm happy and satisfied
Look what I have become
You can see it in my eyes
You should never know
You should never know yeah-eah
You should never know, yeah-eah

You should never know, no more
You should never know, no more

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Bipolar's song "Bipolar" delve into the conflicting emotions and experiences of someone who is struggling with their mental health, specifically bipolar disorder. The opening lines, "When I walk in to the dark I feel high, high, high / You better know / I'm so starving / Can I eat with you?" suggest a sense of unease and a search for connection amidst internal turmoil. The darkness symbolizes the internal struggles and highs and lows that come with living with bipolar disorder. The singer expresses a desire for companionship and comfort in the face of their emotional instability.

The lyrics further highlight the inner turmoil and confusion with the lines, "May I stay or should I leave you all alone? / You're my baby and I don't want to leave / Sometimes I feel you're okay but not at all." This reflects the inner dialogue and conflict within the individual, torn between wanting to stay close to someone they care about and feeling uncertain about their own state of mind. The reference to feeling lost and having a mind that is blown up showcases the disorientation and chaos that can come with a manic episode or depressive state.

The repeated refrain of "You should never know" could indicate a sense of shame or fear of judgment surrounding their mental health struggles. The singer is grappling with feelings of tiredness, sadness, and a loss of control, all common experiences for those with bipolar disorder. The identity of being a "Bipolar one" is acknowledged, possibly as a way to come to terms with their diagnosis and the challenges it presents in their life.

Despite the struggles described, there is also a hint of defiance and self-acceptance in the lyrics. The lines "Look, I'm happy and satisfied / Look what I have become / You can see it in my eyes" suggest a sense of self-awareness and a resilience in the face of adversity. The insistence on "You should never know" could be a protective mechanism to shield others from their inner battles while also asserting their own strength and growth. Overall, the lyrics offer a raw and honest portrayal of the complex emotions and experiences that come with living with bipolar disorder.

Line by Line Meaning

When I walk in to the dark I feel high, high, high
Entering challenging situations makes me feel uplifted and excited

You better know
I want you to understand

I'm so starving
I am craving something

Can I eat with you?
Can I share this experience with you?

May I stay or should I leave you all alone?
Is it better for me to be by your side or to give you space?

You're my baby and I don't want to leave
You are important to me and I don't want to go away

Sometimes I feel you're okay but not at all
At times, I think you're fine, but it's not the case

You blow up my mind
You amaze and overwhelm me

I'm feeling lost
I feel confused and directionless

You should never know
You should not be aware

Cause I'm tired and sad
Because I am exhausted and unhappy

I've lost control
I no longer have command over my emotions

I'm a Bipolar one
I have bipolar disorder

Look I'm happy and satisfied
See, I am content and pleased

Look what I have become
See how I have changed

You can see it in my eyes
My emotions are evident in my expression

You should never know
It's best if you do not find out

You should never know yeah-eah
It's better if you never find out, yeah

You should never know, no more
You should never know, anymore

Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Antonio De Masi, Pietro Tripodi

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Comments from YouTube:

@watherby29

5y↑14.7K

The worst thing is to have bipolar and live without diagnosis thinking everyone is like that. Fun. Trust me.

@victoriasjourney1577

5y↑386

I was the same till this month.♥️

@_darkbrian

4y↑77

Oh shiit

@HeyItIsLA

4y↑232

Dude I still think that to this day. In denial much

@marijablecic2978

4y↑35

same here

@malu8710

4y↑80

Ikr!!! I'm honestly exhausted of this.

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@kittykoda3624

3y↑1K

Recently I’ve been taking the time to actually learn about my mental illnesses, and it’s really an eye opener to see that all of these symptoms are common with many other people and I’m not the only one. It makes me feel a little less lonely knowing that I’m not fighting alone. Stay strong guys <3

@osmosis

3y↑48

We think you're awesome, Kitty! We're here cheering for you! 😊

@messpice

2y↑1

@yourstrength1314

2y↑1

❤️❤️❤️

@ajaisland9100

2y↑6

Lonely. That’s the feeling I hate the most about it

@matthewm.4492

2y↑1

@Aja Island I can really relate to that. From feb to beginning of this month, I experience long and extreme mania, so many frequent all nighters, so many hours without any human interaction, so many thoughts, so much pain, felt like there was little I could to really express it. Seeking out good friends and fam helped a bit, but I have a feeling a support group would be awesome, need to personally look into that. You’re not alone 🙂

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@abby__7867

4y↑2.1K

I kept telling my mom I had bipolar 2. For almost 10 years. She would tell me to stop playing victim or blaming something. I finally got my diagnosis this month and she said “I can finally sleep easier. I’m so proud of you. Aren’t you happy you have support?” And I cried that night.

@Speed001

4y↑184

Oy, I'm sorry about that. Hopefully she can be a bit more supportive if you talk to her about it.

@lucygracie

3y↑120

i’m really sorry. she may feel guilt that she didn’t believe you/wasn’t there for you, and is trying to redeem herself now. proud of you, hope ur doing well💛

@widdasiddiq8810

3y↑14

What tests did you do for the diagnosis?

@khaltoumach1243

3y↑12

@Widda Siddiq yes I want to know too ! There are some therapists in my country but they either give you medicine or listen to you, and I really need a diagnosis!

@jessicaatkins3173

3y↑64

She's likely bipolar too

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@callmemaybe._

48w↑40

To all the people who might be suffering from this, remember you're not alone. Actually my father had this disease since I was a child and trust me during his manic episodes I used to hate him very much as he was a total different person, until I saw this. I feel guilty after acknowledging that none of those was his fault, it's just what the disease is. Hope all others people out there didn't face problems and their close one do understand them. WE'VE GOT YOUR BACK <3

@osmosis

48w↑4

We're glad that this video was able to help you understand your father's condition 🙏🏼

@daanishmendon729

24w

Hey...even my father has it now...I need to talk to you please...how can I

@nashwajamal4520

24w

My sister suffers from this disease😢 , please ! Can you tell me how to treat your father or how to undergo a course of treatment.??

@daanishmendon729

24w

@@nashwajamal4520 where are you from

@feelone1094

2y↑184

To anyone who is bullied into thinking they are fine when you know you aren’t. DO NOT LET PEOPLE hinder you from seeking professional assessment. I lived with this for a VERY LONG TIME and it’s NO WAY to live if you don’t have to. If you feel something is wrong. Something probably is. Might not be BPD but could be something else that has comparable symptoms .

@jexycryptogawd8199

2y↑1

Check out the name on my channel 🙂
He helped me recover from bipolar

@PrincessTheGuy

1y↑1

Happened to me. Didn’t get support for a year and a half because I was constantly told I’m fine.

@rainlarkmarie2657

25w

❤

@viancshelpyou7045

21w

Umm, it's a cause of bully?

@lillianfant2386

3y↑5.1K

I hate when you’re in a good mood for a while and you’re just waiting for the fall. I always know it’s coming I just don’t know when or how long I’ll be stuck there.

@PiinkkBunnyy16

3y↑126

Wow this felt like a personal attack lol.

@mista589

3y↑165

You know the moment the mood starts to get brittle and the anxiety and lethargy starts to kick in... I'm tired of this shit.

@basmahammad2313

3y↑13

That’s me!

@WickedG5150

3y↑7

Same.

@momentmade6525

3y↑35

Jesus does help me out a lot and he can help you too. He loves us ❤️ It can be so hard , I kinda feel numb as I’m typing this even but you are loved ➕

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@osmosis

7y↑261

We've updated this video! Depression is seen in most cases of bipolar disorder but it is not required for a diagnosis. We've also changed the diagnostic criteria from one week to 4 days.

@zarakkhan9901

7y↑3

Osmosis thanksssss

@uguraldanmaz2458

7y↑2

Do you add Turkish to translate

@mercury7831

7y↑1

Nice Video! Sorry for chiming in, I am interested in your opinion. Have you thought about - Lammywalness Erase Depression Guide (Have a quick look on google cant remember the place now)? It is a good one of a kind product for beating depression without the hard work. Ive heard some super things about it and my old buddy Taylor after a lifetime of fighting got astronomical results with it.

@marj_zpt5575

Osmosis what if it is just hour like im hyper the 1hour past im lonely is it still bipolar?

@jofernando9291

Osmosis love ur videos...expctng more. tqsm

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@eyoungstrom

4y↑25

Great overview! Didn't talk about irritable mood, which is a common part of the picture for both depression and for (hypo)mania. The schematic drawing the ups and downs is especially effective. Also important to mention "Other Specified bipolar and related disorders" -- most common version, and still can be highly impairing. The data are not clear about SSRIs triggering hypomania or "switch." More information about psychotherapy and lifestyle changes would be spiffy, too. Overall, super-impressed by all the info packed into 7 min! Bravo!!

@theglitterbombmom

4y↑40

I’ve been doing a lot of reading and research on bipolar disorder (BP2 specifically) and it makes so much more since to me than the depression I’ve been diagnosed with. I was started on Zoloft and it’s like I just went down hill from there. This video helped me to put into words to my psychiatrist what I’ve been feeling.

@ericab8396

2y↑3

Yes!!!! Omg Zoloft is where it started

@DK-sg3oe

49w↑1

Avoid salt absolutely nd oil

@christinagordan2757

3y↑47

I definitely relate to the cyclothymia one. I have less highs and the highs are more of a general happiness but also crazy irritation at some points, but suddenly the lows come and they hurt really bad. I haven’t got diagnosed though, so I can’t say for sure.

@small_fries7573

2y↑1

maybe it's normal to have highs and then lows. Sometimes it can be like issues in your life that
hasn't been resolve yet for a long time.
Wish u accept Jesus Christ as your Savior so u can go to heaven after this life. God doesn't expect you to be perfect nor sinless. He just wants u to believe in Him as your Savior for your sins so u can go to heaven after this life.

@H0Ia

2y↑1

For me I’m generally happy or sometimes feel like I could anything. Then randomly I feel sad and it hurts, for at least a hour.

@pragmaticmusing6923

3y↑27

Growing up I was thought to be ADHD and later bipolar (manic/depressive). Hyperactivity (or mania) I've learned recently is one of the signs for phenylketonuria, which up until recently if I understand it right was not widely tested for. There could be many with PKU who are being treated for it with other things.

@dawsoncarpenter2244

2y↑1

Omfg imagine them prescribing you adderall that would make you go into full blown mania💀

@RandomNorwegianGuy.

30w↑5

I have a sister who has bipolar. She has always been somewhat of a bully, never helps with anything (not even simple stuff as cleaning up dishes after herself) as well as straight up mean to my parents. All my life I thought that she was just always lazy and extremly narcissistic. But after learning about her disorder, so many things finally starts to make sense about her, and her insanlly complicated head

@barry9460

4y↑405

does anyone else have these random bursts of total happiness when everything just feels like it’s going to be okay and you just feel no worry at all, they only last a few seconds at most for me; i have been diagnosed with depression but i’ve been experiencing them since middle school, way before i ever experienced depression.

@charnellsatterwhite8217

2y↑6

that's exactly how I feel

@skellyskellington2559

2y↑1

It’s been a year how are you feeling nowv

@Indigowispp

2y↑6

I usually try to fight it I’ll feel the happiness but I always try to remind myself it isn’t real it makes the crash down from the high hurt a little less because I was expecting it the whole time the lows tho I haven’t mastered how to ignore

@AbstruseDaPoet

Yes

@helenarichard

2y↑5

Although I get we need names for diagnosis, but looking further into the symptoms of bipolar disorders, they seem more like hormonal imbalances to me. If you feel a quick burst of energy of happiness, it could easily be explained by a quick rise in serotonin or testosterone. A lot of environmental factors recently cause a lot of hormonal problems. Problem is, endocrinologists won't bother with mental diagnosis, and psychologists don't know medicine. A psychiatrist only pops pills. But if just 1 person would study the cause of our hormonal issues and link environment to mental health, we could be saved. These "mysterieus mental issues" don't just come out of nowhere. Autism, for one, is most likely caused by mercury in the environment, not just genetica. The mercury changes the DNA and from then on "mental issues" become "hereditary". Explain to me then why there are no older people with autism. I rest my case.

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@issamerose4813

4y↑2.3K

I hate that the more I look into bipolar depression the more it relates to me and the more my actions and feelings make more sense.

@seppmeister2394

3y↑234

same like i‘m not even trying to diagnose it myself but this is getting way too specific rn

@alexhowes8778

3y↑4

Agreed

@rahat7120

3y↑4

Saaammmeee.

@cursedaccount6067

3y↑31

Shut up stop self diagnosing

@crayzmosher

3y↑1

literally

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@222landon

3y↑136

Just went to my counselor today, and we talked about Bipolar disorder. I had hit a series of lows and highs and realized I wasn't like everyone else. Its sad to think about, but I guess at the same time it's just something I have to except that I have to live with. Set up an appointment with a doctor, hopefully they can find me physcotherapy, or maybe prescribe some medication which was recomended. It's so nice to see that I'm not the only one with this problem, I wish there was a community of people with bipolar disorder you could almost talk to and dicuss what you are going through. Thank God for youtube though, I thought I was the on e.

@taylorriddick2729

3y↑2

Hi. I understand what u are going thru. I’m starting to think I have this disorder. If u do not mind me asking how did it go with a psychotherapist?

@SuperCheychey99

2y↑1

I'm way late to this comment but hope your therapy and med regime is going well, I am proud of you. Also there is a bipolar subreddit that is super helpful I suggest you look at it's been very helpful to me :)

@lesliewalker8054

2y↑2

I recommend celebrate recovery groups for a safe place to share and be vulnerable about struggles with mental health.

@sahibasharma29995

1y↑1

Can you help me

@josehernandez7246

2y↑57

I think I might be bipolar. My parents definitely have untreated mental illnesses from untreated trauma and have scarred their kids through their coping mechanisms. I used to have longer highs when I was a kid but have more frequent lows as an adult and am honestly just tired of going to war every day. My moods shift so fast that I’ve given up on having any meaningful friendship with anyone out of fear that they find out how messed up I am. Don’t know what this is but some part of me wants to keep going.

@DK-sg3oe

1y↑2

Avoid oil sugar salt ❤

@DK-sg3oe

45w↑1

Do connect will get u the cure u need tailor made as every individual is different with regard to his environment

@sandtias4138

3y↑77

I'm here since my mom has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder 4 years ago. This is my second time living at my aunt's place for several months due to my mom's manic episodes, that convinces her to stop taking her medication. This leads to some really depressive episodes that can potentially take her life. The people taking care of her tends to send her home too quickly (in the manic stage) which leads to her messing up her medication and yet another depressive episode develops. I found this video to learn more about it, as i'm still not too familiar with it I feel. I'm almost an adult now, and I wanna be able to understand the symptoms so I can help my mother in the future. Thank u for the video :)

@Nancy-pc6sf

2y↑4

Good going girl proud of you

@lorenzo7162

2y↑3

Hope you are doing well

@wlcmbackapitan

nah man cap :( :)

@DK-sg3oe

Avoid oil salt sugar❤

@bluezircon1564

3y↑23

I love learning about mental health a lot! It helps me understand people and even myself. I’m recovering from depression, sh, and suicidal thoughts. After all of it it’s even more clear to me how important and serious mental health is and to look out for others and yourself! Didn’t think I’d make it to the summer but here I am enjoying it. If you are here because you have bipolar disorder or feel it fits you I want to let you know I feel for you and you can make it through the rough and even soffocating parts of it!💗 mabye you feel like you need to end it soon because it’s so hard to make it through each day but it’s not true. Seeking help even for the minor things does help a lot. And don’t feel embarrassed for it it is serious and people really do care. Good luck!

@osmosis

You rock! 😎🥰🤩

@sabrinacasillas2757

30w

Thank you ☺

@bruiserqueen605

4y↑2.9K

It's hard having someone say "you were in such a good mood yesterday though, what happened?" What happened is I entered the full on mania stage and I feel like I'm not even real.

@btw8775

4y↑41

Hang tight miss, its a wild ride but we can make it through!

@bruiserqueen605

4y↑12

@BigOak 🖤✨🖤✨🖤

@jessica_beck

4y↑10

I know what you mean. Although I think I’m a just going through puberty or something lol. But i know how that feels

@bruiserqueen605

4y↑35

@Jessica Beck Going through puberty can be the beginning of the manifestation of mental health issues, at least it was for me. Don't worry though, it could just be that coming with age thing. But always be aware of your feelings, and don't bottle them up. If you're ever struggling speak with someone you trust and then go from there. Best wishes 🖤

@jessica_beck

Bruiser Queen thank you

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@leatheryfoot6354

2y↑10

When I was a little, my aunt on my mother's side accused my father of sexual assault after going into toxic shock and being rushed to the hospital. It turned out not only was she bipolar schizophrenic, but she had also just lost a baby triggering a traumatic episode. I came here to better understand her mindset.

@osmosis

2y↑1

Hope our video was able to help and thanks for sharing! 🙏🏼 ❤️

@basaknaimecelikler8437

4y↑309

One of the most unbearable things about bipolar disorder is having no answers for “why you are sad?” Questiın it is so exhausting to give pp answers

@small_fries7573

2y↑3

maybe u can try to find a counselor and see if he/she can do a diagnosis. I think it's normal to be sad or angry. BUt idk your situation.
Wish u accept Jesus Christ as your Savior so u can go to heaven after this life. God doesn't expect you to be perfect nor sinless. He just wants u to believe in Him as your Savior for your sins so u can go to heaven after this life.

@user-bm4hr5bu2c

Yeeeees

@elizabethrose644

3y↑10

over the past few years, my depressive episodes usually only lasted for a day or so but be somewhat frequent. but i’ve recently realized that people can experience depression through anger rather than sadness and i’m now wondering if depression has actually affected me much more severely than i originally thought

@small_fries7573

idk. maybe someone who is a professional can tell you a better answer. I myself for one has some anger issues stemming from people's actions. But i think that's most people out there
in this world. This world is definitely more evil than good. People's selfish hearts and intentions are gonna be there. Only our resolve comes through God. God is good and yes He does allow evil in this world to test our character and resolve. I've been through lotsa downs in my life and last year 2021 was a double whammy for me. But through it, I learned quite a bit on how to get back up from a double big fall. I still struggle financially, but I'm still working pt and working out and trying to find happiness indoor and sometimes outdoors. You can too!

Wish u accept Jesus Christ as your Savior so u can go to heaven after this life. God doesn't expect you to be perfect nor sinless. He just wants u to believe in Him as your Savior for your sins so u can go to heaven after this life.

There r some peeps who care!

@simonbylund5965

4y↑3

When I was in the mental hospital after trying to commit suicide I met this old man who told me he was bipolar. He was constantly talking to me, really quickly and I don't even remember what he said. I realized even though I heard about bipolar disorder I didn't know very much about it. Thank you for this simple but very informative explanation. Very helpful!

@nakiasubiono673

3y↑2

got diagnosed with bipolar disorder a few hospitalizations ago, they never told me which one it was or really anything about it, almost a year into it and I finally worked up the courage to educate myself about my disorder & I regret not doing it sooner. this helped me understand my diagnosis so much better & let me know that what i'm feeling happens to other people & that really helps to make me not feel like a overdramatic freak. sorry for ranting.

@osmosis

3y↑1

Hi Nakia! Glad to be of help in any way we can and proud of you for educating yourself on your condition! 😊

@CheriBerry1

4y↑1.1K

I hate being bipolar it sucks nobody understands and I’m just a crazy person who is alone. This year it’s so much worse too

@deonadnell192

4y↑22

Same, I tried to tell my “friend” and she wouldn’t even here me out

@mashalnadir2058

4y↑16

@Deona D'Nell I'm sorry you had to go through that

@melissachabok

3y↑6

you're not alone. your family and your friends love you. be strong and go for treatment.

@supritipal316

3y↑2

Here too....... it sucks ...
Now I just want to focus on my inner self development.

@skaterg8er488

3y↑9

fr ive f'd up so much crap in my life this year and it's like there's nothing i can do to stop it

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@Yuhyuhyuhyuhyuh

4y↑6

Holy. What a video. I’ve always been curious to learn about my BPD, this video right here is the first time I felt like I was being talked to by someone who knew what they were talking about! Great educational tool, it’s such a shame that BPD is so grossly misunderstood.

@xmushab0m

4y↑5

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a few years ago. After my third suicide attempt I started taking my meds and got into college. Now im off my meds and I'd say I'm doing ok. I love my doctors and I feel really comfortable meditating and talking about my ups and highs. My only regret is that, when my doctor told me my diagnosis and he said bipolar I said: pls don't tell me about it, i'm scared that if I know all the details I would look it up and start "mimicking" what I read. I don't know if that makes sense, but now I want to know more.

To everyone dealing with this I send you guys hugs and strenght. It's exhausting but life is worth living. Keep it up, we can do it. ♥

@badbadbad873

33w↑4

I noticed how people seem to prefer manic episodes to depressive ones, but since I had my first manic episode, I'm always scared to trigger it again or notice too late that I was in one. The feeling of shame, the painful and terrifying notion that you are out of control of your own body for a very long time as if another person completely different than you possesses you...
At least I'm always very used to depression and I can at least think for myself for a certain extent, but with mania I just turn into unga-bunga prehistoric man of the jungle

@rebelraccoon9018

21w↑1

I can relate to that so much. For me though I'd rather experience mania because the depression is so debilitating I can barely get out of bed in the morning. My thoughts are very dark and I'm so sluggish. As bad as mania is at least it makes me feel alive. I respect that it is different for everyone.

@optimistictraveller

2y↑4

A couple of months ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type 2, at the age of 29. Up until recently, I never even knew the terms like ADHD, Bipolar Disorder and anything related to that existed. All these years I just thought my behavior has been the way it is because of my personality. And as the top commenter said, I also thought that’s the way most people are. To be honest, I’m still struggling to understand what hypomanic state looks/feels like. I keep wondering whether what I tend to have occasionally is just a super excited mood or hypomania. Isn’t it a part of the human’s nature to experience ups and downs or excitement and sadness?
I still find it hard to differentiate hypomanic state from feeling happy because I could hardly find any information with actual visual examples. Most of the resources/videos only provide descriptions. Maybe my diagnosis is wrong because I was diagnosed by only one psychiatrist? Maybe me being hyperactive, over-sociable and energetic is just the part of my personality? Maybe me being extremely sad and down is the state caused by not keeping up with my goals I set during my excited moods?
Might sound weird, but I feel guilty to say I have BD because I’m not even sure if I actually have it but despite of that I’m lying and saying I have it which is very disrespectful to people who actually have it.

@vanitasaldanha686

7y↑3K

BIPOLAR DISORDER IS A SERIOUS MENTAL DISORDER. IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO COPE WITH THE DISEASE.

@samsongabriel4087

6y↑23

Vanita Saldanha

No joke

@ljinlj

6y↑149

STOP YELLING

@ImrnetI

6y↑27

Early psychiatric intervention is key in treatment and improving quality of life, almost 70% of patients report good prognosis ✓

@kaykerr1739

6y↑53

Vanita Saldanha it’s not a disease

@AsfandShahid

5y↑16

@The Bateman maybe she has manic episode?

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@sifugurusensei

3y↑2.7K

The worst thing is how I treat people like dirt during a psychotic episode and I try to explain that that wasn't me. I've already burned enough bridges.

@bubbIest

3y↑65

I feel that part, but thank god my friend got back in touch w me recently and everything was cleared up

@jakethespoopycat6919

3y↑93

I feel you, I end up hurting my friends when manic and I feel horrible about it, I try to explain, most of them understand, but some are extremely judgmental and treat me like a fucking axe murderer

@sifugurusensei

3y↑16

@Jake Of DA many sinksnakes gotta count your blessings I guess. I still have my family. I started thinking about all the things I can do now that I'm out of the hospital. There's this freedom I have now which I didn't have at the hospital like a chance to breath fresh air. That's really something

@saritatamu5395

@Dario Wirtha can feel ya

@mikelisteral7863

3y↑29

develop more introspection during moods. which leads to more awareness of them. which leads to more freedom from them

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@ThorandLoki

4y↑14

I can’t believe in 2020 the stigma that’s associated with bipolar. I was diagnosed after my mother was having manic episodes. It’s nothing to be ashamed of and is a real medical issue. My ex husband use to use it against me whenever I disagreed with him.

@giulia5073

32w↑1

I got diagnosed after talking to my GP and therapist about wanting to start antidepressants 😅
I guess in some ways it was truly revelationary to me to have an actual explanation for so many of my symptoms that I used to explain away for being a hormonal women with complex trauma 😅

@MySorprendente

4y↑8

Thank you for explaining the symptoms. The graph helped me a lot. It can sometimes get a little confusing between bipolar 1 and 2 and even borderline. The graph helped put a mental picture in my mind that will help me a lot!

@DK-sg3oe

Avoid oil salt

@myusualipstick

3y↑8

I've always thought I had bipolar and now I'm almost sure of it. This video was very helpful, thank you

@faithrose3800

4y↑5.5K

Omg, the amount of people in her complaining about others “self diagnosing” You ever think they’re really hurting and they’re just looking for help.

@softmoonangel

4y↑442

ikr, i just want answers. I think i may be bipolar but my concerns are brushed off by my GP, i need help and no one wants to give it to me

@zerjiozerjio

4y↑283

Or they can't afford good care

@o_o1317

4y↑96

i do agree, but i have come across people who just have no idea what they’re talking about and have been like “i don’t know.... i mean i could have anxiety? i could have depression? uhh, maybe i’m bipolar?”

@lorie446

4y↑53

That is so true... everyone with bipolar has suffered including myself and I hope people realize that confusion doesn’t always include claiming a label. Sometimes being confused is just simply being confused.

@chump8035

4y↑4

No. Because we dont care.

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@fbiohnono7013

4y↑4

Thank you so much for the video, I started to suspect myself of being bipolar after struggling with insomnia, but your video has really helped me to know a little better about what bipolar really is

@small_fries7573

what if you are not? if u r so, that's alright. Acceptance is da first step to recovery.
You are a precious soul...

Wish u accept Jesus Christ as your Savior so u can go to heaven after this life. God doesn't expect you to be perfect nor sinless. He just wants u to believe in Him as your Savior for your sins so u can go to heaven after this life.

@pansang7004

3y↑5

These past few days, i kept myself busy on watching any videos here in yt til i got the term bipolar. I thought it just means having a mood swing but no, it literally defined my situation right now plus anxiety. I know i am not alone in this battle. We can do this guys! It may be hard, but for the sake of ourselves, let's do things that will make us better. Aja!

@small_fries7573

yeah u r definitely not alone. Just check out da daily news. There's always some kind of crazy crime spree or people getting hurt. At least you don't go out and commit crimes. You are better than da general poplation despite da bipolar thingy. U r precious.

Wish u accept Jesus Christ as your Savior so u can go to heaven after this life. God doesn't expect you to be perfect nor sinless. He just wants u to believe in Him as your Savior for your sins so u can go to heaven after this life.

@kellykei5318

2y↑7

im a teen. i suffer with anxiety and ocd. but lately i’ve realized, i’ll be overly energetic for a solid minute, and completely depressed the next, usually the depressed lasts longer, and many people have noticed this about me and i said i might have bipolar disorder. but according to this video these episodes last for long periods of time, whereas for me it switches very quickly. i also have been having this feeling of loneliness at all times. once i started feeling so scared and lonely just bc my friend couldn’t make it to hangout. everything makes me feel that way, and i don’t know what’s wrong with me. sometimes i cant tell if i’m actually happy or if i’m faking it. pls give me advice bc i have no idea what’s wrong with me.

@feelone1094

2y↑1

You may be rapid cycling .

@feelone1094

2y↑1

Which btw isn’t so much one minute to the other it could be hours one way and hours the other way or one day elated next day depressed one moment to the next ….I’m not familiar with but you should be assessed .

@henrsz88

15w

how you feel nowadays? would love to know

@marisolmartinez4159

4y↑4

To anyone going through a hard time and are looking for answers, just keep trying fam. I wish I had watched this sooner. I went to a doctor for my depression and anxiety. Walked out with both those and bipolar disorder and ADD. I had never even considered I'd have bipolar disorder so when I got diagnosed I was really confused but the more I understood bipolar disorder the more it made sense to me.

@adisenbelanger8690

2y↑1

I haven’t been officially diagnosed however recently someone mentioned to me that bipolar disorder could be a possibility for me. Naturally I looked into it and I’m realizing that my actions over the last few years have begun to make a lot of sense

@sroderick2220

4y↑15

Thank you for creating this video. It is very informative and easy to follow. I would like it if you mentioned psychotic symptoms often associated with mania, and sometimes with depression.

@jascayudong8050

4y↑38

Thank you so much for this presentation. This made me clearly understand the Bipolar Disorder and the people who have this condition.

@petroleumjelly417

4y↑6

This video is really satisfying to me! I finally got mental help and was diagnosed with manic depression, and to see a video that explains what I went through is so relieving. It’s unfortunate but at least I’m not the only one dealing with it

@donaepiedt1104

What video

@sthomashoe

1y↑3

One of my family members said to me today when we were having a disagreement “ you’re just having a manic episode again “ and then hugged me and it hit me like a train that I’ve been ignoring that I’m bipolar for so long , I had a manic episode at 10 where I thought I had diabetes and was losing my lower parts of my body and I had extreme anxiety and panic and then it completely disappeared , I would be hyper and euphoric to where I would cry happy tears then be depressed and annoyed and that goes back even to when I was maybe 5 or younger , when I was 15 I developed an eating disorder and I had a mania that lasted for many months that I think now was connected , I thought I would be a famous musician and that I would become this perfect person and then receded into thinking I was hideous several times a day and it was strange and fun , when I joined a successful group at 23 I had another long manic and delusions of grandeur mixed with impulsive behaviour , I should also mention my life has been insane with random events and random people coming and going quickly , I never liked sexual deviance but as I became a confident adult I started dating so much and throwing money around that I didn’t even have and now I’m 30 bouncing from feeling like I’m insane and special and I’m worthless , it’s all making sense now that I’ve always been a highly creative bipolar and it’s like I have answers finally

@cyan6916

3y↑2

People will call me a self-diagnoser. I do not diagnose myself to be clear, but I think I might have bipolar disorder. The more I learn about this the more I can relate to this. I'd of course ask one of my therapists about this (I'm pretty sure I have around 6 of them now or idk) and also what the actual fuck is wrong with me. I just want to know who I am, I honestly thought everyone was like this and now I feel dumb.

@autumncortez6254

2y↑25

For religious people:
Do you think this mental illness is a combination of brain issues and soul or spiritual problems? I have debated this about myself after being diagnosed with BiPolar 2 over 5 years ago.
Example: I take my antidepressant and I no longer FEEL depressed, I fixed the mind issue. But I am not “happy” or fulfilled or whatever word you want to use. That work has to be done in the soul.
In my opinion, I removed the depression cycle which was a hindrance that normally wired brains don’t have. But that only frees me to now work towards a true happiness and that issue has been throwing me off. It’s what I describe as “soul sickness.”
After so many years of being depressed and at times suicidal for 3-4 days out of every week, then unexplainably happy for 3-4 days, then back to depressed again, I never got a chance to have hope or even dream of the future. I always thought I was probably living for the last year. I lack the skills of taking care of my happiness or even knowing what I want. This is hard!

@VengefulPolititron

Yes. many bodily afflictions are intertwined with the mind. Heart literally stores your feelings. not your brain. You brain just collects and processes information. I went though chastisement and lost my humanity and feelings for awhile. I felt dead. and I learned the heart and gut bit have brain cells that connect to the brain. gut feelings are real. and love actually comes from the heart. Sin, and the corruption of nature that happened because of sin, does affect us in many ways. You are a 3 part being, made in God's image. He is 3 people, Father Son and Holy Spirit. You are Body Spirit and Soul. You are a spirit. the soul makes you human and like God. but the body is fleshly and evil. corrupted by darkness. We are spirits who experience light and dark. but we have the direction of God, through our soul, to do what is right.

@dr.jones.3832

Never ask religious people about mental illness, they will only make you feel more mental😩

@natalieschultejans6846

4y↑8

I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 when discharged from the hospital and they never really helped me understand my diagnoses. I’ve been getting treatment for a while since and am doing a lot better, but I recently started to wonder again about it and how it works. This video helped me to understand it a lot and provided a lot of much needed clarity. Thank you.

@samanthawhitten4135

4y↑2

i am 22 and was previously diagnosed with bpd and add, but now my therapist is saying that i'm showing signs more relative to bipolar 2. i'm still really confused about the distinctions between all of these and it's so overwhelming. this video made me aware of a lot though. i was on ssris for a little while when i was making a lot of chaotic decisions, and i didn't know that ssris could trigger mania, so if i am diagnosed as bipolar, it would just make a lot of things make sense. i just really hope i can get a clear diagnosis this time around because i want to figure out how to live with whatever i have and feel less confused about how to go about treatment and medications. anyway, i hope whoever is reading this is doing well and is being kind to themselves. we got this. 💛

@karolinapakostova4264

Great explanation. I do not suffer any of those but finished watching the Crime Scene Vanishing at the Cecil hotel. Related to Elisa`s death i wondered how the bipolar disorder is being "recognized" in a person`s and their closest ones in a life.

@danielle5406

2y↑5

I was misdiagnosed w major depressive disorder & generalized anxiety for 2 years, & was rediagnosed w bipolar type 2 along w CPTSD yesterday. Bc of my misdiagnosis I was on a antidepressant for 6 months & it was going great until I came out of my low so it’s super important to get the right diagnosis. :) im now on a mood stabilizer & seeking a therapist specialized w these disorders & feel very hopeful. Just know you’re not alone.

@DK-sg3oe

Danielle hi dear CD u avoid oil n salt completely

@noel6210

3y↑1

I have bipolar disorder type 1. When my family went to the hospital with me, they asked, if we had a bipolar in our family. We didn't. And I can say, The main cause was a trauma. I lost a friend, while I struggled to have any. I had anxiety too, so these 2 combined, and I couldn't handle it, this caused the disorder. I felt really really good in the mania episode. I thought the friend I lost wants to be with me and we will change the world for the better, and she is a saint who loves me more than I can imagine. So because I thought she loves me, I went to their house with my cousin, and literally all I could remember, is what could prove that she loves me. We were there for 15 minutes. And I only remember 1 minute from it. This is the scariest thing. My cousin said after all these, what she really meant to say. She directly said she don't even understand why I'm not getting that she don't want to be my friend. This scene disappeared for me. I couldn't remember it after she said it directly.

@Liageisler

27w↑1

I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder about a year ago, now that I'm being more evaluated since I'm going back to the symptoms of my 2 year long major depression, there is a chance I have both Bipolar disorder I and bpd. Seriously kill me
Edit: I respond horribly to medication in general, I've taken antidepressants that drove to an extreme manic episode that destroyed me, and others increase my depression, I don't know what to do

@JustAnotherAccount8

6y↑265

im glad you addressed that while mania/hypomania seems fantastic on paper it can be extremely dangerous in practice

@scottandrew8906

4y↑10

I have it. It’s hard to live with. In relationships, women would often really like me when they see my good side, but the problem has been once in a relationship and they see the angry traits and complete mood swings, I become really hard to deal with. When I’m manic I feel a mix of euphoria, anger, and over confidence. When I’m depressed I hate myself, I get emotional, I hate sunlight, and I can’t enjoy anything. In both phases I spend money foolishly because manic I just want “maximum pleasure,” and in depressed state I try to fix it by buying things. Also I’ll be doing great at a job but suddenly can lose all interest and literally not care or even think I’m better than the boss and be totally disrespectful. People don’t understand how hard it can be to be honest.

@ashmorelikeass

I agree, I also waste tons of money on stuff that I don't even remember buying in the first place and my parents (I'm a minor) don't get why I do this in the first place.

(And don't worry I'm diagnosed by a professional)

@rugrat1235

3y↑2

About 69% of people with Bipolar disorder go 10 years without a correct diagnosis. This has caused
MANY psychiatrists to be too quick to put someone on bipolar medication before having enough information to make a CORRECT diagnosis.
Often, it's unipolar depression, which requires different meds & treatment.
There must be better balance in this diagnostic process!
I believe specific testing criteria should be required.

@jell3cat283

2y↑1

I had a friend who told me she thinks she has bipolar disorder because she gets mood swings, but it’s so much more than that. It’s a real things that really effects the people harshly who happen to have it. It’s disappointing that society must label themselves as “different and unique” to get people attention 😕

@mixedreamz7324

3y↑4

Thanks you literally just described exactly what I’m going through. I’d rather be lit on fire again then go through a tenth of the dark lonely prison retaining thoughts my mind has locked me under. Hour upon hour of research. Many medications maybe that’s just it. I’m unfixable and the only other outcome is not trying anymore. Putting down the torch accepting how cruel this world is as an adult and waiting for peace.

@osmosis

Hey, we care about you. If you want to talk to someone or are experiencing suicidal thoughts, text the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. For international resources, this list (http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html) is a good place to start.

@feliciamonae6300

Well damn
I feel you 😪

@vegan4theanimals

2y↑1

I was diagnosed when I was 12. I'm nearly 30 now, only now am I getting the proper healthcare that I needed. My mother has it as well, and I want to help her. I was a heavy drinker for 10 years and am now nearly 2 years sober, I went vegan that year as well which greatly helped with my physical wellbeing.

Take care of yourself, everyone.
You're never alone!💚

@gabrielbrandao1106

5y↑9

I've been taking lithium for 2 years now, never felt better!
Tips to avoid mania/depressions:
- Be truthful/honest and open minded to the people around you about everything
For mania only:
- Remember that you might Think you're right, sometimes, you're really not - Start doubting yourself!

@stevenh8174

Get an ekg

@TheGhjgjgjgjgjg

Blessed is the mind too small for doubt.

@cheeky_penguu5155

4y↑1

I heard of tbis term recently, not knowing the full meaning. I've also been experiencing periodic depressive episodes, usually at night, and sometimes self confidence. I'm not sure if this is really bipolar disorder, but I would like to bring it up to my parents at some point.

@life_with_Syl

2y↑1

Reading the comment section gives me ease to see a lot of you finding help. You should be proud of yourselves. I was married for 11 years to a man who refused helped. Towards the end things got really bad so I took myself and my kids out of the equation. I'm glad to know it wasn't me. Although he made me feel really bad about myself and our son.

@emilydean2429

2y↑3

Can't describe how helpful that chart was to me better understanding the different types of bipolar and related disorders. Thank you for this!

@osmosis

You're most welcome, Emily! 😊

@papaspoon1550

3y↑4

I was diagnosed with bi polar two 4 months ago, they had believed it was just chronic depression and severe anxiety since I was 12 along with that suffering from pill addictions, personality disorders and adhd it was really hard for my therapist to ever pin point why I'd come back with episodes, she profusely apologized that she hadn't thought of it, though she's still my therapist and I love her I'm glad she's been there for me since I was 14 and I thank my psychiatrist for putting me on meds that have completely turned my life around, it's not fun being very homicidal then very depressed. It's really a challenge accepting i was told I have bi polar 2. It feels embarrassing and for me it still kinda feels like it's not real, like I'm just over exaggerating. It's hard to come to acceptance and I hope anyone out there can accept themselves soon, just as I am still doing. Stay strong and if you want to get better remember it's 50% medication 50% you. If medication works for you.

@khfan4life365

My older brother suffers from bipolar disorder. When he was off his meds once, I noticed how manic he was. It was like his mind was reeling and his mouth couldn't keep up. Every little thing set him off. Mom finally asked him if he had been taking his meds and he admitted that he forgot to call in a refill. She helped him get it done and he was back to his old self. I can’t speak for him (even though we know each other so well that we finish each other’s sentences), but it was scary to see my brother and not recognize him.

@charadreemurr2170

4y↑57

I don't have bipolar, but I can confirm manic episodes can make you feel like you are unable to sleep, really REALLY happy. I once had a manic episode so bad that I had to be hospitalized because I couldn't sleep for 3 days and hallucinating because of it ( I thought a tissue box was a freaking pokemon ) or even stop moving, leading to hurting others. ( Edit: I was 12 when these manic episodes started, I'm 13 now. )

@elyousfi5661

2y↑1

You don’t have bipolar so what do you have then and what caused you manic ?

@JustMyOpinion-

2y↑1

Lol

@machiavellianos

2y↑1

That is not manic or anything. It is called childhood. When you are a child, you can make anything fly. I used to fly pigs in the family farm. I was so happy.

@dawsoncarpenter2244

2y↑10

@Marchia Velliano um no that’s literally mania💀 not sleeping for 3 days, feeling unnaturally way too hyper and happy, hallucinating thats full blown mania right there

@dawsoncarpenter2244

2y↑2

@El Yousfi people without bpd can still experience mania but its usually from tramatic events or not taking care of yourself like staying up too late or using too much stims

@low8739

2y↑5

I was diagnosed several years ago. It is a constant battle to keep up with the meds or to even get the right dose. I have to check in with my Psych Nurse Practitioner every month in case something needs to be changed. I know I’m going manic when I start shopping online. Spring is the worst. The nice weather sends me into mania. Without my meds, I am suicidal. Take your meds.

@jexycryptogawd8199

2y↑2

Check out the name on my channel 🙂
He helped me recover from bipolar

@sunflower6434

2y↑11

I love how you have explained this, (maybe because I’m a more of a visual learner) but I can see how long each phase can be/go and how deep or how high they can go….and how often each phase can last.
Well done on a great explanation.
I’m going to have to look into this cyclothymia….I’ve had bouts of depression within a year period, (2 maybe) …but the highs???…. How high do they have to be; behaviour wise?…that is the question.? Need clearer examples….going to check out your other videos.

@osmosis

Our pleasure to help! 🙏🏼

@carvel9627

3y↑5

This was so helpful (as a visual learner) in understanding the differences between each diagnosis. Thanks so much

@osmosis

You're welcome! Our pleasure to help! 😊

@stuartmack7658

4y↑1

Everyone gets a little bit down and everyone gets a little bit happy. The problem is when these emotions swing to extremes which may last weeks or even months on end, to the point that people start to notice unusual behaviour. You might say innapproiate things that just spring into your head, or get really angry, or upset at the slightest thing. You may find yourself dwelling or 'ruminating' over minor things that become difficult to get of your head, making it hard to focus, affecting your work or study. That is the point you should speak to a doctor.
Even then, don't expect a quick diagnosis. It can take years. Bipolar disorder is a spectrum of symptoms which you may or may not be experiencing in varying degrees. There are also many other mental health conditions with similar symptoms, so a diagnosis can take years. The main point is to recognise the symptoms in the first place and seek advice at the earliest onset.

@LorenaPassosYook

2y↑2

I was only recently diagnosed and I cried of relief. Its like I can finally move on from my own thoughts. My doctor saw me for a whole 1 year until He could finally tell me what was wrong with me. Before that They had told me I had OCD and chronic axiety. I was in therapy for 6 years. I had put names to describe my moods on therapy sessions ("hyper-agitated anxious" and "conflicted-depressed" anxious") and I could feel when I was going through them (every two weeks or so). They told me I had cronic anxiety, I was on crisis and medication would make me better but I was never ok. I had all types of meds lmao It was never working......... time passed by and my problems became more and more visible and especific (thats when I noticed and my doctor became sure of BD 2).... I never get angry but I get sad and feel hyper all the time. On my "hyper moments" I could do anything. I got prizes bc of my work, promotions at work, I spent a lot of money buying things I was suddently interested in, I would go out with my friends and talked to everyone, I slept 5 hours but I was full of energy. I felt like a hero... I was constantly talking about myself to others and I was extremely criative (I had the most original and interesting ideas at work). On my "conflicted moments" I couldnt do the one million things I was doing before, I wanted to k*ll myself, I felt lost and I had trouble thinking. I didnt want to socialize, I was too exausted and to sleep just 5 hours would make me cry.

After being diagnosed I felt much better. I could finally understand how to improve.

@eringallagher5510

8 years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 - at the age of 14. I’ve struggled immensely to keep my life on track & to manage moods & depressive symptoms. Manic episodes cause so much destruction and hurt. I finally found a mood stabilizer that helps balance things a bit better but i’m still struggling heavily with depression. I’ve been told by my psychiatrist that people diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder should refrain from taking antidepressants, as it could make matters even worse (which was the case for me). Sending my love to everyone living with BP 🤍

@dukemickey6394

4y↑4

Hey Caleb 👋.. thanks for the ENLIGHTENING video.
Really helped me to understand and breakdown, myself and what I feel about things I feel. I'm sure you're helping MANY OTHERS as well.
God bless the work!
Cheers, Duke Mickey

@small_fries7573

Wish u accept Jesus Christ as your Savior so u can go to heaven after this life. God doesn't expect you to be perfect nor sinless. He just wants u to believe in Him as your Savior for your sins so u can go to heaven after this life.

@livingmyliferandomly

As someone with bipolar depression I love showing them videos like this. Its quick and easy to understand to kinda explain dramatic shifts in mood.

@osmosis

Glad that we are able to help in this way. Thanks for letting us know! 😊

@SpunkyDunk

3y↑6

Went 32 years without realizing I had this. For a while I was upset about knowing this, but people have been treated for it and can live normal lives, it happens all the time. I have faith that I’ll do just fine.

@wildlifenatural482

Mania isn’t common but depression is very common among all of us trust me. I having this experience and most of my classmates and friends agree with me. Most common reasons are financial problems and losing dear ones especially could be a family member forever, or a break up with a bf who you loved him for your entire life and eventually the relationship hurts you. It sucks like I’m isolated from the world.

@volk4all805

2y↑15

Worst part about bipolar episodes - when u want to try to reconnect and apologise to someone you hurt during an episode but dont want to resurface bad memories. I had a horrible manic episode a few years back where i asked a co-worker who was a friend and who had a boyfriend out and was angrily rebuffed. God i cringe so hard thinking about it. I don't want to reach out cuz km afraid it will resurface a rough memory.

@rizzar

4y↑8

My dad is bipolar, he refused to take his medication and resorted to almost killing himself and my mom many times. He is also addicted to alcohol, which might play a major role in his psychotic behavior. Our family distanced ourselves from him, but I really hope he gets the help he needs.

@cortneyjones3025

I love looking at topics like this above! I makes me understand others around me. I’ve never been diagnosed but I would love to understand others who have this disorder

@shirshadebnath8322

2y↑2

My best friend has bipolar disorder and I'm watching these videos to understand and help her with the best I can. Sometimes her words and behaviour hurt me when she's having mood swings but I know she loves me a lot and the hugs that we share solve everything at the end. My dear cupcake, don't know if you're reading this, but I just want you to know that I'm there with you till the end, we're in this together bub.. I love you

@rickytoussaint4949

3y↑1

I think situational trauma plays a huge part in bipolar disorder. I remember being physically abused by my dad and now that im older, anytime i feel threatened I immediately go into fight or flight. I also go through a phase of deep depression thinking about the night it happened. And ive realized The only thing keeping me afloat is God and my friends

@jaytb8129

4y↑1

This video is really informative and helpful my ex has cyclothymia and because I didn't understand her condition or symptoms properly I ended up losing her, really wish I found this video sooner 😢

@WildKatVixon

My husband was finally properly diagnosed with BPD, and im trying to be supportive. But wr also just lost both of my parents. They were more like parents to him then his own parental donors. My parents were the best. Truly extraordinary kind souls. Im torn between still mourning, trying to handle things, our daughter, our 3 elderly pets, and trying to be supportive of him while he trying to be supportive of the situation too for me. He missed a day of meds and has communicated that with me which is HUGE! But im unsure how to help right now. Talking to my parents was both of our sanctuary. Any advise to help him through manic episodes is welcomed please

@WildKatVixon

@Cyprian Marie he tried. It got worse.

@Sha_Mone

7y↑70

Never thought stress can cause manic, That explains why i try to make my self stressed out in order to get out from depression. This video is really interesting, You made me really get a clear picture of what bipolar really is. Thanks a lot!

@bruh7952

Now that’s an epic gamer moment

@yukadiangelo5284

Ummm what, you have depression?

@yukadiangelo5284

@官banana swag I was asking if this comment means that the person have depression, you idiot!

@yukadiangelo5284

@官banana swag Infant

@yukadiangelo5284

@官banana swag Get a life

@krisdudley7505

2y↑3

I lost my ex girlfriend 10 months ago because of a manic episode and I'm still now feeling so cut up inside. This 'disease of the brain' as I like to call it, only seems to serve to destroy your life in any way possible.

@parsa8228

3y↑1

My best friend has bipolar disorder type 2, he has recently opened up about it and he sent me this video to help me understand him better, it's so sad that there's no cure or treatment, breaks my heart to see one of the dearest person in my life is going through this

@mrpaulturner4772

You can help him out with this disease with herbal medicine which are use to cure myself two

@haynesprivette

3y↑13

i get manic usually at night for around 30 minutes maybe twice a week... like i literally cannot sit still and have an overwhelming amount of energy. I’m use to not being able to sit still or focus from adhd, but when in a manic episode, it’s way over the normal symptoms i experience from adhd.

@shelia4879

3y↑336

Being bipolar is one thing, bipolar depression is another; I feel generally miserable all day long..all day. I feel like I’m trying to climb out of a black hole filled with apathy, while trying to tune my emotions. When the mania hits I can’t even make rational decisions and I feel like my brain is on auto pilot. UGH.

@mista589

3y↑5

It's a see saw, that never ends. Triggers mean nothing when your manic, but when, their presented in depression it's like living all your wounds again with another year of baggeg added on.

@AudreyThePanda

3y↑5

me too! i genuinely want to leave this earth one day and then have a great day the next. it’s been going on for weeks now on and off. every other day. since this differs from bipolar 1 or 2, i don’t know if that is my diagnosis but i know something is wrong..

@taylor0000027

3y↑4

I feel happy 80 to 90 percent of the time when I'm around friends, family and coworkers. Super happy guy from the outside but even when I'm "happy" I still feel this feeling in the back of my mind, uncontrolled unfiltered of just anger and the deepest sadness.
I can't stand being alone, I do love myself but I hate so many parts of me.. I think I only feel happy when I'm not paying attention to anything and living in the moment, basically escapism. But at the end of the day when you go to sleep, there is no escape from your thoughts...

@rsvp89

Same here

@goodmeasure777

@BudGoOutside Bless you. Bear hug to you. You sound like someone that was very dear to me.

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@chronological_or_alphabetical

3y↑1

I think I have it or is developing it because it happens every two days at the least. I’m not very happy during my “mania” but feel more powerful and wired. It usually happens when hearing a certain genre of song or when I eat a lot.
Again, I said THINK not having it. It also happens for hours to a day. I think it might be because I’ve been so happy and energetic doing something and when I’m not doing it I’m usually sad or trying to hurt myself.

@peepeemonster2214

5y↑20

Bipolar and seizures run in my family, along with history of severe depression. I am 12, just gotten “out” of depression, hopefully it doesn’t come back as bad as it was. ❤️ to anyone that has the illness, it will balance out if you get help no matter what. ❤️❤️💖💖 stay strong

@BradPwnsU

5y↑3

My advice as a 21 year old who is bipolar and was depressed at your age, (which I definitely came out of) is to just stay positive and enjoy being young and hanging out with your friends, and generally enjoying life. As you get older you will be more level-headed because at around 12 you are very hormonal and it affects your mind. Just don’t EVER do things like stay in bed all day, down yourself, be lazy, etc. If you get depressed start moving and doing something. Be productive and surround yourself with friends and family. Remember that kid, just keep moving.

@peepeemonster2214

5y↑1

@Bradley
Thank you for the advice! I’ll start doing it to stay better ^^

@BradPwnsU

Chingа Cheetah good luck 👍🏻

@peepeemonster2214

Thank you! That means a lot ^^

@dulceforevercx3635

I wish you the best:) I hope you don’t have to deal with the lows as much!!! 💖please stay positive 😊

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@haileylopez8265

3y↑1

I’ve been told homeopathic vitamins for some of these things are more helpful than prescribed medication so currently I’m trying out different vitamins to see what works best for my anxiety since that’s been a HUGE issue the last 2 years. Been hospitalized so much from puking 12 hours a day.

@iPostiPodiEatiYuri

did they work?

@weswright7888

4y↑1

I feel like this fits perfectly to describe me but at the same time it feels equally fitting to say it’s just how life came at me (ups and downs) and I’m trying to justify it all by saying I’m bipolar to relieve responsibility to it all

@deathofchanel8568

1y↑1

Dealing with my Ex girlfriend of 3 years, I didn’t know she had Bipolar until it was too late, it sucks to be on the receiving end of the abuse, getting treated like dirt even though it’s not really their fault, it hurts even more when you forgive them but know that the momentary happiness will not last.

@stan_sporesoninstagram5573

I'm sorry your going through this 😌 but have you tried mircodosing shrooms? it helped my 2 years of depression. Follow the handle 👆 on Instagram for better information

@aabb1182

Im diagnosed with ptsd and heavy depression, yet.. ive been knowing before those diagnoses that i had all symptomps of bipolar but never brought it up whenever im on therapy. I think it will get treaten along the trauma and depression, i hope it will because if my parents knew i had bpd there would be more drama going on than there is now.

@doe4239

3y↑3

I've been trying to figure out if I have BPD or Bipolar Disorder for a while now. I have traits that fall into both categories however I don't wish to self-diagnose. However despite bringing this up to my mother (who is Bipolar, my bio dad also being schizophrenic), the fact that I have alot of similarties in both disorders, she persits that I'm making things up and that I just want attention, that none of this is real and that it's rude to make fun if people with BPD and Bipolar Disorder. I honestly don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I don't know if what she's saying is true, that I'm just making things up or if she just says that cause she dosn't care.

@DarkAmerica

5y↑2.3K

I'm bipolar 1. It sucksssss, I start meds this week for it. Wish me luck!

@DarrenMclarnon

5y↑61

I hope your doing well Chad!

@noaz2521

5y↑21

How u doin mate?

@michaelsamjr8655

5y↑15

Did it help?

@Catarinense-og8gu

5y↑20

Jesus loves you.

@blingbishop8252

5y↑11

Update?

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@rebelraccoon9018

21w

Been diagnosed in early 2020. However I've been suffering from bipolar for many years, it went undetected. Instead a psychiatrist diagnosed depression. Another one told me it was manic depression, that was the original name for bipolar. Got the wrong meds which made me gain weight. Struggled to shed the weight but did eventually. Then after I got the official bipolar diagnosis everything made sense. The crippling depressive lows, the suicidal thoughts, then the highs, the intense feeling of happiness and so much energy, being so productive it ends up knocking you off your feet at the end of the day. Then the extreme money spending, flirting with anyone you met. I've done some stupid dangerous things. Somehow survived. It's been a wild journey but it gets less hard as times go by. I don't deny it anymore and I'm accepting. Yes it is going to still be very hard but I'm somewhat more prepared. I wish everyone who suffers the best and I hope you stay hopeful.🧡 Because when we lose hope we lose it all. Don't ever let this illness defeat you.

@owenmacleod8681

20w

Thanks I needed to hear that honestly. It’s nice to know people out there care enough to send messages out to who knows just in the hope of spreading hope

@vladimirshredz4345

3y↑4

Coming to this video was the best thing I've done all week
..seeing all these comments of people all feeling similar and being able to relate not feeling alone is eye opening

@boo...5067

Alot of the symptoms for cyclothymia apply to me. My mother is depressed, my father has adhd, and my oldest sister is bipolar.. I'm a minor and my family doesn't even know about my suicidal thoughts and self harm so there is no way im telling them about this. I'm going to wait till I'm 18 to either get diagnosed with this or not.