Heavy
Black Honey Lyrics

My highs like a deadweight
My moments of happiness weigh me down heavily, making it difficult to lift myself up.

Lows just like a freight train
My moments of sadness hit me with immense force, overwhelming me like an oncoming freight train.

Holding on so tight
I am desperately gripping onto whatever I can to try and maintain control and stability.

Seconds til it escalates
It takes only a few seconds for my emotions to intensify and become uncontrollable.

From interstate to outer space
My emotions escalate rapidly, transcending boundaries and reaching cosmic proportions.

Holding on for my life
I am holding on for dear life, struggling to survive and maintain my mental well-being.

Serotonin let us down
The neurotransmitter serotonin, responsible for regulating mood, has failed us in providing the necessary stability and happiness.

Don't wanna watch the white horse drown
I don't want to witness the downfall or loss of hope, symbolized by a white horse, which represents strength and purity.

Never ending therapy cause my head is the enemy
I constantly need therapy because my own mind is against me, causing turmoil and internal struggles.

So don't let me, go steady
Please don't allow me to become stable or complacent, as it may lead to further emotional distress.

Baby pick me up I feel so heavy
I need someone to support and comfort me, as I am burdened by the weight of my emotions.

Don't think I can fake it anymore
I no longer have the strength or ability to pretend or hide my true feelings.

Walked into the room as things got messy
As I entered a situation, things quickly became chaotic and complicated.

Still heavy on my bedroom floor
Even when alone in my bedroom, the heaviness of my emotions persists and weighs me down.

I think I made a mistake
I believe I have made an error or regrettable decision.

A crime scene wrapped in yellow tape
The aftermath of my actions feels like a crime scene, with cautionary yellow tape wrapped around it, representing danger and caution.

Not sure where it sent me
I am uncertain about the consequences of my mistake and where it has led me in life.

Bodies lined in chalk shapes
Metaphorically, the consequences of my mistake have led to the figurative death of parts of myself, represented by bodies outlined in chalk on the ground.

Who needs friends anyway
I feel disconnected and isolated, questioning the importance or necessity of having friends in my life.

Maybe this time I'm done
Perhaps this time I have reached my breaking point or the end of my ability to cope.

Attention deficit ten tonnes
My lack of focus or attention feels incredibly heavy and burdensome, as if I am carrying ten tonnes of weight.

Still Heavy
Despite everything, I continue to feel weighed down and overwhelmed.