Fronted by Projekt Records' Sam Rosenthal, the band's line-up has changed significantly over time. The current lineup has Rosenthal on programming, guitar and keyboards, Jon DeRosa ( Aarktica) on vocals, and Henrik Meierkord on strings. The most notable former members of the band are Brian Viglione (The Dresden Dolls) on percussion, guitar & bass, and vocalists Athan Maroulis (ex-Spahn Ranch), Nicki Jaine, and long time vocalists, Oscar Herrera & Elysabeth Grant.
The style of Black Tape for a Blue Girl is generally described as "gothic", though their long catalog of music does not often gel with all of the contemporary standards of gothic music over time. The lyrics are by Rosenthal himself and explores powerful emotions of love, vulnerability, isolation, loss, jealousy, and passion.
A Chaos of Desire
Black Tape for a Blue Girl Lyrics
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knowing we've severed every tie - yet remain bound to each other
knowing how i long for the one i once loved - the one who once loved me
knowing what i've lost - what is it like to have that beyond reach?
knowing that your voice will destroy any new dreams i create.
knowing i'll do the things that you desire.
life moves on. lie in wait. unaffected. unconscious.
a chaos of desire
knowing i love you...
there's no longer, anything i can do
there's no longer, anything i can do about it.
The song "A Chaos of Desire" by Black Tape for a Blue Girl is a gut-wrenching expression of the complexities involved in a past love that still lingers in one's heart. The lyrics are an internal monologue of someone who's still deeply affected by their past lover even though they can't be together anymore. The opening lyrics, "knowing your voice could awaken me - is what makes my life impossible", portrays a feeling of helplessness and powerlessness in the face of a love that still holds sway over them. The feeling of being bound to each other despite having severed all ties is captured in the line "knowing we've severed every tie - yet remain bound to each other."
The lyrics evoke a sense of longing for what once was, the desire for the one who once loved them, and the pain of knowing they can never have it back. The line "knowing what I've lost - what is it like to have that beyond reach?" encapsulates the sorrow that comes with realizing that what's lost cannot be regained. Despite the distance, the singer believes that their ex-lover's voice can still destroy any new dreams that they create and that they'll always do the things that they desire. The chorus of the song, "a chaos of desire, knowing I love you, there's no longer anything I can do, there's no longer anything I can do about it," poignantly summarizes the helplessness and despair one feels when they're trapped in a cycle of desire for a love that can never be fully realized.
Line by Line Meaning
knowing your voice could awaken me - is what makes my life impossible
Realizing that hearing your voice can bring back my feelings for you makes it unbearable for me to continue living normally.
knowing we've severed every tie - yet remain bound to each other
We have officially ended our relationship, but I can't help but feel connected to you in a way that makes it impossible to move on.
knowing how i long for the one i once loved - the one who once loved me
I am painfully aware of how much I miss the person I used to love, who also loved me at one point in time.
knowing what i've lost - what is it like to have that beyond reach?
I understand the things I've lost, but I can't help but wonder what it feels like to still have those things within reach.
knowing that your voice will destroy any new dreams i create.
I am aware that the sound of your voice will ruin any new aspirations I come up with.
knowing i'll do the things that you desire.
I am aware that I will go along with whatever you want me to do, regardless of how I truly feel about it.
life moves on. lie in wait. unaffected. unconscious.
Time keeps moving forward without considering my pain, while I remain incapacitated, waiting for a change that may never come.
knowing that your voice will destroy any new dreams i believe in.
I am aware that hearing you speak will shatter any hope or dreams I have, preventing me from ever moving on or finding happiness.
a chaos of desire
My emotions are in a state of absolute turmoil and confusion, especially with regards to my unrequited feelings for you.
knowing i love you...
I am fully aware of my deep and intense love for you, even if it is not reciprocated.
there's no longer, anything i can do
I have exhausted all options and efforts, and there is nothing more I can do to change the situation or outcome.
there's no longer, anything i can do about it.
I have accepted the reality that I am powerless to control my feelings or the situation, and there is nothing left for me to do or say.
Contributed by Connor S. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Sam Rosenthal
on All my lovers
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