Stand Alone
Blood Orchid Lyrics


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I waited so long for this moment
I forget how to live for today
Full speed but I'm not getting nowhere
I still believe, believe in nothing at all
Sometimes I feel like I'm dying
Maybe I'm already dead
I don't know why I keep trying
I still believe, believe in nothing at all

I stand alone and I'm not gonna break
It's getting harder every morning I wake
I fucking hate it, but I love it this way
Kill me baby, kill me baby

I had a dream I was king of the ocean
because I like to drown in my pain
I was swollen, I was floating
I don't believe, believe in nothing at all
I'll be just fine in the morning
Just another ordinary man
Scratching the walls of this prison
I still believe, believe in nothing at all

I stand alone, and I'm not gonna break
It's getting harder every morning I wake
I fucking hate it, but I love it this way
Kill me baby, kill me baby

And if I make it then I gotta maintain
Put a bullet inside of my brain




My whole life is a fucking mistake
Kill me baby, kill me baby

Overall Meaning

In "Stand Alone" by Blood Orchid, the lyrics delve into themes of hopelessness, desperation, and self-destructive tendencies. The opening lines highlight a sense of longing for something that has been anticipated for a long time, but the singer has forgotten how to live in the present moment. They express a feeling of being stuck in a constant state of motion, yet feeling as if they are not progressing or achieving anything. The repeated phrase "believe in nothing at all" suggests a loss of faith or purpose.


The second paragraph further emphasizes the singer's isolation and resilience. They proclaim that they are standing alone and will not succumb to breaking under the weight of their struggles. The line "It's getting harder every morning I wake" embodies the daily battle they face, waking up to the same difficulties. The lines "I fucking hate it, but I love it this way" convey a complex mix of emotions, where they despise their circumstances but have grown accustomed to them. The repeated plea to be killed reflects a deep desire to escape their suffering.


In the next verse, the singer recounts a dream where they were the king of the ocean, symbolizing their desire to be overwhelmed by their pain. This metaphorical drowning reveals a propensity for self-destruction. Despite the apparent numbness they feel, the chorus repeats their inability to believe in anything. The imagery of being "swollen" and "floating" adds to the feeling of being detached from reality and further reinforces their detachment from belief.


The final verse expresses a conflicting sentiment. The singer claims they will be fine in the morning, but their designation as an "ordinary man" suggests a resignation to a monotonous and unfulfilling existence. The reference to scratching the walls of a prison conveys a sense of confinement and frustration. The repeated plea to be killed echoes the perceived worthlessness and desire for an end to their struggles.


Overall, the lyrics of "Stand Alone" offer a depiction of someone trapped in a cycle of despair and self-destruction. It portrays their struggle to find meaning, their refusal to give in, and their conflicting emotions towards their own suffering.


Line by Line Meaning

I waited so long for this moment
I've been eagerly anticipating this moment for a very long time


I forget how to live for today
I often lose sight of living in the present moment


Full speed but I'm not getting nowhere
I am moving quickly but not making any progress


I still believe, believe in nothing at all
Despite everything, I have faith in nothing


Sometimes I feel like I'm dying
At times, I experience a sense of impending death


Maybe I'm already dead
Perhaps I am already spiritually or emotionally lifeless


I don't know why I keep trying
I lack understanding as to why I continue to make efforts


I still believe, believe in nothing at all
Despite everything, I still hold onto a belief in nothing


I stand alone and I'm not gonna break
I remain resilient and refuse to be shattered


It's getting harder every morning I wake
Every day, it becomes more difficult for me to face the world


I fucking hate it, but I love it this way
I despise it, yet somehow I am drawn to this situation


Kill me baby, kill me baby
Expressing a desire for release from emotional pain or suffering


I had a dream I was king of the ocean
In my dream, I held dominance over the vast expanse of the sea


because I like to drown in my pain
As a way to cope, I find solace in immersing myself in my own suffering


I was swollen, I was floating
In the dream, I felt a sense of weight, yet also a sense of buoyancy


I don't believe, believe in nothing at all
In reality, I have lost faith in everything


I'll be just fine in the morning
With the new day, I will likely find myself in a better state


Just another ordinary man
I am simply an average individual


Scratching the walls of this prison
Metaphorically trying to escape the confines of my own mind


I still believe, believe in nothing at all
Despite everything, I continue to hold onto a belief in nothing


And if I make it then I gotta maintain
If I achieve success, I must work to sustain it


Put a bullet inside of my brain
A metaphorical expression of feeling trapped or overwhelmed


My whole life is a fucking mistake
I view my entire existence as a series of regrettable choices


Kill me baby, kill me baby
Expressing a desire for relief from the burdens of life




Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Nikolais Palencia

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@Mina.Ellahi

This song really reminds me of Spirit In The Sky - by Norman Greenbaum

@degrozor8284

Maybe this swirling background hypnotizes and makes you listen to this track and "nightshade" again and again?

@naphtakronya

Coming from nowhere to bring some chaos late at night..! 🤯💞

@BloodOrchidMusic

absolutely

@rouseline8289

Add to my villain playlist

@sillydawg686

Everything about this song is absolutely fire ! I love all of ur music; keep up the great work !! <3

@BloodOrchidMusic

Thanks I appreciate it

@biho70

out of time vibes, bring more like this, gives me energy

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